Lana's POV

John waves me over afterr I get out of the bathroom, he looks pail, like hes just killed a man.

"Its all my fault" John whispers

"No its not, you didn't know" I said plainly

"Whats wrong with her?" John asked looking over at Rachel

"She senseitive, it was probably just a bad reaction, just keep an eye on her, if she faints or starts  having another one of those attacks, she has to go to the hospital, my older brother had something like it, he had bad reactions to some of the chemicals" I said looking at Rachel

"She doesn't seem to hard shelled" John implied

"Shes not physically, metally shes a steam engine, but she has her soft spots like smoking" I shrugged

"What about drinking?" John asked

"I don't know, never asked her but she doesn't look like the drinking type" I smiled, I was proud to believe that, Rachel didn't look like the drinking type and that almost made me feel like a proud mother in some odd way, to know she wasn't ruining her life like I was

"What about you?" John asked

"You ask a lot of questions" I said

"I like knowing a lot" He shrugged

"Fair enough. I'm not aloud to, its a long story with a grim ending"  I shuddered

"Like I said, I have time" He smiled

"I'll just give the highlights, I drank to much, got in a car crash, went to the hospital, then dispite my concussion and broken arm they told me I was in the  early stages of alcholo poisoning, I have pills I have to take daily and I don't like talking about myslef" I said with my arms cross

"How did-" John was cut off by the sight of Rachel fainting, I rushed over and lokked at George and Paul

"Don't just stand there we have to take her to the hospital!" I shouted, George picked her up bridal style ad carried her out the door with Paul behind him, but John just stood there

"Come on Lennon" I said walkinging up to him

"Its all my fault" He muttered, I cupped his face and looked him straight in the eye

"This is not your fault, its nobodys, you need to know that none of this is on you John, not unless she thinks so" I said softly

"What if she does?" John questioned

"Rachel is a forgiving person, you'll be fine" I smiled, John leaned down and kissed my forehead

"Lets go" He said grabbing my hand and rushing out the door.

Written by Hannah