Lilith

I've watched her for a long time... she is really is so beautiful. Wait no. Let me start over... that sounded really creepy.

Mother has been watching her for a long time through me... sound less creepy? Nope, not really.

I run my hands through my hair frustrated.

I sit in the control room, in my wheelchair. Since Mother isn't possessing me, I don't have as much mobility because my body is so used to having her in my brain to fire the electrical signals needed to make me move my muscles. It takes a lot of energy and willpower to get myself to move, and I can if needed, but it's always safer to save that energy and use it for... other things. I guess this is the price I need to pay for being Mother's favorite. Also besides the fact that she forces me to do things that I don't want... so is there really any upside to being Mother's favorite... well I guess the one... That at least it's not Minami anymore. When she used him, it hurt him so bad. He just wasn't built right. I rather take his place, than let him suffer. Poor Minami and Akihiko. If it wasn't for me, they wouldn't have been caught that night.

Mother has been using me for the past 5 years ever since the incident... every time I think about the incident, I want to curl up in a ball and cry. Oh and also apologize profusely to Minami and Akihiko.

Well, I shouldn't apologize to them for just that incident. I need to apologize to them for everything. For letting her control me. For not being able to stop her. For not being able to protect them. For letting her and this whole organization control us. 

Although the white rats purposely built me to be weak minded so that Mother would have an easier time controlling me. Apparently, it took them a while to be able to find the perfect balance between a strong body but weak mind. But after several tries here I am.

I take a deep breath in. But just because I was created to be a certain way, doesn't mean that I have to follow that design.

In fact, I should take Minami as a model. Although he doesn't have the same coding, in fact, he is coded to think for himself, and to have the intuition to fight for what he thinks is right, he was implanted only a few weeks after me. But he was a fighter. He fought for what was right. He fought for what he believed in, and who he loved. He fought hard for Akihiko's rights. Mother wanted to dispose of him back in the days when he wasn't controlling his powers well enough, but Minami stood up for him, telling Mother that he would leave Hell's Fire if Akihiko was removed. Even after the incident, I knew that they still care for each other even though I know that they would hide the fact that they care for each other deep down so that Mother would not be able to notice it.

I wish I were able to be like him. I wish I had the power to fight for the ones I love. I already let a lot of them suffer, but her... I promise to myself I will keep her safe. And I will. That I promise to myself. I will stand up to Mother when she is using my body to do things I disagree with. Yes, this whole thing will come to an end.

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A/n

Hello lovely human beans~

I cried for like 30 min today, and I don't know why...

Also, I watched incredibles 2, and it was really good! Also, the short film before it "Bao" is really good and made me cry, but what do you expect from a DisneyxPixar short film.

Anycoodoos, thank you so much for reading this chapter

Love you lots,

Peace out

Origonal A/n

Hello lovely human beans~

It's my birthday today, so it was a great surprise when @Oldham told me that my book was plagiarized... but don't worry it's actually just a site that basically copied Wattpad, and one of my books are one of them they copied.

... I think this is the first Lilith chapter... I hope it made sense, and was ok.

Anyjos, see you guys in 3 days, cause I'm going on a retreat, and there won't be wifi, so I can't upload... apologies.

Peace out.