Yea so this is kinda the story of why im depressed and yea.

The beginning of 2016 purple rain came on TV. I didnt know who Prince was at the time so my mom told me to watch it. After that, I loved Prince. I watched interviews all the time. Watched all the movies he was in.

At school I started getting teased. People called Prince gay. I was called Ms. Prince everyday.

4 months later in april he died.

My mom cried, I was stuck in shock. I cried for a week, only when I had some privacy and no one was around.  I cried at least once a week for about a month or two.

That whole summer I listened to Prince. Not a good idea. That just made me love him more. And the pain of his death hurt more.

Then my mom showed me "Miracle drug" by U2. I instantly loved Bono's voice. But. I told my mom I hated them. I had known I had a deep love for Bono just by hearing his voice. My mom got out her old U2 albums. She started playing there music all the time.

After listening to Bono's voice for so long I looked him up. I thought he was beautiful. I loved his eyes, his smile. I loved everyone of his little flaws.

I started watching interviews. I felt more in love with him then I had ever felt with Prince. Bono helped me get over Princes death. He stopped me crying over Prince. The only times I've cried over Prince since was the date that Prince died and his birth day.

At school I had now earned the title Ms. Bono. Bono lover and everyone hated me and told me to Fuck off. They told me Bono was gay. That thay hoped he would die. At first I angnord it.

I was happy. For about 6 to 7 months.

Then my mom started watching this guy on tv or whatever. His name was David Willcock. He I hated. He talked about all these things about the illuminati. He said that most people loved who were high in music/acting and politics were illuminati.

Then my mom got into it more. She looked up if Bono was illuminati. There were so many videos. She watched a few. Then. Showed them to me. She told me he was illuminati and that I shouldn't like him anymore because I was obsessed and he was a bad person.

I cried for two days. The first day I was sobbing and deleated everything U2/Bono off my phone. I wasn't going to let myself watch or listen to Bono for a month. I missed his voice. His smile. I missed the only person that made me truly happy. I cried at least a little once a day.

That whole month people were asking me if Bono had died. They said it well laughing.

Than my mom got me into INXS. I loved the lead singer. Michael Hutchence. For that whole month of me crying because I was sad over Bono, Michael Hutchence was like my Bono. He made me laugh and helped me get through that one month of pure misery.

After that month was up there was a song I had heard that Michael had made with Bono. It was called Slide Away. The main lyric was "I just want to slide away and come alive again" i fept that way. and then I looked it up. "Michael Hutchence depression" I found out he had commited suicide. I felt stuiped as fuck. I realized I had seen things talking about him wanting to commit suicide but I didn't realize he had done it. That was only 2 months ago. I cried for a long time.

Then I started watching Bono again. I have been depressed since Prine died.

Now im being told to fuck off. That im a Bitch. That I am Trash.

Also now im being called a whore because I like and Have a crush on a lot of celebritys.

I am scared that Bono my only happiness will die.

But I know by now that all good things never last.