Cleaning is oddly calming. Knowing that the people in my family won't bother me if they see that I'm cleaning. I wish they would do this when I was drawing or working on something I wanted to get done...but they are just selfish...and I have to prioritize their time over mine or they will hurt me in more than one way...

So I suck it up and just get it done. If I am in the middle of something important they don't give a shit...they just get irritated if I don't get up to help them or do what they asked...but the other way around...when I ask them to do anything for me they call me selfish...so they can do shit to me but if I do it back I get hurt...so that's not an option for the time being...

"Konkani, I-" My sister cut herself off. I know this was only because I was cleaning...but I had some hope she would try to call me by my real name.

Names have significant meanings. So if someone asks to be called by something else the thing you can do to show them you respect them...but if you don't it just shows that you don't give a shit about them...and you don't respect them at all...

"Oh, you're cleaning..." She scoffed and walked up to her room. I sighed knowing right after I finish she is going to ask me for something...and it's already pretty late...

"Yeah..." I whispered after her knowing she probably didn't hear and that there was no way she would have responded either way.

"Ok, you have 3 rooms left..." When the words came out of my mouth they sounded so discouraging...I mean I have finished more than half...but knowing that it's getting closer to when I have to get up for the day...isn't a good sign.

I moved on to my mom's room knowing it was going to be the hardest to clean out of the rooms I had left.

The floor was covered in stains while the stench its self was absolutely repulsive...I couldn't even believe that I had cleaned this two days prior. The walls were greasy and the window was cracked...well more than it was before anyway. Her bed was covered in clothes that needed to be cleaned...

Another thing to add to the list...great...

I started with the clothes and grabbed all of them putting them in a crate I had emptied. It was overflowing with clothes and they smelled disgusting. I had to stop myself from vomiting...

After that was done I moved on to taking the sheets off the bed and throwing them into the pile of clothes. I got some cleaning supplies and started to work on cleaning the bed.

I started with the bed frame and moved to the mattress that was covered in some substances that I didn't even want to know what they were...after I was done and the bed didn't smell...as bad as it did, I moved over to her dresser.

It was almost empty which made sense seeing all the clothes that were in the laundry basket. I grabbed the remaining clothes out of her dresser and threw them into the basket...because they should be washed for good measure.

I scrubbed the dresser inside and out till it was clean and dusted the top of it off. I moved over to her desk and chair and did the same. Scrubbing off all the filth and wiping it all down to clean the filth off before tossing the wipes into a trash bag I had brought into the room with me.

Under her bed, it was cluttered with beer bottles and bags of fast food packages and snacks. It was gross...there were even some ants I had to take care of...

With everything organized finally, I began to work on cleaning the floor. I grabbed a rag and a bucket and got to work.

I was already sweating from cleaning this much...why did she have to invite someone over? Usually, I have more time to clean the house...and they don't make me start when it's already so late.

"Come and crash into me cause I want us to collide..." I sang weakly letting some tears come to my eyes. Memories of the amazing night I had with my Beloved Shuichi came to my mind making me want to cry even more.

I don't want to have to do this every day...but I know we can't afford to pay for any medication for my condition...it's not that I need the medicine or I will die or anything...just it made it easier when we had the one practice prescription that was free...

It made me feel ok...without me having to try as hard...but seeing as we already are broke because of my mom's habits...me getting any sort of help is out of the question...

I know Shuichi wouldn't want me to give up so easily...I need to hold on for him!! I need to do this! For my Beloved!! I felt my cheeks heat up when I felt some newfound motivation.

I can do this!!

I finished cleaning the floor and I looked back at the room. I smiled seeing that it was clean. I grabbed the basket overflowing with laundry and slowly made my way to the laundry room.

I have to work a weekend job because I need to help pay for everything...because my mom isn't trying that much anymore...sure her boss is lenient but she doesn't go into work every day...and he has been threatening to fire her...then I would be so fucked over.

I brought my hand across my forehead wiping off the sweat before starting to sort the laundry. There wasn't any laundry in the laundry room because no one else bothered to do any laundry...because they could always just make me do it...

"I think being a butler or even a maid would be easier than this...and for that, I would get paid..." I whispered to myself starting the laundry. The soft whirl the washer made and the exhaustion from pulling yet another all-nighter made me fall asleep quickly. 

I should probably get the rest of my chores done...

-Another part!! I have to confront my friend next week when I get back from my trip...and I don't want to go home because of this...anyway. Thank you all for reading!!-

-ShuichiOuma010-