I thought you were all I ever wanted. But it seems like you're the exact opposite. You don't listen when I talk to you. Even about the most important things. Whenever I tell you a problem, its that I'm over exaggerating, or I don't make sense.

But honestly you don't ever make sense to me. You say you love me. You say it in such a way that its almost impossible to think youre lying. You say it, and look into my eyes like I'm the only girl you've ever thought about.

Maybe that's why you think you can do whatever. But my mother hasnt raised me in any way to take this and discard it like nothing ever happened because you say you love me.

I wished you really loved me

Cause when I look into youre eyes the lies you say just happen to wash away , because the eyes seem to tell no lies.

I know you have another that those eyes truly love. I know this because when you see her you flash the biggest smile , that my face could just never bring you. And when I ask you about her , you get so nervous that even the sweetest voice you have cant lie.

I get it, she's beautiful and kind and a perfect girl, but my love , isnt that everything you said that I was? It is. So why do you not love me back? Why do you do these hurtful things to me?

Why is it that its been almost a week and I'm still wondering how you could ever do this to me?. Why is it that I'm replaying everything you ever said to me and realizing that is all a lie!? Why was I so dumb to think you ever loved me when I look back and its so blatantly there that you don't feel the same way!?

But I do hope you're happy, with that girl that you want. I hope that you guys can do everything together that I wanted to do with you. I hope you can change for her. I hope you can stay faithful, I hope she never has to endure what I did with you. I hope she will never stare at her bedroom wall and cry wondering what she did so wrong to make you not want her.

I hope these things cause what i wantedto do was make you feel like no other female has before. But I failed. So I hope she can do that for you.

I hope she could love you like I did too.

:AN//
ALERT ALERT MAJOR CHANGES
Not really just changed the book title and cover cause it was cringey
Am I the new Daniel Howell??
Love you guys!!