I barely slept that night. I kept seeing Manny and hearing him.. feeling him. So for most of the night I sat on the bed looking out the window at the moon trying to clear my mind. Link slept peacefully the whole night which I was jealous of. I never thought I'd be jealous of seeing someone else sleep.

I tried falling asleep again and after about an hour I fell asleep. It didn't last long because of the nightmares. I sat in the corner of the bed quietly crying. I went over a hundred different scenarios on what I should've done that could've prevented the rape. I felt so stupid and pathetic. I wanted to stop crying because I didn't want to accidentally wake up Link. But at the same time I did want him wake up, so he could comfort me. That's all I really needed, for someone to comfort me.

Link started shuffling around in the bed and I tried my best to stop crying so he wouldn't wake up. "What are you doing?" Link mumbled.

"I couldn't sleep." I tried to talk normally but I'm sure he knew I was crying. He sat up and wiped my tears.

"Why didn't you wake me up?"

"I felt bad." I sniffled.

"(Y/n) don't feel bad about waking me up. I'm here whenever you need me. It doesn't matter if I'm asleep or whatever. I wanna help you overcome this." I sighed and laid my head on his lap. He placed his arms around me and hugged me gently. "I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too."

I didn't fall asleep and neither did Link. We just talked and I told him everything that happened and how I feel. Link made tea and we drank it while chatting on the bed. As the sun came up I began feeling a bit better. Link made me feel a lot safer and calmer. We talked about what we'd do if I was pregnant but we didn't come to an agreement. All the sudden Link changed his mind and wanted me to have it but give it up for adoption, I didn't want to have it at all. I didn't want to go through the pain of being pregnant just to give it up, plus everyone in the village knows what happens so I don't think anyone would want it. In the end it's my body and he doesn't have a say in it, no one does. In all honestly we didn't know if I'm pregnant, but I really hope I'm not.

"Babe think about it please. That kid had nothing to do in all of this."

"Link it's not even a alive yet. Also, who's gonna want it? The whole town knows about it! No one will want it. Plus you really don't have a say in what I do Link. It's my uterus, so when you get raped and impregnated you can decide what to do with your fetus." I glared at him. "And! I don't even know if I'm pregnant, it's just a possibility." I turned away from him. He stayed silent for a while.

"Alright (Y/n). You're right." He chuckled. "I don't know how you're feeling and I don't think I ever will. But-"

"I don't wanna hear it Link." I turned around and faced him. "Seriously, I'm done talking about this, I don't want the baby. Period." I got up and walked to the door.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"With my mom."

"Babe I'm sorry. I didn't want to make you mad."

"I'm not mad." I said and walked out the door. I was mad. Our conversation was going great and I was feeling a lot better up until that point. I'm just so annoyed at Link that talking with my mom doesn't sound like a bad idea.

While I walked through the village people stared at me and whispered to each other. I walked faster to her house and walked right in. It smelled delicious. "Hey mom." I called out.

"Sweetie what are you doing here?" She peeked her head out of the kitchen.

"Link and I got in an argument and I need to cool off." I sat down on the chair and rested my head on my hands.

"Oh sweetie. You should know this is hard for him too." I sighed. "(Y/n) try and understand he's doing his best."

"Mom he wants me to keep the baby, if I'm pregnant." I laid my head on the table. "He doesn't understand how I feel."

"Help him understand. Sweetheart he cares about you. In the end he wants what's best for you."

"It's hard mom.." I sighed. "And I know he cares but he's being selfish."

"Don't say that (Y/n). He probably thinks you're being selfish too." She sat down next to me. "Go back and talk to him and tell him why you don't want the child."

"I did."

"When you go back home talk to him, calmly." She hugged me. "I know it's hard right now. But it will get easier."

There was a knock on the door. "Can you get that sweetie? I have to watch the food." I nodded and got up. I opened the door and standing there was Link with a sunflower in his hand.

"I'm sorry about what I said. And I'm sorry for being so pushy about the kid." He handed me the flower. I smiled and gently took it from his hands.

"Let's talk outside." I said. We walked out to the front porch. I sighed and looked at him. "Link I want you to understand why I don't want the baby..if I'm even pregnant. He raped me. Understand that he went against my will and invaded my body. Do you know how disgusted and revolted I am with myself?" I asked. "Link I hate myself, and that child... I can't have a child that I don't love. Please understand that Link. It's for the best." We stayed quiet for a few seconds until he spoke.

"I'm sorry." He held my hands and kissed them. His eyes were full of sadness. "I'm so sorry this happened to you and I'm sorry for not understanding."

"It happened and there's no turning back. I have to move on and focus on getting better."

"You amaze me (Y/n)." I shrugged. I didn't see anything amazing about it. I'm hurting badly but I didn't want to show it.

"My mom is making breakfast, wanna join?"

"Of course." He opened the door for me and walked in after me.

Sorry for not updating in so long. I try to do it every weekend but school is beating my ass right now, and next weekend I won't be able to update cause I'll very busy at the beach! But I have a 3 day weekend so I'll try to update again! Hope you're enjoying the story so far.