"Umm..."

I come back to my senses.

"Y-your coffee. It-it will get cold."

His eyes hover around my face and then my hands.

"My friend is here. Thank you for taking care of me."

I want to stop him.

I want ask him about anything he might know about Kai.

But as if an unknown force was constricting my throat, I stay silent.

Still as ice.

Petrified.

It can be just a misunderstanding, this might be someone who just looks like him but....my heart says otherwise.

He is leaving.

And might not be able to find him ever again.

And my last chance to get closer to Kai may just...disappear.

Forever.

With a dark void in my heart.

"Wait!"

He is leaving.

And I stop him.

My hands are clutching the hem of his shirt's cuff tightly.

He looks at it, then straight into my eyes.

"...yes?"

"You know him?"

And something changes on his face.

Maybe because of how needy my voice sounded.

"I-"

"You know him, don't you?"

I am on my knees, holding his hand to my head.

Pearly tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Please let me see him, atleast once. I will stay afar and will never come in front of you. But just this once. I beg you."

I sound pathetic.

But that's what I've become.

Pathetic.

With a hole in me which can't be filled.

Or it can be.

I don't know what I had done wrong.

That Kai left me without any sign.

But I am determined to prove my love.

Because it hurts.

It hurts when he is not here.

Not even in my dreams, like before.

Without his voice filling my senses as we shared our thoughts.

Our connection.

And it hurts.

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