047 // WHISPERING

"if we don't speak, our love can never blossom"

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Helena wakes up.

her round, experienced eyes open slowly, blinking as she realises the environment she's surrounded by. it's unfamiliar yet familiar and when she realises where she is, she feels a wave of calmness surrounding her mental and physical being. Helena feels a smile slide onto her dry lips, stretching her arms as she curls up into a ball.

her legs bend, hands tucked under her face, eyes blinking and she smiles happily.  she's never smiled like this in the morning. the grin doesn't leave her lips, her throat is sore from dehydration as she tears her gaze away from her sleeping boyfriend.

Helena watches the gorgeous, blurry sunrise from the closed window as she lies next to her boyfriend, aware that it's an early morning and they have nothing to do. no plans ahead. the uncertainty is for once, settling well.

utopia. Helena thinks of the single world when her sleepy, alive eyes fixate on the grey covers and grey walls of Yoongi's bedroom.

her eyes move again. this time Helena looks at the lover in his childhood sheets, lying beside her with a peaceful look on his face. his brown eyes are shut, eyelashes on show, flannel nightwear sliding down to reveal pale collarbones and his chest sighs light breaths. i wonder what he's dreaming about- Helena wonders. she's so lost in his presence even when he's sleeping. she can hear his voice as well.

"i love you."

Helena whispers whilst he's asleep. it just comes out. it slips from her lips so effortlessly- like she's said it before. she wants to say it in person; to his precious face but there's something stopping her. the tight feeling in her chest is one reason why. nothing has ever stopped her from such decisions before. she's just afraid of what he'll say.

Yoongi could just smile and Helena would be happy.

i love you. three strange words she wants Yoongi to know.

"marriage and children." Helena claps her hands together. "i hate that expectation. is that all women are fit for?"

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