Diary entry #1

Dear diary,

This is my first time doing anything like this, so let's cut to the chase.

With best friends, you supposed to tell each other everything.

But this was one secret I had to keep to myself. It exhausting pretending to not care when Rose kisses Jonah. Or when Rose tries to set me up with some dude who only kinda cute and plays football. 

I wish that, instead of Jonah, it was me.

But that won't happen anytime soon. So, I'll wait it out. Then everything will go back to normal.

Right?

Well, whatever happens, I still need to find a date for prom, someone who is preferably tolerable.

Sincerely, Chloe

I sighed and collapsed onto my bed. It would be easier if I just stayed in bed all day, but I knew that wasn't really an option.

Beep beep my phone chimed. I sat up sat up and grabbed my phone. 

It was Rose. I felt a rush of happiness, but I still felt nauseous. Why did she have to care so much. I answered the phone.

"Hey Chloe! What's up?" Rose was basically squealing through the phone.

"I just woke up, what about you?" I replied.

"I need you to come over. I have two great dresses, but I don't know which to wear! And I know you probably think I'm overreacting, but I take my work in pride," she paused. "And I also had two cups of coffee," she added.

I laughed at the last part, "Don't worry, I'll be there in five,"

"Wait, but my house is ten minutes away?" She said. 

"Bye!" I hung up and smiled to myself. I could imagine her praying to god hoping that I don't kill some random pedestrians. I threw on a tank top and skinny jeans, I'll just do my hair at Rose's. I made my way downstairs to find none of my parents in sight. Good, I guess they won't mind if I borrowed their car. I took the keys out of my mom's purse like I have done many times before. In the garage, there sat an expensive car my parents loved more than me. Well, if they didn't want me driving it, they should've let me keep my car.

I pulled out of the driveway and headed towards Rose's house.

[timeskip]

Rose lived in a small house, well, some of the time. Her parents went through a messy divorce, so she sees her dad during the school year, and her mom during the summer. When we were younger, we never thought much of it, but now, I realized why Rose wanted to have so many sleepovers. 

"Hey Chloe, you here to help Rose with her wardrobe emergency?" He asked, interrupting my train of thought.

"Yes sir," I replied with a smile .

"Can you do me a favor? Makes sure she doesn't wear something too showy, I know she wants to impress that boy, but I don't trust him around her when she's wearing a miniskirt and croptop," he was talking about Jonah.

"Will do," I walked to Rose's room, which ironically, had roses painted on the door, and the paint was peeling off. I hesitated knocking, knowing how hard it would be to hide my intense feelings.

"Are you gonna knock or what?" Her dad yelled from the kitchen.

"What," I responded.

"I said, are yo-"

"I heard you! I was just choosing the option 'what'" I yelled back.

"Oh!" He laughed.

"Chloe? Come on in the doors open!" I heard Rose say from her room.

I opened the door to see Rose trying to squeeze into a skinny black dress.

"Hey Chloe! Can you help me zip this up?"

"Yeah of course!" I zipped up the back of the dress and Rose looked at the mirror.

"It's too much isn't it? God! Maybe I should try something else? What do you think Chloe?" She looked at me for support.

"Uh-well- you look best when you're comfortable in something. There's nothing wrong with wanting to impress Jonah, but maybe this isn't the right option," I was surprised that I made it through the sentence without fainting.

"You know what? You're right, I'll save this for some other time. Oh my god, I have an idea!" Rose disappeared into her closet, and I was somewhat worried for what was to come. She came out of the closet (insert gay joke here) holding a lacy white tank top and ripped jeans with gems on the pockets. "Matching outfits!"

"Oh my god, you're so cheesy," I said while grinning. But my grin was replaced with an intense blush when Rose slid off her dress. I immediately looked away.

"I'll, uh, wait in the kitchen okay?" I left without waiting for a reply.

***Time skip UwU •-•  don't miss me just taking a break from writing :))))

I pulled into the school parking lot and saw Rose waving at someone, presumably Jonah. I felt like today was going to be the usual case of third wheel, so I guess I'll just have to hang out with the soccer girls, which isn't really a problem for me. It's just seeing Rose with Jonas is too much. While Rose jumped out of the car to hug Jonas, I was preparing for eternal loneliness.

You know, the usual.

Wow r/im14andthisisdeep am I right,,,,,,,,,, idk if this will continue or if I'll turn this into a one shot book