Sophie's POV

The alarm started ringing. I instantly got out of bed as I remembered that today is my first day of school. Today I woke up happy unlike usual and I was surprisingly excited for a fresh start because I recently realized that school just makes the day go faster and the more I study the less time I have for my thoughts to wonder and that could cause me pain so I try to stay away from thinking. I was determined to try and change my life style so that I won't die with the guilt that I didn't try to reestablish my life. Even though that meant socializing with people and I would prefer bailing school and staying on my tablet like I usually do but I guess it being a new school and also a new country I could try to start over.

I looked at the window and for the first time in forever I drew the curtains, the light instantly filled the room with light and me with hope. I looked at the picture of my mum and I on the bedside table and kissed my mum. I went to the bathroom, washed my teeth and did all the other things that I was supposed to do (but I usually never did) and looked at the mirror. I saw my blonde hair layed neatly on my shoulders and for the first time in years my smile was genuine and my chocolate brown eyes glistened with the light being reflected on them.

I grabbed my bag and went downstairs. As soon as I went downstairs I met my step mum, Alicia. She has been my step mum since I was nine. I had gotten use to her a bit but whenever she spoke to me as if she loves me it got on my nerves because i knew she didn't love me, she just did that for my dad... She came up to me waving her black curly her and shot me a glare which is hard to forget. She told me that she is going to take me to school so we can have some time to bond as a 'mother' and daughter. She dared to call herself my MUM!!!! I only have one mum and she died and I don't need a replacement! During that moment I felt all the hope i had finally restored in me letting go. I felt like going upstairs again and locking myself in my room as I most of the time do but I couldn't.

I had already put my hopes high into starting over and something told me that now is my only chance to start over. I grabbed a piece of toast when my brothers started their usual routine

'' Got out of your room today did you?? ''said Miguel

'' So unusual... what are you up to now? '' asks Luke

" Nothing. What are you up to? Cheeting on your girlfriend again?'' I just grab my toast and bag and called Alicia so I can get out of this house before I change my mind about staring over.

As we get in the car I realize that I have no idea how to keep a conversation going. On the contrary I know how to end a conversation either by hurting someone or just moving away and staying on my phone listening to Adele and reading on Wattpad to make myself feel miserable and depressed. I decide to take my chances to try and practice keeping a conversation with Alicia. I know that if I manage I would have done well and if not well, it's going to be the worst school year ever. When none of us is saying anything I know that I should take this opportunity to start a conversation.

'' So how's work going? Anything new or everything is going as usual?'' I said trying to sound interested

''Well, we have this new client and he's asking me to take care of planning his new property's layout and he's offering me a very good amount of money to do this job''

''So why don't you take it?''

''If I take the job it would mean that we would need to move country again and I don't think that anyone wants to move since we just got here'' I suddenly actually think she has a soul... she is actually considering other people's opinion.

''But can't you go and not move? For example you go during the week and during the weekend you come back''

''It is a full time job. If I take it I would need to stay away for a year and I don't know how you be without me'' Is she concerned aboutt me? my dad? my two brother? her son? This is so confusing!! Why can''t people just be straight and plane to eachother

''But if you want it you can just take it''

'' Why are we even conversating? I know you want me away from you and I want to be away from you''

'' Why don't you like me so much?'' I am raising my voice now

''Why don't I like you?! You are the one who always wants to stay away from me.''

I'm now shouting at her'' I don't like you because you try to replace my mum and take away my dad!''

'' I don't want to replace your mum or take away your dad! I love your dad but I don't want him all to myself.''

''Then how come you're always giving me those glares?!''

''Those aren't glares they are me being concerned about you!!''

I lower my voice now '' You're actually concerned about me?''

''Of course I am. I justt want the good for you not the opposite. I just try to give you my affection'' Suddenly I feel guilty. All those years I spent being angry with her were actually all my perception.

'' I guess I am not use to affection so I always misinterpreted it.''

'' I hope that now we are finally settled''

''Of course. Oh and by the way I actually ment whatI said about the job. If you want just take it''

'' Ok. Thanks I'll think about it I promise. Now go along as we arrived''

I didn't even realise that we had arrived till she had told me. Who knew a simple conversation can change your life? I grabbed my bag, hugged her for the first time and ran along into the school.

This is where my real journey starts....

hope you are liking the book till now. Feel free to vote and comment, if you do the chapter will get dedicated to you. speekingof dedication, I would like to dedicate this to @Roberta1603