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i forgot to mention that the thing that pushed me to realising my feelings was him- messaging me.

our class was supposed to go to camp at the beginning of the summer and i was doubting, if i should go.

then he wrote me asking to go.

thank god i was walking home from this event, nobodysaw me smiling like crazy.

though when i remember the moment and how the story ended, i cringe so hard and want to dissapear from the face of earth.

and a 'merry christmas!' was what i got from him today.

i had to double check if this is real since he never wrote me after that time- not even to ask what was for homework or to send the photos of the tasks.

in moments like these, i freak out even more than while actually having a conversation with him, in real life.

i wish i could type something smart and lead everything to a funny conversation.

but i'm not that skilled in socialising so i just type a simple "thank you :) merry christmas to you too!" while trying not to make any spelling mistakes or use emojis that can be interpreted in a wrong way.

ah, i am a loser: i want to have a proper conversation with him but at the same time- i don't want him to try that so it wouldn't turn akward somehow.

sadly, we only text on facebook since we don't have each others numbers so when rereading his message i have to be really careful not to send anything or not to type accidentally in case he sees the dot thingy and starts questioning me.

spy mod- on.

'Girl