Point of view Matthew

If you'd tell me two months ago that I would go on an actual date and that with a boy, I would definitely laugh at you, straight in the face.

Who would believe it anyways? Matthew Gray, interested in a boy?

What did this mean for me? Was I gay? Bi? Why did I even go out with him?

I tried to push those thoughts away, because I know I didn't like guys. I only liked Rain as my friend and that was all I needed to know for now. Eventually I would figure it all out.

It was our second date and currently we were lying down the grass, just to look at the stars. I tried to do something special for once. Not just a simple date as going to a restaurant or cinema. No, I had to do something special for Rain. Something he'd never forget and reminded him of how much I adored him.

Wait, do I adore him?

I turned my head towards Rain to see him looking at the stars in awe. His curly hair fell a bit in front of his face and his pink kissable lips were slightly parted, he looked drop dead gorgeous.

I couldn't help but to stare at him. His face has always been imprinted into my mind since our first date and now seeing him in real life makes it a ten thousand times better. Every inch of him was perfect.

He never surprised me with his beauty when I saw him for the first time. Somehow I already knew he would be hella beautiful.

He blinked a couple of times before he started to speak up.

"Thank you so much for tonight. I already loved our first date, but this-" He whispered and stopped within his sentence while he kept looking at the stars.

He didn't had to continue, because I knew that he liked this date and it made me nothing but feel happy.

"Why aren't you watching the stars? They're so beautiful Matthew" He asked me.

"You're more beautiful" I whispered back, my eyes never leaving his face.

"Really?"

I nodded as an answer which made him smile. It made me feel so much better whenever I made him smile. His smile is literally one of a kind, especially when he laughs.

Suddenly, he turned his head towards me and we were surprisingly close. I could feel his minty breath on my cheek which caused me to shudder slightly.

"Why are you staring so much at me?" He whispered with his soft and precious voice, again.

My mouth formed into a smile. I didn't understand how he couldn't see his own beauty. I carefully caressed his cheek with the back of my hand.

"Because I think you look beautiful silly" I said back.

And just in that certain moment, I did the one stupid thing I could only think about.

I kissed him.

Our lips collided with each other and hell, it felt so damn good. I pulled him closer to me as I placed my hand in his neck, afraid that he would let go of me and hell, that was the last thing that I wanted right now.

I needed him closer to me.

His hands found my black messy hair and pulled at them which caused me to moan from the surprisingly good feeling.

The kiss was so much better than I thought it would be. There were sparks and tingles that felt so extraordinary. It was passionate and careful at the same time like we had an eternity to kiss, touch and feel each other.

After a while I broke the kiss, fully out of breath and totally confused as hell. Our foreheads were still against each other and we kept lingering there, enjoying this small moment of us.

I felt myself slightly panicking. Why did I kiss him? Why did I enjoyed it so much? Do I like him? I'm not falling for a boy, am I?! Was I supposed to feel like this? I've never experienced this before in any other kisses or relationships at all.

Then why now?

"Why did you do that?" Rain asked also still out of breath.

I opened my eyes and looked back at him suddenly forgetting all my worries. His eyes were so blue. It was like they suddenly became lighter and brighter since they couldn't stop shining.

"I- I don't know" I admitted to him, finding myself becoming a bit sad as I saw Rain's face falter.

He smiled weakly at me and intertwined our fingers with each other as he turned his head to look at the dark sky and I did the same thing.

We've been spending the rest of the night looking at the most beautiful view of stars and talking about anything. Not knowing what the future held for me.

Point of view Rain

Matthew and I lay down, watching the beautiful stars. It was our second date already and Matthew's idea was to go on a pick nick in the park. After we ate something, we went decided to watch the stars while we lay down the grass.

The sky looked so beautiful, it honestly made me speechless. I could look at this view for ages. I kept enjoying the view for a while before finally breaking our comfortable silence.

"Thank you so much for tonight. I already loved our first date, but this-" I whispered and stopped with my sentence while I kept looking at the stars that were shining brightly.

"Why aren't you watching the stars? They're so beautiful Matthew" I asked him as I caught him staring at me.

"You're more beautiful" He whispered back to me and never stopped staring.

"Really?" I asked him pretty surprised that he would say such a thing about me.

He nodded and made me smile instantly. He though I was beautiful. That's literally the best thing I ever heard.

Matthew Gray thinks that I am beautiful.

I turned his head towards his and we were suddenly really close to each other since I could feel his breath on my skin which caused goosebumps all over my skin.

"Why are you staring so much at me?" I whispered again.

He simply smiled at me. God, I loved his smile so much. His smile could make me do anything for him, all he had to do was look at me. I felt him caressing my cheek with the back of his hand.

"Because I think you look beautiful silly" He said back.

And just in that certain moment, he did the one thing that I could never ever think about.

He kissed me.

When I felt his lips on mine, all I could think about was how good this felt. It was like his lips belonged to mine. He pulled me closer to him as he placed his hand in my neck like he was afraid that I would let go of him.

Hell, I could never let go of him.

My hands found his black messy hair and pulled at them which caused him to moan.

I've never experienced something like this before. Sparks flew around us and there were a thousands of butterflies in my stomach. I could do this for ever.

After a while he sadly broke the kiss, fully out of breath and I didn't miss out on the confusion on his face. Our foreheads were still against each other and we kept lingering there, not wanting to stop this incredible and extraordinary feeling.

Why did he kiss me? Did he liked me back? Did he just do this for fun? To embarrass me in front of the whole school? Or is he just using me like he used those other girls?

But this was different, I was a boy..

Then why did he kiss me?

"Why did you do that?" I asked still slightly out of breath.

He slowly opened his eyes and looked back at me. His eyes looked lighter and brighter than ever and I liked it, they literally sparkled.

"I- I don't know" He admitted.

It made me feel a little bit down. But I got it, this was from what I knew his first kiss with a boy. This must have confused and probably scared the hell out of him. I've been there, without the kissing part then.

I smiled weakly at him and intertwined our fingers with each other before turning my head to look at the dark sky and I saw him doing the same from the corner of my eye.

The rest of the night was just us looking at the sky and talking about everything that came up to our minds, not knowing what would happen to me in the future.