Rain's point of view

"Just listen to me Rain" His soft voice tried to calm me, without any success this time.

"What?! Should I listen to how you pushed your tongue into that girl her throat? No thanks" I snorted at him and didn't even tried to look at him.

I knew that if I would even dare to look at his face for one second, I would already forgive him. It only took a simple look at his beautiful inhuman grey eyes which made me immediately forgot who I was. He may have cheated on me, but he was Matthew after all.

He was my Matthew.

He had this strong power over me even though he wasn't aware of that. I would honestly do everything for him, he just had to ask. So trying to be mad at him was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but I had to do this. I couldn't just forgive him after he broke my trust like that.

He for god sake, kissed her. I'm his boyfriend. I should be enough for him. I should be the only one that is allowed to kiss him. And hell, it hurts me so much when I saw him doing this with me own eyes. I couldn't just forgive and forget this time.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mea-"

"Are you seriously going to tell me that you didn't meant to do that? Because I'm really aware of the fact that you kissed her back!" I suddenly yelled angry.

I don't know what it was that pushed me so far, but I got really frustrated and hurt. A combination of two strong emotions that wasn't good for anyone.

I'm normally pretty calm. So me losing my calm, was bad sign. I can be pretty cold and I wouldn't be myself anymore whenever I lost my sanity.

"At least she wanted to kiss me compared to you!" His sudden outburst made me flinch. I finally looked up at him, but not because he got mad.

Just because of what he said. He said that he was fine with it and that it was nice to take things slow for once. And now hearing that he wanted to kiss me and probably just use my body, hurts.

"Rain, I-" He stepped a bit closer to me which made me take a step back immediately.

I interrupted him, not wanting to hear whatever kind of nonsense he had to say. All I could think about was this burning anger inside of me caused by all the hurt.

I felt this fire inside of me, burning. It only seemed to get bigger and bigger.

"Get out" I said strong and firmly.

It surprised me that I didn't stuttered for once. I was never the one who was closed off. I never pushed people away. But those words left my mouth easier than I thought they ever would.

Matthew always had this thing. He could make me feel anything, he could make me do whatever and whenever he wanted me to do something for him, even if it wasn't common for me. He never knew how powerful he actual were.

The effect he gave on me felt good yet surprised and scary since it was still an unknown emotion. He made me realize how easily you could lose yourself in someone else.

"Please, just-"

"Get out!" I yelled as loud as I could, staring blankly at the wall.

A sudden silence filled the air. It was like the walls isolated everything that was going on outside of this room. It may have been silent, but it was like you could hear every emotion in this room screaming out loud. Anger, hurt, regret, betrayal, love.

I heard him whimper which made me bite my lip so I wouldn't forgive him and beg him to stay. Oh how much I wanted to hug him right now. Matthew almost never cried and hearing that I made him cry makes me want to pain myself.

My eyes were fixated somewhere in the distance, suddenly not hearing what the hell was going one in the room, not feeling a single emotion that filled the air and actually not seeing what I was looking at.

I tried everything in my power to not look at him. I would jump right over to him, the moment that I see him cry.

It was rare that he cried instead of me. But somehow I didn't feel like crying this time. I shouldn't be crying over someone who clearly doesn't give a thing about me.

And maybe it was a good thing.

Maybe Matthew and Rain just weren't meant to be.

I snapped back to reality when I heard a door closing and before I knew what was going on, I curled up like a ball in the corner and stared into nothing, cradling myself to prevent getting a panic attack as I suddenly did feel all the emotions hitting me like a truck, leaving me heartbroken and helpless.

I wanted to feel his warmth around so badly. Now I just felt numb and empty inside, I felt like losing myself in the progress. He was my emotional tether even though he never knew that.