" No, He Doesn't. " I said. " We're Just Friends, Okay? " 

• Brian's P O V •

When me and my boyfriend got home, not much was said. I didn't blame him for not wanting to tell Fred and Deaky, but he made it sound so genuine, and it worried me slightly - because I truly did love him.

Rog was sat on our couch, looking slightly stressed, massaging his temples. I didn't like watching people or staring - but something about Roger's body language was odd.

" You Alright? " I said softly, only being able to see the back of his blond head. He grunted with a nod. " You're Angry? " I questioned, getting the same response, but with a shook head.

" Then Why Aren't You Talking To Me, Roger? "

"..."

" Because I Might Hurt You. "

 he softly whispered, looking at his feet. I just about saw his face turn to me before it was a mop of hair again.

Roger's P O V

" I Don't Wanna Have Bipolar Anymore. " I said drowsily, tired of being awake but too awake to be tired.

 " I Want To Be Happy Now, But I Feel..I Don't Know. And..If We Talk - I Might Hurt Your Feelings. I Don't Wanna Do That. I Want To Make You Happy - But I Just Cant. "

Brian's P O V

I couldn't believe my ears, What I was hearing, or what Roger was saying.

Roger's P O V

" Look At All The Pressure I Alone Have Put On You - Look At This! Look At Me! I Don't Even Look Like..Like I'm Gonna Make Anyone  Happy! " 

" Why Bother With Me When All I'm Gonna Do Is Stress You Out? " I sobbed, tears streaming down my face, and my hands on my head, pulling my hair. I looked quite obviously like an emotional wreck.

" Wh - Why Bother..? " I whispered again before breaking down into tears, falling to my knees and just ugly - crying on the floor. I felt mentally ill, like a mental cancer of some sort, and it felt so painful and I couldn't take it - crying was like the drug - it wasn't any better or worse, but it let me release all my sadness into one action.

Then, I felt two hands gently pick me up, letting me cry into a familiar shoulder. Brian softly calmed me with meek ' Shh 'es and kisses on my forehead. He was so nice to me and I just couldn't see why - me? Why? Out of anyone he could like - it was me. 

" Don't Cry, Love, Don't Cry. Come And Sit With Me - I'm Gonna Make You Better. We Can Talk, Okay? "

" Stop Treating Me Like A Baby,  Brian. I Don't Wanna Talk - I'm Gonna Upset You. "

" The Only Way You're Gonna Upset Me Is Keeping All Those Bad Thoughts Inside Your Head. Sit With Me, Please, And Tell Me Anything You Want. I'll Listen. I Won't Judge, And I Won't Get Angry. Okay, Babe? Please - This Is The Chance To Ask Me Questions And Talk To Me About You. " 

" If I Start Cursing Myself Or Physically Trying To Hurt Myself - Don't Judge Me. "

- Roger Goes On To Explain About His Damaged Past ( FLASHBACK ) -

" I was about...Well, it was the Smile Era when I realised I liked boys.  When I realised I liked you. But I had a girlfriend who at the time I didn't realise was a slut and a grumpy evil woman. She used me, Brian. "

" Roger, Fuck Me. Now. "

" H - Honey - I - I've Got A Show In 5 Minu- "

" NOW. OR ELSE. " 

" O - Okay. "

" I realised I liked boys when I started getting to know you, Bri. And I didn't want her anymore but I was so scared to tell her because I thought she truly loved me for who I was. Not just how i made a good sex partner. After that show I decided to tell her but...but..Well...things didn't go easy. "

" C - Can We Talk..? About..Something I - I've Been Wanting To Say? "

" What Is It, Roger? Are We Gonna Get Married? "

" N - No...Uhm..I...I Don't Think I Like..Girls...Anymore. I..I've Been Feeling A Bit..Gay Recently..."

" So You Wanna Get Fucked By Men Now.. "

" Don't Take It The Wrong Way- I'm Not Trying To Hurt You.. "

" Let Me Tell You Something That Will Ruin Your Life Forever. "

" I don't love you at all, nobody does - nobody loves a nobody like you. Did you really think I'd ever love such a stupid, gay fag like you? I knew you liked other boys, Taylor, I wanted to take advantage of your stupidness just to upset you now. Just accept that nobody is trustable anymore, and the next person that's with you will do just the same because you're nothing but a mistake and a FAG. "

- 

I was in tears by the time I had explained everything, Brian just looked at me in total horror and disgust. I didn't know if it was towards the girl or me as a whole, but now he knew one more of the million horrible truths about me.

Then, he bit his lip and hiccuped a sob. " That's So Bad. " he mumbled in a teary voice. " You Poor, Poor Boy. I Can't Believe She Said That About My Beautiful Baby. Please Don't Believe Her, Please. "

" I CANT HELP IT!  "  I shouted, my eyes sore and my teeth aching. " It Sounded So True.  And You Have NO IDEA How many times I've been deceived by someone who I thought loved me. How can I trust you, Brian? " 

Brian's P O V 

" B - Baby.. " I sobbed. " Are You Asking To B - Break Up..? "

My hands trembled. My body was weakened and I was petrified- What If he did? What if he couldn't trust me with him anymore? What if I couldn't help Him?

" N - No, Brian..I..I Love You So, So Much And - And I Want It To Stay That Way - B - But I Might Hurt You! I Already Have - Look At You! "

" You Haven't Hurt Me, Love...I've Hurt Myself Worrying About You...Because I Just Want To Protect You From Everything That Had Ever And Will Ever Hurt You Because I Simply Dedicate My Life To You! You Are SO SPECIAL, And You Are Mine, Roger. All Mine. That Means Nobody Can Hurt You Anymore - Not On My Watch. "

" I Love You So Much, Brian. The Things You Do For Me - The Things You Say. Thank You So Much For Loving Me, Baby. I - I Wouldn't Be Happy Without You. 

For about 2 hours we just held each other, smiling so gratefully for each other, not going to sleep. Kisses to the head, lips and neck were exchanged, and it felt like nothing happened. I still needed to know who that woman was who Hurt Roger. She deserved a taste of her own medicine. She was gonna get it one day.