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"It's nice to see you as well, Kokichi," Hajime said as I pulled away from the two of them. I felt a smile creep across my face. Maybe this is where I belong, finally I have somewhere where I belong. These people, Hajime Hinata, Nagito Komaeda, Shuichi Saihara...they are all my family. The people I belong with for an eternity.
Belong...I never really thought about the word before now. I mean I have always wanted to belong to something. Be able to feel like I'm a part of something, feel like I have a purpose. Belong, it means to be a member or a part of something, like a group or an organization. These people are the people I belong with. Like having someone to be there for you when you scrape your knee. Having someone to hold you while you cry from the fear of the thunder. Having someone who you feel safe with because you belong with them. Having a sense of family with people you are not blood related to. Having these people around me to love and to listen to me because they care, unlike most of the other people who have come in and out of my life.
Hajime and Nagito. I have known Nagito ever since I was a young child. Even though he is a grade older than me we have still always been good friends. Nagito may not be strong and he may seem very paranoid, but he is really compassionate and a calm dude to talk to-- most of the time. His hair is like a fluffy cloud sitting on top of his head showing others how calming and caring he can be just by seeing it. White is the color of purity while pink is the color of love and compassion for others. Nagito's hair while being fluffy and calming it is white that blends into a pink color as it gets to the base of his hair. The colors of his hair being pure and loving. I believe that Nagito is both of these things, but as everyone he has his flaws. He lets his worry and fear consume his life...as well as his thing with hope-. He just needs to be more confident and that's exactly what Hajime is helping him with.
Hajime Hinata, he is a fairly confident boy. His hair matches his personality to a point. He may seem very jagged on the outside but he can be very caring and understanding underneath. He usually wears white and green. These colors mean purity and nature, which just as Nagito fit his character. Meaning, because Hajime loves nature and going outside and because of his pure care and devotion to his friends as well as being able to help others makes this fit. He can be a little rude when he speaks his mind, but he is confident and always has evidence backing up anything he says, or any point he brings up. This is contrasting to Nagito who always tries to keep his thoughts to himself deeming them as worthless or as trash- I mean unless it's about hope. Hope is something everyone knows that Nagito is passionate about, before meeting Hajime he would always have hope outbursts where he would start talking like a different person...but after he and Hajime became friends and eventually became lovers that has all been different. Whenever Nagito shows signs of doing another what we call 'hope speech' Hajime quietly takes him out of the room and calms him down.
I have noticed that them being together has made me more happy as well as the two of them. Hajime was the first one to confess because even though Nagito knows he loves him...he had a hard time not guilt tripping himself out of telling him. But luckily Hajime spoke his mind and asked Nagito to go out with him, and after that they went out on more dates and got to know each other before Nagito asked if they could become something more, and become boyfriends. Hajime obviously accepted and now we are where we are today. I know Hajime all because Nagito would always talk about him to me and about his feeling for him and how he didn't really understand what he was feeling...or even what the feelings even meant...but overall I'm glad that I have met the both of them. They are like the parental figures I never had, while at the same time being my good friends!
Shuichi Saihara, he is such an angel. I met him when I was younger at around the same time I met Nagito, but he was hanging out with a different crowd so I never got to know him then...that didn't stop me from getting feelings for him though. I realized after getting put in a project with him a while back that he was the same person I had a crush on in the past. What made me even more surprised was that the feelings I had before only grew as I got to know him. The more I drew of him and the more I thought of him my feelings for him grew. Now being together with him is a dream come true. He is an angel in disguise I swear on my life. Even though he has his flaws, he is still able to be so perfect. He has issues with his self esteem and seems to think most people just want to use him as a status symbol or just to use him in some way. He disregards his own talent because of the way others have treated him...it makes me sad, but what I admire is his determination to become better, to try harder, and his commitment and dedication to me. Just the thought of him talking with me, holding hands with me, dancing with me, calling me, and kissing me makes my heart soar out of my chest. He makes me feel wanted and he makes me feel loved. He helps me feel like I can keep on moving forward and trying harder because that's what he wants for me, for me to be able to be genuinely happy.
I smiled to myself as the conversation between us soon came to an end because the bell had rung. Hajime and Nagito waved to Shuichi who was just standing there looking down at Kokichi with a confused look on his face. "What's wrong my love?" He was confused about how I wasn't contributing to the conversation earlier.
I looked up at him with a smile on my face, "It's because of you Shuichi, I feel happy being able to be with you and Nagito as well as Hajime, you all make me so happy," I said before grabbing his hand and guiding him to class. He looked at me dumbfounded. He must have not expected me to say that.
-Part two of today's update! Sorry again for posting part 21 so late!! Thank you all so much for reading!!-
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