God, why do I feel so nervous around him?! I mean I know I have feelings for him...I'm not saying I know what kind of feelings I have for him...but God this is embarrassing... "You ok Kokichi?" Shuichi asked putting a delicate hand on my shoulder. I don't want him to worry about me being a damn dumbass!

"I'm alright!" I exclaimed putting a smile on my face after successfully suppressing my blush. "Oh, ok...you would tell me if something was wrong right?" He asked with a pink tint coming to his cheeks. "Yeah of course!" The teacher started her lecture and made me and Shuichi go quiet.

I hated getting in trouble at school cause it just gave my family more reasons to hate me. When they get a phone call because Kaede was telling a teacher some rumor or because I was being loud in class...either way it made my home life even more of a living hell.

I went back to drawing as she droned on. I could feel Shuichi watching me but didn't want to get flustered from making eye contact again so I just kept my face in my notebook. I drew planets and stars over a field of flowers with two figures in the field holding hands while standing together. One of them was shorter while the other one was taller and the shorter rested their head on the tallers shoulder.

It calmed me down to draw flowers and just drawing night calmed me down. The night is so comfortable for me. Nobody there to judge you, all other people are sleeping, and it's calm and quiet so you can just think.

I love just looking at the stars and whispering to myself silent songs replaying in my mind. It is the only thing, the only person who was and always is there for me. The stars are my friends when others aren't. They keep me safe from the sun...with their gentle light...their gentle words.

I zoned out for a minute before realizing Shuichi was resting his head on my shoulder. I winced before looking up at him. His eyes are delicately closed and he looks peaceful. I don't want to wake him...I leaned my head against his and sat there with him in his gentle touch.

I only just realized the lights were out because we were continuing the movie we started yesterday...maybe that's why he fell asleep? That is absolutely adorable!! I gushed at how cute he is. God this man is an angel...I swear.

I smiled to myself before going back to complete the drawing. I needed to add the shading to make it seem like stars were shining over them while the rest of the field got darker as it got farther away from them.

I turned the page and decided to draw Shuichi sleeping...cause goddamn it! He is so fucking cute! I drew his face and felt myself blush. Thank god it's dark...or everyone will probably see me with this embarrassing blush.

"Ngh..." Shuichi groaned and nuzzled his head into my neck. If my face wasn't inflamed before then it defiantly was now. He grabbed my hand in his handheld it gently. What the hell is happening?! My head was screaming at me. What if somebody sees?! What if he wakes up?! I tried to calm myself down so I didn't wake him up.

"Ko----ki---chi-..." He whispered into my ear making me flush even more. I hate being flustered! Goddamn it Shuichi!! You could have at least fallen asleep somewhere more discrete...

"Hey Shuichi," I poked his cheek the movie was coming to an end. I definitely didn't want him to have to be shamed for touching me or hugging me...he has already gotten some crap for wanting to be close to me.

"You need to wake up," I rubbed my thumb over his eyelids before they fluttered open. "But, I'm tired..." He sighed before going back to hugging me. I sighed and rubbed his back. I didn't know he needed sleep this much...maybe I'll text him about it later tonight. I think I will. Maybe...

"I know you must be...school is exhausting. But Shuichi you need to get up," He didn't say anything for a moment before he moved back into his spot. "I guess that's true..." He said before blinking a couple of times.

"Oh, I'm sorry Kokichi! Did I fall asleep on you?!" He whisper-yelled. Nobody turned back to look at us...and I was so grateful. "It's alright Shuichi. You must be tired," He really is tired. His eyes have slight bags under them and his gaze is sometimes half-lidded...why didn't I notice this before?

"I'm sorry...I can be really clingy...when I'm tired..." He sighed. My face got hot again...why is that so cute. When he is tired he is clingy. That is just so cute~, I looked at him closer and saw his eyes that I get lost in all the time.

"If you need to take a nap I'm alright if you want to use me as a shoulder pillow," I laughed a bit under my breath. He blushed and turned his head away before laughing with me. "That would be nice," He said looking back into my eyes. He rubbed his eyes and yawned before he spoke again.

"Do you want to eat lunch with me today?" He asked. I silently wanted to ask him if his 'friends' were going to be there as well...but he is already being so kind to offer something like this to me. "Where do you want me to meet you?" I gave him a smile and felt the butterflies come back to my chest. How do you make me feel like this Shuichi? I legitimately have no idea...

"Just by the tree in the field. It will just be you and me...Kaede and the others don't like it when I'm around you..." He said with a frown. I could tell he was sad that they didn't respect who he wanted to be friends with...god that would kill me. Having friends that judge anyone else you try to get close to? What kind of friends are those?

-Today I am trying to update a couple of my books...I'm not guaranteeing it will happen...but I will try! Thank you so much for reading!-

-ShuichiOuma010-