Hey

What?

I'm no photographer but I can picture us together

I like that one

I do too. So . . . how are you doing?

I'm doing okay. Not great but okay

I wish I could've been there for you when you had your break down. I feel so bad that I couldn't be there.

It wasn't your fault that you were at your parents house. I should have held it in

DP. Drake. Listen to me. Everything will be fine. I promise. I'm here for you even if nobody else is.

I don't want you to see me that way. Hearing me like that is not like seeing it in person.

I don't want to argue with you. Being broken is okay. But you have to get past the pain. I know it will always be there, below the surface, but there's so much more to life than pain and anger and sadness. There's love, there's joy, there's friendship.

Those things won't bring my brother and cousin back

Nothing can, Drake. I'll be back to the boarding school in a couple days. Do you want to meet up? I promise I won't chicken out again

No. I think I just need to rest some. I'll be better soon

For real?

I'm not sure.

Promise me you will be happy

I don't think I can. It's just a facade anyway

Then just promise me to breathe. Getting through this will be hard. I just want you to breathe in and let it out

Okay, I did.

The grieving process is long and hard. Taking small steps at a time sometimes helps

Thanks, LP. I don't deserve you

And I don't deserve you either