Walking down the street made me feel a little nervous. Especially knowing Shuichi was walking with me. He looks like a god and I'm just me...so I'm sure if anyone walks by and sees us holding hands they are immediately going to judge him.

I was surprised that no one was walking down the streets at this time...but there were still all the things that are always littering the street. You can find anything on the street...it's really dangerous. There are knives, drugs, needles, and guns sometimes. I hated living in this neighborhood.

Shuichi held onto my hand and gave me a squeeze. I looked up at him trying to get rid of the weight on my shoulders. It hurt having to raise my head. All the guilt of bringing him along with me was on my shoulders...I shouldn't have let him come he doesn't deserve to see this waste of a town.

"Are you ok Kokichi?" He asked wrapping his arm around my waist. I didn't even feel myself shaking until his arm was around me. Why am I shaking so much? I shouldn't be shaking...but why am I?

I don't want to be shaking right now. I know that my shaking is making him feel more on edge. And I don't want him to have to be in fear because of me. I want to be able to be happy with him all the time...not with my shaking...not with my paranoia...not with me.

I shook my head and looked back up at him with a small frown. "Not really..." I wanted to tell him I was ok and that everything was going to be fine. But I know he wouldn't want me to lie to him...and I don't feel the need to lie to him because I know he will understand.

He stopped walking and pulled me into a hug. "It's going to be alright, I'm right here ok?" He said running his fingers through my hair. I felt my body calm down at this. I don't know how he does this. It takes me forever to calm myself down on my own...so how can he do it so easily?

He just always knows what to say. Like he hears my thoughts and just knows how to respond to them. I am still in shock that he wanted to be with me...because you know, I'm not who I was born to be...but I'm me! And that should be all that matters right? God, I wish some people would understand that.

"I'm just...I don't want you to feel like you have to be with me...because I'm sure people judge you all the time...and I'm not really helping with any of that..." I said quietly trying to keep my tears at bay. I wanted to cry, but I know that wouldn't be good and we are in the middle of my town...

"Hey it's ok," He pulled my head into his chest and I widened my eyes at the action. Doesn't he not want to be seen in public with me? What is he doing?

"I want to be with you, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And I'm getting judged all the time anyway...so if it's with you I don't care because I love you Kokichi Ouma," He said kissing the top of my head. I blushed at this and hid my face farther into his chest. I could tell he knew I was feeling embarrassed and I wanted to raise my head to see his face. Because I'm positive that his face is red right now...if it isn't I would be surprised.

"Thank you, my beloved," I said grabbing his hand again after suppressing my blush. I started walking again and I didn't look over at him worried about a lot of things.

My mind was racing with thoughts that made me feel my focus slip away. What if my mother sees us holding hands? What if she makes me stay away from him? What if I have to transfer schools...then what about Nagito and Hajime? They are my family...she can't just take them away from me! They are all I have left...

Another tear fell down my cheek and I felt Shuichi's warm hand gently brush it away. The touch was gentle but it was still enough to snap me out of my thoughts. I saw my house down the block and I felt my heart stop. I can't do this...

"Do you want me to walk you to the door? Or?" He asked gently brushing his fingers over my hand. I blushed at the action but calmed down quickly. He is so considerate of me...I love him.

"You can come with me to the door, I'm sure my mother is asleep right now..." I said leaving out the 'she is probably drunk' part. He gave me a nod and walked with me to my house. I slowed down and gently nudged his arm to tell him that we made it to my house.

It was a very rundown house and some of the windows just had duck tape over them to seal them. The door was overused and rundown. Same with the roof and paint around the house. Most of it was peeling or half painted while the other paint was cracking off.

I opened the door and had Shuichi come in behind me. My sister was upstairs and my mother was passed out on the couch with another bottle in her hand. I could feel Shuichi flinch from the stench of alcohol in the room, but I just pulled him up to my room.

"You can wait for your mom in here ok? It's not safe outside or downstairs," I said leading him over to my bed so he could sit down. His mouth was hanging open as he was looking at the art on the walls. I loved pinning my art up it makes me feel like I'm in my own world.

"Kokichi, I had no idea that this is what-" I cut him off with my hand.

"It's ok Shuichi, I just have to deal with this until graduation," I said calmly placing my free hand on his shoulder. He grabbed my hand and kissed my fingers one by one with a sad look in his eyes.

"But how long has-" I cut him off again with a kiss. I guess I have some explaining to do...

-Today is a lonely day, but hey! You just have to look up and say, tomorrow is another day. Thank you all for reading!! I also passed my drivers test!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-