It had been a long 3 weeks since I started treatment and I've been stuck in hospital, I've been getting infection after infection but I've had plenty of visitors, Amelia has been spending almost all of her free time with me and if I was honest I've fallen for her, I mean really fallen for her but I couldn't tell her, she'd probably reject me and then stop spending time with me and I don't want that. Today I had a list of visitors coming to see me, it was starting with Derek, Mer' Zola and Bailey. Then Dr Bailey was going to check in on me, then Alex is spending his break with me, then Arizona said she'd bring Grace to come see me since she had been asking to see me. Then I'm definitely having a nap because I'll definitely be knackered. Then it will probably be lunch so Amelia would probably come see me then, I don't even know when she's free today but anyway in the afternoon I've got Grace's social worker coming to see me as I requested her to come. Then Mer' will probably be here again for a little bit after her shift Amelia Will probably be back like she's been doing after every shift.

"Amelia said she'll come in to see you on her break" Meredith said as she entered my room with Zola and Bailey. A smile appeared on my face as Amelia's name was mentioned and I think Meredith and Derek picked up on that.

"She does know she doesn't have to see me, I feel bad. She's been spending like all of her time with me, she's only been going back to yours to shower and if I demand she does" I exclaimed as Zola hugged me. I wrapped my arms around my niece as I hugged her, it felt kind of normal to get to have them here.

"She knows, but between us... I think my sister has feelings for you" Derek smiled to me as I looked over to him and shook my head.

"I highly doubt that" I said looking away from my brother-in-law.

"Belle' I know your scared to get close to anyone right now because you don't want to hurt them if you don't fight this but you are going to fight this, your going to fight and we are all going to help you fight" Meredith said as she sat in the chair beside me. I felt terrible for my niece and nephew having to see me like this and I was terrified as I gradually get sicker that they would be scared, that it would effect them growing up and I didn't want that, not one little bit.

"I know how hard it is for me right now, the urges of breaking out of the hospital and going to score. I'm not going to lie; every single day for the last three weeks I've thought about it. If I get close to Amelia" I paused looking down biting my lip

"If I get close to Amelia and I don't make it or it gets too hard for her, what if she relapses. I don't want to put her through that. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if Amelia relapses" I exclaimed.

"Then we will help you both if anything happens. You both deserve to be happy. If you both like each other then go for it. You know life is short" Meredith said as I looked at her.

"I can't put Amelia through any of this. She's already been with me like twenty-four seven and I can't do anything to repay her for that, as much as I would love to repay her I can't because I'm stuck in here for the foreseeable" I exclaimed

"Just talk to Amelia" Derek said, it seemed as if he knew something I didn't, I had to be honest with myself, I was falling for Amelia Shepherd and I was falling hard.

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Third Person

Amelia was talking to a patient when she saw her brother stood outside the room. She was preparing for the surgery and just making she she had all the details she needed.

"Alright, that should be it. You'll be taken down to surgery later today" Amelia smiled politely to her patient who thanked her, Derek was going to talk to Amelia about Annabelle, he knew she liked the Grey Sister and Meredith found out that Annabelle liked Amelia, she knew the way she smiled when she spoke about her she smiled happily

"You need to talk to Annabelle, you know she's not wanted to tell you how she feels because she doesn't want you to relapse, she doesn't want to put you through the pain of if she she can't fight the cancer" Derek told Amelia who frowned, she understood why Annabelle didn't want to tell her how she felt but she wanted Annabelle to know that she isn't going to be alone, that she isn't going to leave her

"I'll talk to her when I go and see her at lunch" Amelia said and Derek nodded before he had to get off to surgery. As Amelia watched her brother walk off she thought for a moment. She really did like Annabelle, more than just in a friend, she saw herself being happy with Annabelle and having a future with her which if she was honest, she hand thought like that with many people in her life. Annabelle was different, the way she smiled a lot; even if she was hurting, but she also wasn't afraid to be vulnerable with Amelia, they both knew how hard it was some days to stay clean and the past 3 weeks had been hard for Annabelle bit Amelia has held her hand and been to meetings and FaceTimed Annabelle so she could be at a meeting.

As Amelia thought about Annabelle she decided now was the right time to tell her how she feels, life was short and she wanted to make the most of it, she wanted to be with Annabelle; she was in this for the long haul

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Annabelle's POV

"Hi Grace" i beamed as Arizona brought Grace into see me, I was happy to see the four hear old and she looked happy to see me too.

"Annabelle!!!" Grace grinned happily, Arizona placed her on the bed and Grace wrapped her arms around my neck, she hugged me happily.

"Have you been good for the doctors and nurses?" I asked Grace who smiled

"Me been good. I drew you pictures" Grace said looking over to Arizona, Arizona handed the three pictures to me and I smiled.

"I love them Grace, thank you" I smiled to the child as I looked at her drawings.

"That's you and that's me. We're both in a bed because we're poorly" Grace said showing me the drawings, a smile formed on my face.

"Then this one we are at the park, on the grass" Grace then said and then she looked at the last one.

"That one is me, so you don't forget me" Grace said and my heart shattered in my chest. I would never forget Grace. Not when I'm thinking of adopting her, when I'm well enough, if I get better.

"I'll never forget you Grace" I said softly as I pulled her into a sideways hug. I quickly motioned for Arizona to pick Grace up so I could run to the bathroom, or technical walk to the bathroom so I could be sick, the wave of sickness came over me almost instantly.

"You okay?" Arizona asked coming into the bathroom to hold my hair back as I was doubled over the toilet.

"I'm fine" i said coughing slightly as I stood back up, if I was being honest I wasn't okay, I was far from it, I wanted to score so badly and truthfully I was struggling but I can't leave the hospital, I'm too sick.

"You don't look it. I'll take Grace back to her room and then get your oncologist to come and check on you, or I could check on you" Arizona said.

"I don't want to bother Barbara if it's nothing. I'm fine. I think I just need some sleep, your  my last visitor until around 12:30 ish when Amelia is coming to see me, and I've got Grace's social worker coming by later too but I'm fine, I'm fine" I said trying to convince not only Arizona but myself too that I was fine.

"Fine but at least let me check your vitals when I get back from taking Grace back" Arizona said as i leant against the sink rinsing my mouth with my minty mouthwash.

"Fine" I said once I had spat the mouthwash into the sink and washed the sink out, I then flushed the toilet and Arizona helped me back into bed.

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Arizona had came straight back and checked my vitals, my blood pressure was low and for some reason I wasn't getting enough oxygen and once again I was dehydrated so Arizona spoke to Barbara and put me on fluids and oxygen. My blood pressure being low was probably why I had been feeling weak, although when my vitals were checked that morning I'm sure it was fine but then again, I wasn't technically with it, I was half asleep and letting whoever was doing my checks do them. Once Arizona had left I fell asleep for a little while.

12:26pm was when I woke up from my nap, I felt sick but also I felt like I had no energy which was all fun, note the sarcasm there! A small yawn escaped my lips as I just lay there, that was until Amelia walked into the room with some flowers.

"These are for you" Amelia said causing me to give her a confused look.

"What are these for?" I asked Amelia as I admired the lilies and roses, they were beautiful.

"I just thought you'd like some flowers" Amelia smiled

"Thank you" I said softly smiling as she put the flowers in the vase that was on the set of draws beside the bed, the flowers were beautiful and made the room feel a little more like home.

"How are you feeling?" Amelia asked sitting on the chair beside the bed.

"Sick, bored. Struggling" I admitted to Amelia

"Struggling in what way? Do you need me to go to a meeting and FaceTime you?" Amelia asked.

"I think I need to physically go to a meeting, I know I can't leave the hospital but I think I really do need to go to a meeting" I admitted to Amelia who nodded.

"I'll see what I can do, I'll talk to Barbera later and see if I can take you out for a while tomorrow to go to a meeting" Amelia smiled genuinely to me

"Thank you" I practically whispered.

"So Derek came to see me earlier" Amelia began

"And he told me that you didn't want to get close to me in case you don't make this but I know you will! Your a fighter Annabelle Grey and I'm not going to let you go through this alone." Amelia said. I looked down as I tried to decide if I should tell Amelia the truth, that I like her, that if I had a future I wanted to be with her.

"The truth is..." I paused taking a deep breath.

"The truth is Amelia, I like you, I really like you but I don't know if you feel the same. I mean who am I kidding; why would you like me. Im nothing special but god I do like you but it's been like only 3 weeks and I've never felt this way be..." Amelia cut me off, our lips connected and I felt 'sparks' it was insane.

"So what does this mean?" I exclaimed once we had both pulled away.

"I like you too Annabelle, and I don't care what you say you are special, you are different to anyone I've met before" Amelia said shocking me. I bite down on my lower lip.

"What I am trying to say is Annabelle, I've liked you for weeks now but I didn't know how you felt" Amelia said

"I don't want to put you through the pain of loosing me if I can't fight this. If I die and we had for together I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if you ended up relapsing!" I exclaimed as I ran a hand through my hair.

"You don't have to worry about me Annabelle! I've got you now, you can do this and I'm not leaving you" Amelia began and I frowned. Amelia took my hand in hers and gently pushed some hair behind my ear, our eyes locked and I felt truely and deeply in love.

"Amelia" I said glancing down again as I tried to figure out what to say, I didn't know what this meant

"Annabelle Grey would you be my girlfriend?" Amelia asked as she held my hand, I was speechless, like this was to even happening.

"Amelia Shepherd, yes I will be your girlfriend" I said with a smile on my face. Amelia leant towards me and our lips locked as she kissed me softly

"how would you feel if I snuck you into the gallery for my surgery this afternoon." Amelia asked as she changed the subject.

"You know.. I would love that. I've been desperate to watch a surgery" I smiled happily. I was happy, I mean genuinely happy but even though I was happy I was still worried that if something happened to me that Amelia would relapse but she has everyone else to pull her through if that ever happens.

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It was later that afternoon when Amelia got me into a wheelchair, made sure I had water and I was warm enough and then she pushed me to the gallery of OR 2.

"Thank you Amelia" I said once she made sure I was comfortable in the gallery.

"Your welcome beautiful" Amelia said kissing my cheek softly before anyone else came in. I watched Amelia as she left the gallery to scrub in.

"Hi Wilson!" I said to Jo as she came into the gallery. She seemed to take a double take when she sat me sat in the wheelchair.

"Hi Doctor Grey!" Jo said and I rolled my eyes.

"You don't have to Call me doctor grey, call me Belle" i said smiling to her.

"Are okay, Belle' how are you doing?" Jo asked and I smiled.

"Been better. Genuinely I miss working, I miss going out and having a few drinks with Alex, I miss the pizza and movie nights that the three of us have had. But I'm pushing through. I'm fighting this to the best of my ability" I shrugged.

"Are you really okay?" Jo asked and I nodded.

"Well as good as I can be with the chemo, cancer and the countless of infections I've had but hey, I'm fine. I'm good" I said smiling.

"Well you know if you need anything I'm more than happy to help" smiled Jo

"Thanks Wilson" I smiled.

"How about when I'm actually discharged we go for a drink, I mean we haven't ever been close but being diagnosed with cancer for the third time has made me come to realise that I need people not only to lean on but I have to give people a chance, not that I haven't given you a chance we just haven't had the opportunity to get to know each other, do you get what I mean?" I asked

"Or I could get a pizza and you and I can have a movie night? If you need company one night?" Jo suggested.

"That would be nice. It would also give Amelia a night off, she's been here like 24/7 and I think she needs some time away from the hospital" i said with a small smile.

"Just tell me when you want the movie night and I'll make sure I'm not on shift" Jo said smiling. I nodded and then my eyes fell upon the OR, Amelia looked so beautiful as she did her thing, as she operated I smiled happily as once in a while when she is often changing equipment she would look up and our eyes would lock again, every single time butterflies would explode into my stomach, I mean it could be waves of sickness but I would like to believe it was butterflies... butterflies would be the best option right now and that's definitely a fact