|| therapy video ||

|| tape nine ||

 Ashton put the tape in the dvd.

"My mind is talking to me again."

Ashton's eyes widened and he haven't even got the chance to look up at the screen before Effy's voice spoke through the speakers. His head quickly looked up at the screen. He knew what Effy meant by 'my mind is talking to me'.

"It's scaring me as hell right now, because it's telling me the things you used to tell me to not believe them." She still hadn't looked at the camera. "He left and he's not coming back, because he never loved you anyway." They say. "Just do it and you'll finally be happy."

"It was easier to ignore them before, because you were always with me." She looked up at the camera, her eyes bloodshot. "But now, you're not here and they're only getting darker and darker." Effy run her shaky hand through her pink hair as she bounced her leg on the floor. "You aren't here anymore to calm me down."

"I don't know how to shut them down anymore. I tried to drown them but it turned out they know how to swim. I'm starting to give in." Effy stood up and started pacing around the room, running her hand through her hair none stop.

"I'm slowly losing the sanity that had left." She whispered to herself but Ashton heard it.

She walked over to the camera." You know what the fucking doctor told me yesterday?" She asked. " He said I'm sorry Effy but life isn't for everyone and I think he's right." She said. "Life isn't for me."