(Plz kill me I need it. Also this is Janus angst)

*Janus pov*

I sighed. Remus has been hiding a crush from me. I knew Roman had made a bad impact on him.

"Remus..do you think you'll be able to tell (Y/n)?" I asked softly. He shook his head. I thought for a moment. I honestly didn't know what to do!

Yes. That sounds wrong for me to say. I am Deceit after all, but when it comes to Remus, I'm as honest as possible. Or, well, i try too be...

"Do you want me to help you find a way to confess?" I asked him. Remus sighed and nodded slowly. I smiled, feelings aren't my forte but I would do anything i could for Remus. Even help him with a crush.

I talked to him about it for a few minutes before he felt a bit better and decided to go to his room. I sighed as he walked out.

Remus. My best friend. My only friend. I might lose him to someone better. I chuckled, not the first time. I thought of Virgil, when he left i felt so much guilt and anger, but Remus would always calm me down. Soon I might be alone again. It's fine though, im used to being alone.

I could tolerate being alone. I was the first dark side. Nothing could really bother me if i was alone, but then Remus and Virgil came into the picture. I had friends.

When Virgil left I locked myself in my room for days. Remus hated it but I couldn't come out. Virgil never even told me he was leaving!

I sat on my bed, upset and angry with myself. How could i be so stupid?! If I let Remus leave me too..i wouldn't know what to do. I felt tears stream down my face. I messed up.

I tried not to let Remus hear, and apparently it worked cause no one came to my door to check on me. I sighed, thinking about all the good times we all had as a group. The dark sides.

We always had so much fun together, but that got blown to pieces as soon as Virgil left. I couldn't understand why. I still don't.

I know I have said this already but, i cant lose Remus too. I mean.. Technically, event since I revealed my name, He has been acting weird. I'm not sure why. Was he afraid of losing me..?

I thought for a moment. Maybe he was. Why would he be..? I kept thinking. Then it clicked. I've been hanging out with Patton more often now. Tears filled my eyes as I realized, I was pulling a Virgil on him.

I remembered. I promised him I would never. But..I happened to lie. One thing I always try not to do to Re. I was breaking our promise. My promise. To him...

"Hey Jan..?"

"Yes Remus?

"Promise not to leave. Like he did...? Please.."

"Of course..why would i ever leave you...?

"I was..just asking...so you promise?"

"I p r o m i s e."

How could I have been so dramatic?! He wasn't leaving me! I was leaving him! I let it sink in as tears fell down my face, "I can't believe I..b-broke our promise..." I choked out. I wanted to hug Remus with all I had.

That's probably why he didn't want to tell me... He felt.. That I would leave, 'I'm an idiot..' I thought and laughed softly. I've been a bad snake boi.

I tried and tried to stop from thinking about it but oh looky here. Repression doesn't work! Who woulda thought? Not me!

I laughed again, a bit louder this time. I couldn't believe myself. At that moment in time. That exact moment. I pledged to do everything I could to help Remus. To help him find a way to (Y/n).

I mentally yelled at myself for being irrational and stupid. Of course he would be scared! I couldn't pull a Virgil on him. Never. I sighed and thought about how I could help.

There was really no way. I knew (Y/n) saw Remus as a friend. Either that, or they're a good lier.

Even if they were, it would be obvious to me. The Lord of lies. Deceit. I keep getting off topic. (Y/n) and Remus.

They probably wouldn't mix well together. Remus being the crazy bean he is and (Y/n) being a bean in general. (Yes I called you a bean. Dwi UwU)

I kept thinking, "Maybe i could..No..." I thought aloud. Then, it hit me.

Plants! They both seemed to like plants! (If you don't like plants. Sucks to suck. Sorry hun) Maybe I could set up some sort of plant date for them. They would have to get to know each other first of course.

I thought of ways to do that, but of course I've been running on no sleep for the past two days so my brain was mush.

I sighed and lied down on my bed, "I'll get some sleep. Then make a plan.." I muttered to myself as I drifted to sleep.

Ahhh!!! This took so long! Sorry for the wait. (And the angst) as you know, ive been really busy. But im trying my hardest sooooo ye! Hope this works for now!!