Last night helped me sleep better. I don't know what it was about his singing or even being able to be somewhat honest with him but it made sleeping seem calming instead of stressful or non existent like any other time. It was nice.

For the first time in a while I felt happy. A smile was tugging at the sides of my lips making this feeling of butterflies and warmth erupt through my chest. I felt happy!

"Shuichi made me feel happy," Hearing the words leave my mouth made it feel so unreal. Happy. It was a nice word...but all of the memories I remember of when I was 'happy' make me frown. Because that wasn't real happiness...it was just what people wanted to see. That happiness was the most painful out of anything...the fake smiles, the tears always pouring out of my eyes whenever I was alone. The pain and sorrow building in my gut making me want to die.

All the nights I stayed away crying into my hands. I knew better than anyone that crying in the middle of the night would wake people up...and my mother would be angry and she wouldn't comfort me. She always just calls me selfish and pushes me even more over the edge. So I just have to smile because that makes her forget how badly she is making me hurt.

Pain...I hated having the pain of living with all of the fakes...my real family. Hajime and Nagito and now Shuichi as well. They care about me, while the rest of the world just wants to use me and watch me suffer...none of them like me. Not really, sure they smile and laugh with me...but it's all fake.

The smiles and the laughs. They all are so selfish...wanting nothing but their own happiness even if they get it from taking it from others. Breaking people...breaking me to the point of not being able to function anymore.

I felt my phone buzz and it made me snap out of my thoughts. What just happened...I whispered in my thoughts almost letting it leave my mind without acknowledging it. I looked down at my screen just looking at the darkness. It turned off because I took too long to look over.

I moved over and grabbed it in my hands. Holding it. It felt like it weighed as much as a million bricks. I whimpered a bit as I turned it on and saw a message from Shuichi.

Shuichi: hey are you doing ok?

Shuichi: are you awake?

Shuichi: I'm going to come over so I can walk with you

I blushed before I realized that meant he was going to come for me. That means my mother is going to see him with me...I mean his mother already talked to her so she already knows that I have been over at his house. But I doubt she knows about him being my boyfriend...

"Konkani!! Gets your ass down here!!" My mother yelled making me jump. I gasped a bit quickly getting changed into some new clothes before sliding some shoes on. I quickly rushed downstairs and met my mother by the door with a troubled looking Shuichi.

He actually came...shit.

"So this is your friend you say?!" She yelled, moving to grab my hair. But I dodged and moved by Shuichi's side making sure to grab my bag by the door.

"Yeah this is Shuichi his mother called you yesterday!" I said with a smile before closing the door. I heard her mutter something before I heard her yell through the door.

"He might just want to use you!! You fucking worthless bitch!!" She screamed through the door before I walked away with Shuichi with slumped shoulders.

"I'm sorry about that Kokichi...this is my fault isn't it..." He whispered looking down. I moved my hand to his arm. I trailed my fingers down his jacket sleeve before placing my hand in his own.

"It wasn't your fault...my mother is just not the greatest..." I said with a sigh. I hate how she always flips a shit when anything happens to anyone else.

I'm sure it's because she resents how her own life is going...and that's why she takes it out on other people. Because she doesn't want to have to deal with the reality of her own life, so she drinks, drinks and drinks just to try to get rid of the feelings inside of her...and I can't blame her. Life has been absolutely shit to her...same with me.

"Hey it's alright...I can tell this is bothering you...um can I hug you?" He asked cutely stopping his pace before looking down at me with a blush on his face. I looked from his quivering lips to his kind eyes. I felt my heartbeat quicken at the request and it made me smile.

"Of course my beloved," I held out my arms before he pulled me into an embrace. We already walked to the front of the school and that's where he stopped us. I smiled against his shoulder and let myself blush feeling the fabric of the back of his jacket underneath my finger tips. It's nice being like this together.

"Hey Kokichi! I'm loving the bed head!!" Hajime said rustling my hair with his hand. I backed away from Shuichi with a blush on my face. Why didn't Shuichi tell me I have bed head?

"Shuichi! Why didn't you tell me?" I asked trying to fix my hair the best I could without a mirror. He blushed and looked away.

"You look cute with your hair like that..." He whispered, putting his hand over his mouth. I wonder what he means by that...it made me blush regardless.

"It's nice to see you guys!" I said before giving both of them a hug. They hugged me back. Nagito was a little more hesitant than Hajime, but he has always been more hesitant to physical contact. But that's just because of his past...life has fucked him over the same as me.

-I thought I posted this last week..I don't know if it was posted and maybe got deleted but I can't remember! I'm sorry for the late update!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-