((There is talk of depression and cutting please if you have these feelings please call someone i do not encourage depression/depressed acts))

Rebecca's POV

I sit up looking around. I fell asleep at my desk. I get up really sore and go over to my closet. The Winters ball is today. I am happy to be going with my friends. They are the best. I am not sure if they would even hang out with me anymore. I look down and get dressed in my normal dress. I brush my hair out and look in the mirror. I sigh feeling sadder then normal. I hear a knock on the door and i walk back over to the door and open it. "Oh hello Bex you are awake." The Father says smiling. I smile back and move out of the way so he can walk in. He walks in and hugs me. I hug him back. Everyone is taller then me. Besides Alexander he is my height. 

"The Ball is tonight are you ready to go?" He asks me as he lets go of me. "Of course I am." I say back and fake a smile. I honestly do not want to go. I feel bad for my well i think they are my friends. He smiles back before walking out closing you door behind him. I think i am going to keep my distance from them unless they come up to me. I just have to fake a smile and they will think i am okay. right? 

I look though my dresses to find one for tonight. I find a slightly darker purple then normal. it had some white and a little blue on it. I lay it on my bed. i will wear that one. I sit down at my desk and start to draw again. I spill all my emotions into it. I cry while drawing it. ((The drawing at the top)) 

Lafayette's POV

I sit on the edge of my bed after getting dressed. I sigh wanting to go see Rebecca. I think she needs some time with her family. Tonight is the ball. If i talk with her it puts her in danger. but if i do not she may think i hate her. I will keep my distance but stay close to her. Only i know how i truly feel about her. I have a urge to be by her side as much as i can.

Hamilton's POV

I stayed up all night writing essays i need to sleep till the ball.

Mulligan's POV

I lay awake in my bed staring at the ceiling. I plan to see Rebecca before the ball. I sit up dangling my legs over the edge. I get up and get dressed. I will be there by noon.

John's POV

I did not sleep much last night. That dream got me wondering. I remember it well, but not who the girl was. I can not remember what she said to me. I just know she was scared. Lafayette and Washington know her. I never knew Lafayette was that close with Washington. I need to be more aware. I sit up and touch the piece of folded paper in my pocket. I sigh. I have a terrible feeling about this ball. Something is going to go wrong. I can not tell what it is. I get up and start to get dressed. I get my note close to my heart. Ever since my sister left, leaving this note behind i have kept it close to me. Maybe one day it will help me know if she is still alive.

Rebecca's POV

I put the drawing away. Nobody needs to see it. I wipe my tears away. I hate myself so much for dragging those amazing people into my problems. I have had a pretty okay past but i have still had my moments where i feel super depressed. Mulligan is the only one who knows. I managed to keep it from my father. As much as it hurts me to i have. I promised myself not to do anything. It takes all my energy away doing so.

I can't take it anymore. I keep crying. No one will ever love me. I am just a broken girl who fakes smiles all the time. The group of men Mulligan introduced me to really made me feel happy for once. Laurens makes me happy and feel something i hardly feel. Alexander is a really smart man. Lafayette is super sweet and caring. He makes me happy when i feel sad. I really hope i did not mess anything up with them. I smile at the thought of Lafayette. I will talk with him at the ball. 

~~Time skip to later that night from loss of ideas~~

I have my dress on and look in the mirror. I brush my hair. i walk out of my room as some of the maids walk with me through the house. I am not supposed to be alone. Fathers orders since last night. I understand why he says so. I caused everyone a panic. I will just talk with everyone at the ball. I fake a smile and get into the carriage. The carriage leaves from my house. I sigh leaning back it is going to be quite a while.

Mulligan's POV

I start walking to the ball. I decided to walk so i do not arrive to early. I am supposed to keep an eye on Rebecca. Washington sent some people before i left to let me know. I understand. Rebecca is way to important to everyone in one way or another to get hurt again. I have not had the chance to ask how she feels. She can not hide anything from me. I know things her father does not. I promised to keep the secret about her depression. I need to see if she acts different. I am sure Lafayette will help me watch her. Same ask Laurens and Hamilton. I need her to be safe. She means to much to me to be hurt again.

Lafayette's POV

I am sitting in the carriage on the way there. I feel like i am sweating. I am nervous I have to stay away from Rebecca. I do not want her to think i hate her. I sigh and look down. Laurens and Hamilton seem to notice my stress. I decided to give them a ride to be nice. "Hey?" Hamilton asks. I look up and say "Did you say something?" Laurens raises his eyebrow. He can see my stress. "Are you okay?" Laurens asks again. I nod laying my hand on my pocket with that note in it. I decided to keep it on me. I do not need her to be hurt. I am staying away from her. I can not even look at her. This man will keep an eye on me. He will dance with her some time tonight.

~~Everyone is at the Ball~~

Rebecca's POV

I arrived slightly early. I am not myself tonight. I could cry any moment. I stand alone. I need to talk with the group. I zone out standing in the yard with people around me. I do not pay any attention to them.

John's POV

Lafayette immediately disappears into the crowd. He seems out of something. He seems scared which odd for him. I see Rebecca standing by herself. I leave the group. They seemed to notice that i was leaving. "Hello Rebecca." I say. She does not move. It looks like she does not even notice i am there. I rest my hand on her shoulder. She flinches and it honestly scares me. "Oh hello John." She says. "Hey are you okay?" I ask. She smiles and nods. "Just was lost in thought." She says.

Rebecca's POV

John scared me. My thoughts got the best of me. I fake a smile. I just have to get through tonight in one piece. John smiles back. I can see in his eyes he is thinking about something that he has been trying to figure out for a long time. In less then a week the men go off to the war camp. I have to make the most of it. My father said he would take me with him to the camp so i will be with him. I just can not leave his side. I promised not to leave his side. 

John and I walk inside. I look around for Lafayette. I need to talk with him. I sigh and look down. I feel someone grab my hand. I flinch again. I am still jumpy from the other night. I look and see Mulligan. I hug him immediately. I feel him hug me back.

Mulligan's POV 

I plan to make this the best night of her life to make up for yesterday.

Hamilton's POV

If i were to spend 6 mouths writing essays I should write about 51. Oh look A cute girl in a blue dress.

Lafayette's POV

I have managed to keep away from her this long maybe i can make it through the rest of the night. I see her dance with a lot of men. I hope she stays safe.

~~time skip because i need sleep~~

Rebecca's POV

I have danced with so many guys. They are real gentle men. I decide to walk home. I want time to think. I say my goodbyes. Mulligan insisted that he walks me home. I told him no but thank you. I start to walk. I notice someone following me but i pay not attention to it. I thought i had something special with Lafayette. I guess not. He did not even look at me tonight. I feel a hand on my shoulder and turn to see Lafayette. "Ah 'ello i apologize for not speaking to you tonight." He says. His voice sounds of sorrow. I continue walking and say "Oh i assure you it is okay." He stops me once again and looks me in the eyes and opens his mouth to say something but gets stopped but a loud sound. I feel pain in my lower stomach and i fall to the ground as i black out

Author's Note

okay so this chapter took me about three days to write. It has about twice the amount of words then before. I had writers block and have not had much time but here you go.

Time for the normal Questions

What do you think happened?

Any idea who the 'worst nightmare' guy is?

Will Rebecca be okay after tonight?