Content Warning:

[Detailed] sexual relations between two consenting adults.

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"Fuck, Jeni, you feel so good." That sweet Georgian accent that I loved filled my ear as I straddled his hips, riding him slowly. Calloused hands ran up and down my back, as lips pressed open-mouth kisses to my chest.

As amazing as I felt right now, this also felt so wrong.

The hands touching every inch of my bare skin didn't belong to the man that I craved. The swollen dick that I was riding didn't belong to the man that I was yearning for. The brown eyes looking into mine were not the blue ones that I dream about.

The man moaning my name in immense pleasure was not the man I wanted to be with right now and I regret answering my phone when he called and saying yes when he asked to come over. I should have known that my mind would be on someone else while my body betrayed me and fell into bed with this man.

"Cum with me, Jeni." I rode this gorgeous creature until he came with my name on his lips, my own orgasm lost in the wind as my mind went to the man that I should be with right now.

My heart ached at this moment; I should be tangled up in my sheets, losing myself to Noah but instead, I was fucking NASCAR's most popular driver while he used me to get over his ex. Before today, being used didn't bother me, we both took what we needed.

Just, I needed Noah.

"Jeni," soft lips landed on my neck, breaking me out of my trance, "are you okay? You're really quiet. Did I do something wrong? Shit, you didn't?" He pointed to where we were still connected, realizing I didn't have an orgasm.

"Chase, it's okay, I just have a lot on my mind." I climbed off of him, intending to clean up but he rolled us over so he hovered over me.

"Let me make you feel good?" His head dipped down, placing open mouth kisses on my breast before moving south.

"Chase," I reached for him, pulling him back up so he would stop, "I'm okay, I promise." I kissed him briefly and when I pulled back, he was just staring at me.

"Your mind is elsewhere tonight, talk to me."

"Now who do you sound like?" Chase smiled at me when I called him out for quoting a line that I say all the time.

"Usually we get lost in each other whenever I come over, but I can tell you're not yourself."

"I haven't been myself in a while, Chase." I sighed, climbed out of bed, and grabbed my robe.

"What changed?"

Noah...

I wanted to tell Chase, but saying it out loud meant it was real. I wasn't ready to admit to myself that I fell for Noah, even though it was the truth.

"You met someone." It was a sad whisper and it made me wonder where Chase's mind was for him to be sad. "Do I know him?"

"Are you upset that it's not you?" I finally looked at him and I was relieved to see him smile.

"So there is someone."

I watched as Chase climbed out of bed, throwing his boxers back on and coming over to where I was standing and pulled me down so I could sit next to him on the edge of my bed.

"And no, I'm not upset. I'm going to miss this between us though, and know, if things don't work out, you can always call me up." He bumped my shoulder and I relaxed a tiny bit. I would feel awful if he caught feelings and I had to let him down.

Just like what you did to Noah?

I groaned inwardly at what I did.

"Chase, I fucked up and I don't know how to fix it."

"Does he know how you feel?"

"I'm afraid to tell him."

"What are you afraid of?" A sleuth of things began to fill my mind but the age gap scared me...

Everything scared me, truth be told.

"Has he told you how he feels?" I shook my head no.

"I asked him to leave and when I did, I could tell... I really hurt him."

"Jeni, what's holding you back? You're not afraid to speak your mind and to tell someone how you feel."

"I'm just afraid of what people might think and say."

"Why does that even matter?"

"You make all of this sound so easy."

"Why can't it be?"

I jumped up from the bed, frustrated with myself by how hard I was making this. I ran my hand through my hair and sighed.

"I'm afraid it won't work out." I finally said the one thing that was really bothering me.

"Isn't that the point of trying? To see if it would?"

"Have you ever thought about being a therapist if this whole racing thing doesn't work out?" Chase laughed and shook his head no.

"I'm NASCAR's most popular driver, baby, I ain't going anywhere." I rolled my eyes and shook my head at him.

Chase got up from the bed and I watched as he walked over to me. He gently touched my chin, tilting my head up so I would look at him. If my heart didn't belong to Noah already, I would be falling for the man standing in front of me.

"Jeni, what's the real reason?"

"He's 10 years younger than I," I finally confessed, not able to look Chase in his eyes.

"Why are you ashamed of that? Age is merely a number."

"I know," I sighed, disgusted with myself, "but he really acts his age."

"In other words, he's immature, runs his mouth and he's not afraid to throw a fit when he doesn't get his way?"

"It's like you know him."

"Oh, I figured out who it was when it wasn't me, but also, every guy acts like this, Jeni. You may see it as being immature, but when he's whining about not winning, it's because he expects to. We all do, just some of us are better at hiding it."

"How do I fix this, Chase? I messed up royally."

"You have to talk to him."

"But..."

"No buts, Jeni, you of all people should know this."

Chase finally dropped his hand from my chin and cupped my cheek. I leaned into him for a moment before he moved away.

"Talk to him. If I know him, he wants to talk to you, I know I would."

"You didn't see his face when I pushed him away though." I looked out my window, only seeing the dark sky and the reflection of myself.

I really didn't notice myself anymore. I was a changed woman and it was all because of Noah.

"Call him," Chase handed me my phone, "it's never too late." I took my phone from him, the device suddenly weighing a million pounds. "I'll let myself out." The sadness in his voice returned and it had me running towards him.

"Chase, wait!" I reached up, placing a kiss on his cheek, "you're going to find her soon and when you do, she's going to knock you off your feet."

"I know. Now stop stalling, and call." I rolled my eyes when Chase pushed me away and shut my bedroom door.

He was right though. I needed to get over myself and call Noah and fix this. I need to apologize to him for pushing him away and most of all, I needed to tell Noah I was falling in love with him.

I took a deep breath, strolling through my contacts until I came to his cheeky little nickname Pretty Boy and pressed call. I knew if I didn't do this now, I would talk myself out of doing it later. I of all people know not to let things go for too long, especially when it's my fault to begin with.

"What do you want." Noah answered with a disgusted tone and it made me want to hang up and never call him again.

Maybe this was a mistake.

"I need to talk to you, can I see you?"

"Why? So you can get your fill of me and then kick me out of your life and then only call me when you want your fix?" I could hear the hurt in his voice.

"Noah, it's not like that."

"Isn't it though? I went to you and you told me to leave. Do you know how fucking much that hurt? But I guess that's what I deserve when I hook up with the office slut."

"I guess I deserve that."

"Actually, you deserve a whole shit load of stuff, Jeni, but my forgiveness is not one of them. I don't care why you're calling, I'm not fucking listening."

The line went dead before I could say anything and the tears I've been holding back began to stream down my face.

I realized in this moment that pushing him away was one of the biggest mistakes I've ever made. I just wish I could tell him how scared I was. It wasn't really him, it was me. I thought pushing him away was the right thing to do.

Boy was I wrong.

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A/N: Sorry this is so short & for the delay of posting! I hope everyone enjoyed the appearance of our favorite Georgia Peach. Do you know how hard it was to not have Jeni fall in love with him? Gosh. I really need to write some new Chase content soon lol

Again - this is just a filler chapter and I really hope to have a new chapter up sooner, rather than later.

I hope everyone staying safe during this crazy time. My inbox is always open if anyone needs someone to talk to.