I hate rainy days
They make me feel damp, messy, grey, my rainy mornings are
Tired
And I hate looking outside the window to see pale light streak into
My room

And it reminds me of
You
I remember dancing in the rain with you,
Smiles against kisses,
Twirling in puddles and feeling my cheeks turn pink in the cold

The only thing that bettered the fever that followed,
Was the snippets of laughing with you,
How you yelled I love you and you're so beautiful,
Made me forget the sniffles and the haze that would cloud my head

But I don't have that anymore,
On rainy days like these,
When the sky is blotted with heavy clouds
And the ground is slick with water,
I don't have anyone to dance with,

No one to pull me close in this
Horrible of weather

Maybe I'll meet a sun-eyed boy,
With freckles as stars across his cheeks,
And laughter that makes flowers blossom,
And maybe he'll make me forget you,
He'll whisk me up on rainy mornings and he will
Bring in the scents of spring,
And he will
He will

He will adore me,
He will grow flowers in the saddest parts of me,
Petals of pale pinks, watery blues and vibrant greens,
He will make me laugh again,

And when I'm clutching my stomach with a kind of
Breathless laughter
I will realise that
He doesn't
Exist

And I will be left alone in the rain again,
Watching as droplets of water fall along my skin
The way tears do as I sob into nothing