(Reader death, mention of self harm and abused, offensive comments. Read at your own risk.)

You stood at the edge of the cliff. The silence was refreshing, no loud music from Miko, no shouting about 'needing that' from Ratchet, no tally calls from Bee.

It was nice hanging out with the bots and other humans, but they did often get loud.

You thought about how soon you had to go home to your home, to another beating from your abusive parents. Nobody loved you, not even your crush, Ultra Magnus.

Oh boy, how sad you were. No one would ever love you.

About an hour later you took the elevator back into base.

Looking around you noticed that the children had already been taken home, and now that you had passed your deadline to be home, you were dead.

"(y/n) you need to get home, your creators will be worried about you." Optimus stated transforming into his ALT mode. You jumped into his passenger seat, like fuck they will, you thought to yourself.

(Time skip, half hour later)

"YOU WASTE OF SPACE, USELESS BITCH!" Your father roared, belting you across the back.

"NO WONDER WHY YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS! YOU ARE UGLY!" Your mother taunted.

The belt continued to clash with your sides and stomach and insults were continued to be hurled your way.

After some time your parents roared at you to go for a shower and get to bed.

And how much you wanted to do so.

Racing to your room you grabbed your pj's and your pocket knife. You sprinted to the bathroom and dragged off your tattered clothes. The bruising hid well under clothes, your parents never belted you where anyone would see, and you always made sure they were covered.

You turned the shower on and silently yelped as the water splashed against your bruising. After the pain faded you grabbed you pocket knife off the basin and dragged it across your bruised wrist. Blood mixed with the water as it all turned red.

After a while of pain, and violent shaking, you climbed out of the shower and got dressed, bandaging your wrists before sliding on your shirt.

You raced to your room so your parents couldn't find another excused to punish you.

Climbing to your bedroom window you saw your crush's ALT mode across the street. 'Curb side duty' as Bulkhead called it. You waved to him and his lights flashed, signalling he had seen you, then you crawled into bed for the night.

(Time skip to 4 in the morning)

You yawned as you rolled out of bed getting ready for a new day, the early rays of sunlight glowing softly throughout your room.

You pounced up and unwrapped the bandages around your wrist, dragging off all your clothes and getting ready for school and an early morning visit to base.

After getting dressed you packed your bag and raced down stairs to make you lunch for school. Lunch made you raced outside to Ultra Magnus's ALT and went to the passenger side shaking his truck to wake him. He woke and unlocked his door for you to open it and climb in.

Throughout the ride to base the voices were torturing you, calling you weak, saying nobody loved you. Just repeating everything you already knew, nobody would ever love you.

Ultra Magnus calling your name woke you out of your self loathing and you exited his vehicle mode.

You looked up and greeted everyone as you did every morning.

(Time skip to school Period 1)

You sat in class, everyone talking about you, like always. You never replied to their taunting, like you never did to your parents. It wasn't worth it.

After two classes, lunch break finally arrived. The bell rang and you sprinted out of class and to the place where you, Miko, Jack and Raf always sat. The trio finally arrived a few minutes later and you all started talking about what you were going to do when you all arrived at base in the afternoon.

The trio spoke their thoughts and you went back to self loathing and taunting voices. Soon enough the bell rang, signalling time for the last two periods before end of school.

The last two classes were no better that the first two, bullying, self loathing and taunting voices.

The bell rung loud, signalling for end of school and there was a mad rush for the classroom door. You were the last one out and one you reached your locker the halls were cleared. You unlocked your locker and put away some books until you were shoved into your locker door.

By Vince. The school bully.

"Aw, is poor (n/n) gonna go cry to her parents. How sad now I remember. Her parents don't love her, who would? She is so ugly. Nobody will ever love her." Vince and his friends cackled loudly as they confirmed what the voices in my head repeated.

You launched up and punched Vince, sending him flying down the hall, you stalked up to his friends and belted into them before turning on your heal. You froze in your tracks as you spotted your three friends, they had seen it.

You bolted down the hall and into Ultra Magnus's ALT. And before he said anything you shouted at him to drive.

By the time you arrived at base you were balling your eyes out and Ultra Magnus was fretting, not knowing what to do when his charge was upset.

You ran up the stairs and pulled your bag off your shoulders, screaming in pain as the straps rubbed harshly against the bruising.

Pulling a pen and a fresh notebook out of your bag you neatly scribbled a note to the whole crew, you tore that page out and folded it, signing it to Miko.

In the rest of the notebook you wrote everything you wanted to say to Ultra Magnus, how much you loved him, how long you had felt the way you had, what had happened to you, what had happened at school. Almost everything you wished you had told him in person.

You closed the book and signed it to Ultra Magnus only, writing a secondary note to Miko to hand it to him and you wishing nobody else read it, knowing she wouldn't.

You heard three doors close and felt more eyes stall on you, making you uncomfortable. You stood up, grabbing the book and notes, you excused yourself to the roof of the base again.

You sat on the edge bawling your eyes out at what you are about to do. Grabbing your pocket knife out you stabbed your wrist and placed a few drops in the notes and formed a heart in you own blood on the book that was dedicated to Ultra Magnus.

"I'M SORRY MAGNUS, I LOVE YOU!!!" You screamed to the wind, then you plunged the blade into your heart, withdrawing it and stabbing yourself in the throat.

Your sobs turned to gurgling and your blood drained as you finally escaped the cruel world you were bound to.

"I will go talk to her." Miko offered.

"Please do so, as it ails me to see her so sad." Ultra Magnus said sadly.

Miko climbed the stairs and went up the elevator, she climbed off the platform and walked to the edge where (y/n) usually sat.

"NO!" screamed Miko.

She fell into a sobbing mess as she ran to (y/n)'s lifeless form.

"Please, no. Come back to me!!" she screamed to her best friend, shaking her, hoping it was a prank, but she knew it wasn't. She called Ratchet and all the bots and humans soon arrived at the scene.

"(Y/N)!!!" Ultra Magnus shouted. "No, please don't be gone."

All of the bots gathered around, Jack and Raf close by.

Never in the bots entire life had they seen the loyal, brave and stoic second in command cry. Wheeljack wasn't making any comments now.

(Y/n)'s body now lay in Ultra Magnus's servos as he sobbed over her loss.

"Guys," Miko called through her tears, "Look!"

The bots looked down and through all of their tears saw what Miko was holding. Notes, and a book. She lifted the book up to Magnus and he tenderly grasped it in one servo, the other still holding his beloved.

Soon everyone when back into the base, including Ultra Magnus and (y/n)'s lifeless form.

Optimus called Agent Fowler and informed him of what had happened. Tear tracks were still evident on everyone's faces.

Miko read out the note to the team and they all felt sorry for the now deceased girl.

Days later (y/n)'s bot companions in their holoforms and her human friends were standing before her grave.

"A good friend can never truly be lost. Their energy lives on in the hearts and minds of those who loved them.
As all friendship extends beyond the mortal realm. I can still sense (y/n) with me daily, assisting me in getting through. She will always be on mine and your side." Optimus vowed.

"Friends, they say, are the family we select. Being picked was the best moment of my life, and when (y/n) died, it was the worst. All friendship survives death. Memories made will never be forgotten, and they left an indelible imprint on those left behind. Everyone improved as a result of having such a fantastic friend." Ultra Magnus stated boldly through tears.
"I always have and always will love (y/n) no matter what anyone says!"

"Saying farewell isn't something we do. Instead, I'll remark that I'm looking forward to seeing my friend again every time I hear a phrase, hear a joke, or see an article of clothing that reminds me of them. These are the things that will bind us together even after we die."

Arcee said bravely.

"The best of friends understand that they were loved for who they were in life and that they will be remembered for their heart in death." Miko cried.

"A great friend is something to treasure, whether they stay by my side in this life or await me in the next." Raf whimpered.

"Dear friends are those who know our hearts and ideas and still choose to be our friends. Even after they have passed on to the next life, I can still sense them motivating me to be my best." Bumblebee spoke.
"She was like a sister to me, and her parents will regret what they did to her."

The ceremony went on, and one it was over everyone left... Everyone but Ultra Magnus who could be found by her grave at midnight, (y/n)'s favourite time, to this very day.