𝙰𝚖𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚊'𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚟

After my meeting I quickly changed at home and went to the tack room where my packages were still laying. I placed my new dressage boots on the shelf and then placed my new helmets on the other shelf. I took a look at my white board and decided to get the 6 year old Ibsen out for a dressage training. I pulled on my new black dressage boots with my new helmet when I had tacked up the dark brown almost black gelding. My black saddle with white saddle pad laid correctly on his back as I took his bridle and fur boots with me. I placed the fur boots and fur bell boots on his legs making sure it was comfortable for him before putting in his double bridle. I leaded him to the outside arena where I started warming him up. Tempo changes, stretching, turning... you know that stuff. When he was warm I started with some trotting and warmed him up with the same things as in the walk. After 20 minutes of warming up walking and trotting it was time to get to work a little more.

A loud whistle made me look up and lock eyes with Flo and Lando. Flo had her boots and helmets still on as she was sitting on Kadance. She stopped in front of the dance of the outdoor arena and so did I.

Flo: "how was your meeting?"

Amelia: "a mess. Got the sponsorship tho."

Flo: "that's great news!"

Amelia: "definitely. I need to get Ibs ridden and then the others and I still need to go to JT stables..."

Flo: "how many horse there today?"

Amelia: "5 horses. 3 riding and 2 lunging."

Flo: "I'll muck out today and place the food ready so you only have to give it okay?"

Amelia: "no you don't need too. I can handle it myself. I'll just go to bed a little later or something."

Flo: "like the past weeks? Amelia your overworking yourself. What's the longest you slept the past weeks? 5 hours?"

Amelia: "4,5 hours..."

Flo: "Jeez Amelia. Please take a break this isn't healthy anymore and those damn microwave meals aren't helping really either."

Amelia: "I know Flo but I need to work my ass off if I want to reach my dream and if that means living like this I fucking will... you know that and you also know I don't want help because I want to reach it because of myself. Your really sweet with already helping me here and there but I don't need anymore help okay?"

Flo: "I know... I just want you to get more rest... since you started working at the JT stables you've got even less time then before..."

Amelia: "I know and I'm sorry for that but I really need every little penny I can get."

She nodded at me with a small smile before I picked up my reins and went on riding while Lando leaned against the fence looking at me. After 30 more minutes I had also cooled down and jumped off. I rewarded the horse with a small kiss on his nose and leaded him to the grooming place to tack him off. Lando leaned against the wall in front of me next to the door of the tack room.

Lando: "I'm moving to Monaco..."

Amelia: "really?"

Lando: "yea..."

Amelia: "hey Flo?"

Flo walked out of the feeding room and stood still in the door opening.

Flo: "yea."

Amelia: "I think I'm gonna take that job."

Flo: "really? That's amazing! Your gonna get your dream job!"

Lando: "what job?"

Flo: "Amelia got an offer 5 months ago to move back to Germany. She would get an apartment at the stables where she could stable her own horses for free and then train horses off the stable. All the competition money would be paid by the stable even from her own horses."

Lando: "so why didn't you take your dream job earlier?"

Amelia: "because I wanted to stay in England... as you lived here and we were on good terms back then luckily for me I still have a month the time to think off the offer."

Lando: "so you're saying you were about to decline your dream job offer because of me?"

Amelia: "yes Lando. That's exactly what I'm saying."

Lando: "are you out of your mind?! You should have accepted that offer when you got it!"

Amelia: "but I didn't because I cared too much about you and your feelings okay?! I didn't want to break your heart so I broke mine instead of yours!"

Lando: "you choose me over yourself..."

Amelia: "yes I did... because you do those things when you love someone."

I took my dressage saddle off of Ibsen and walked into the tack room. Lando followed me in as I hung the saddle back on the bar underneath Ibsen's jumping saddle. I placed the dark blue cover over the saddle to prevent it from dust and laid my girth on top of it as I pulled off my new helmet that was very comfortable. I placed it back on the shelf before I turned around and Lando placed his hands on my waist.

Lando: "Amelia I want you to take that job. Don't think about anything but your own future and what you want. Your so selfless that it's time for you to be selfish for once okay. Forget me... forget Flo. Think about what you want."

His eyes were red as tears started to well up in the corner of his eyes. He whispered please to me but no sound came over his lips. His eyes were full of regret I could see it.

Amelia: "that's the problem Lando... I can't... I can't forget you. You're on my mind 24/7 even tho you've hurt me I can't stop thinking about you."

I laid my hands on his cheeks and wiped the tears that started rolling over his cheek away with my thumbs not leaving his eyes.

Lando: "I don't want you to make decisions just because of me."

Amelia: "and that's okay because I know that I would give up my career to just be with you. I would give up my whole world to be with you."

Lando: "but I don't want you too. I'm so selfish about formula 1 that I forget about you and how strong you are. I forget how much I'm in love with you until I fucked it up."

Amelia: "it's okay Lando... it's okay."

Lando: "can you forgive me?"

Amelia: "of course I can..."

Lando: "can you accept that job offer?"

Amelia: "I can and I will okay? We will figure something out to see each other alright?"

Lando: "alright..."

He softly pecked my lips before letting his head rest on my shoulder. We stood in silence for a moment before letting go of each other.

Amelia: "I've to head to work. Everything is gonna be alright okay?"

Lando: "yea..."

I kissed his cheek shortly as I took my black Sam shield and black jumping boots off the shelf and left the tack room. My dressage boots still on as they tapped the floor with every step I took.

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