Akihiko

Kasai won't believe me. I know... The number of times I ran this conversation through my head...thinking about the different ways I could tell her what she needed to know... ways to make it all seem less harsh... but the outcome I imagine in my head is always unfavorable for the both of us.

Why one may ask? It's because she has pegged me as the villain... the antagonist... that's the way she's thought of me... ever since that first dream where we met each other.

Why does she hate me? I mean all that I have done has been to protect her... her and him as well... I'm trying to do everything I can to try and keep them both safe.

The first dream I brought Kasai into was to teach her the pain of losing someone you love... The pain that I am oh too familiar with...

The second was a warning... that she needed to stay away from him or else she would experience that pain... well, not only Kasai, but him as well, and to have him experience that pain twice... just proves that I'm a failure.

And the third... well that was her seeking me out... not me bringing her into my world... that was her coming to me...

I tried to protect the both of them... but in the end, I just made it worse...

And him... I haven't seen him in a while... and I thought my feelings for him would have changed... but I guess they haven't.

I reach up and touch my scar... a reminder of what happens when we are together... a reminder of what happens when my disgusting self gets to close to him. I, a weapon should never be with a prince, someone so open-hearted and pure as him... how ironic that our names mean the opposite... Minami... a samurai... a warrior... funny that he should pick a name like Akihiko for me... a name that is not fitting at all... a name that fits him better than me. I have never understood why he named me that.

I sigh. As long as I stay away from him... he'll be happy... that was always the rule... Well, was the rule anyways... a rule that SHE would follow...but SHE broke it... I just want to lash out at HER...but then I remember him, and what SHE did to him... to me... to us...and to... to her.

I need to protect him... I need to take Kasai away out of his life so SHE doesn't get to him... because I know that he likes her...am I a little jealous...yes...did I do this because I was jealous... Did I try to separate them because I was jealous...no... I did it for him because if I didn't SHE would hurt him...At least that is what I tell myself. I had to get both Yuri and Kasai... it was HER order's not my own decisions, and as long as I follow HER orders, he will be safe... and I know that SHE would use Kasai to get to Minami... even if he is HER only son. 

I will do anything to keep him safe, even if it puts other people in danger, even myself... Anything, even if it means doing HER dirty work. As long as he is safe, I don't mind being in the shadows, sullied by the bad deeds that I have done.

Kasai's sitting on the love seat, legs crossed, drawn up so that she takes up the whole seat.

I'm sitting diagonally from her on the larger couch...

And what are we doing?...

Nothing. Absolutly nothing... well actually, we are sitting in awkward silence. I get up... and she raises her eyebrow.

"Where do think you're going?" She asks.

"Why are you asking?" I shoot back.

"Stop avoiding the question. Just answer the question. I asked first!"

"So? I asked second." I say walking over to the kitchen.

"Well fine then. If you're going to the kitchen, you might as well get me some tea... after all... I am your guest."

I roll my eyes and enter the kitchen. I grab two tea bags, and put them in two cups, and pour boiling water from the kettle, and walk back out. Yes, guests always get tea... a custom that has been practically branded into me by HER.

"Here." I say lifting up the cups to show her that I actually got her tea, "Happy?" I ask as I hand her a cup.

She nods her head and blows on the tea to cool it down.

"Glad you decided not to throw the tea at me this time," I say as I sit down in the same spot as I was before.

"It would be a shame to waste the tea." is all she says, and then takes a sip of her tea. I do the same.

We sit in silence...I don't know If I prefer the silence or the mindless chatter... it is like as long as we don't talk about any of the serious things or the things that are important, it will be as if they didn't happen... as if this was a dream...You know maybe what I need is a distraction... keep my mind off of him... and HER. Thinking of her never puts me in a good state of mind. And what would be a better distraction than Kasai?... I mean at this point I can't do anything to hurt the two of them even more... and SHE would want me to do it anyways... to keep Kasai here forever... And doing what SHE wants will keep HER away from Minami...

"Hey can I ask you something?" she breaks the silence first.

"You already did. You asked a question already which was if you could ask a question."

"Fine than can I ask another question?" She asks.

I smirk, "you just di-"

"Not counting the one I just asked." She jumps in.

I roll my eyes, "Fine."

She takes her time, drawing in a deep breath... hesitating a little bit..."Why?"

That simple one worded question, yet I'm still unable to formulate an answer. Why is it so difficult to answer her seemingly small insignificant question? That's because there is more than what's happening now that's the problem... the problem started a long, long time ago.

As I try to find something to say, I instantly shiver and break into a sweat... it's HER... she's coming. Every time she comes, I can tell. Well, my body can tell. I sit stiff and silent.

"Well are you going to answer me or not? Because I have better things to be doing like-"

"Shh" I whisper harshly, cutting Kasai off.

I hear heels clicking down the hallway. I knew it.

"What is it?" Kasai whispers.

I put my finger to my lips in a shushing motion, and slowly get up, and back away from the door.

The sound of the heels gets louder as SHE is approaching...I know Kasai can hear them now.

Alarmed, she also slowly gets up and backs away from the door.

The footsteps stop. outside the door. The handle turns.

SHE steps in casually and pulls off her long, elbow length gloves after SHE has entered my room.

"Where is my tea?"

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Original A/n:

A/n

Hello lovely human beans

Finally a chapter from Akihiko's POV!!! I hope this chapter kinda gave you an insight to Akihiko's thoughts and feelings...

And I hope that the pronouns I used in this chapter was not confusing... if you have any questions, ask... the woman who was referred to in caps is all one person...

Oh ya I google searched what Minami's name means, and apparently it is a reference to a family who has samurai connections!

TH3B00KMAST3R Yes that is a attempt to draw what Akihiko looks like... I'm not an artist... so I'm sorry... Ya and I can't really colour...but I tried. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Anywowzahs, see you guys in 2 days with a new chapter!

Peace Out.