|| therapy video ||

|| tape six ||

"I'm losing myself, Ash."

Ashton looked at the screen, his eyes widened at the image of Effy. He was surprised at how skinny she became since the last tape he watched.

"I miss you," She said. "And i need you."

Effy's eyes traveled the wall beside her. "I'm scaring everyone in here and they are giving me a lot of medicines. They think it will help me." She shook her head. "But I am not feeling better, In fact I am feeling worse and worse by the day. Last night I had a break down and I pulled a needle on a nurse." Ashton gasped. He wasn't scared from her but he was scared at her. "I was going to sleep and your photo was in my hands, which is the only thing they let me keep it but she was being a bitch. She took the photo and began to say that I don't deserve you and I will never see you again." Effy's voice cracked. "She said that you'll be happy if I just kill myself and disappear from your life. Then without realizing I grabbed the needle and I almost instilled it into her arm before the the guards shove me to the bed." Effy began to cry. "They kept me tied up to the bed all night and I got lost inside my own self."

"I just realized I'm not me anymore, I lost the real Effy. This person right now is fucking insane and I hate it." She sighed. "There's no white color inside anymore. Now the further you go, the darker it gets."

"Now I hate everything. I hate me, I hate my mind and I hate the things i done but most of all, all i think about, every second, is that i hate being away from you."  

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