So um this hurt to write but yeah. T. W /Depression, Anorexia, Bulimia, Thoughts of cutting, slight dysphoria, sorta transphobia like only towards Virgil not towards any other trans people, insecurity, mentions once about top surgery as well as once about Virgil's dick, cursing, violence, blood um I think that's it but tell me if I missed any. /
VIRGIL'S POV

Today me and the guys decided that we would go out for lunch today. We knew that we needed some bonding type thing or as Patton put it "family time" ./we're boyfriends so it's more like a date type thing but whatever/ But regardless we agreed to meet at about 2 pm for lunch and it is only..... 2 PM GAHHH. Ok ok breathe just explain to them why you were late yeah. Ok.

/5 mins later/

I was rushing to the restaurant and I actually made good time it was only 2: 05 so I'm doing good. I spotted the others sitting at a table outside of the restaurant and walked over and sat down they didn't seem to upset so I didn't say anything about it.

They then walked off stating that they were going to go to the bathroom. A few minutes after they had left two people came and sat down at a table a few feet away. I ducked my head down and tried to hide behind my bangs. I knew who those people were before they even noticed me and quite frankly I didn't want to have any sort of encounter with them.

The others then walked back up to the table and took a seat. Seeing as Patton had sat next to me I leaned my head against his shoulder.

"Diamond, are you ok? " Patton asked me worry in his tone. "Yeah Pat, I'm fine I'm just anxious I guess. " All of us knowing fully well that I wasn't fine. "Well, Creepy Cookie I will slay whatever villain is plaguing your thoughts! " Roman exclaimed heroically. "Princey stahp I'm not a princess or some small frail cat or somethin. " I said giving him a smirk to show I didn't mean any harm. "Virgil according to multiple accounts and happenings you have been known to act as if you were a cat ie. sitting on stuff that isn't meant to be sat on, following spots of light, loving warm spots, purring and hissing. Which gives us reason to believe you were actually a cat. " Logan said matter o' factly. "Ok damn Lo. I get it I'm inhumanely cat like. "

We continued to talk with each other along with princey and I bickering a bit. I was happy and content. Well until they decided to walk over here.

"Valarie! Is that you sis?" Marco exclaimed. "Hello Marco, hello Carlos. " I mumble to the two boys standing next to our table.

"Valarie long time no speak. It's been a while since weve seen you. You were like 13 at the time. Ah how time flies. " Marco says joyously. "Hey Val, did you know that you big bro over here is is now reminiscence? I am so proud of him. I if course am romantic love. " Carlos said. "Aw I love you too Babe. " Marcos said hugging Carlos tightly.

(If you haven't picked up on it yet this is one hell of fight or as I call it a shit show.)

"Hey Valarie, who are these three lovely men you're sitting with." Marco said gesturing towards my boyfriends. Logan then stood up and shook Marco's hand Patton and Roman following suit. "Salutations,I am Logan." "Hiya, I'm Patton." "Good day to you,I'm Prince Roman " "They are my boyfriends Marc"

"Well hello I'm Valerie's older brother and you better treat her right you three. I'm not going to allow for you to hurt my little sis."After Marcos says that I give him a dirty glare. "Big bro you know I don't wanna be called Valarie."

"I um excuse me but why not you are Valarie that is your name after all. " Marcos said with a look of resentment. "Yeah, Val. Marc is right. "

I looked down in shame and sadness. The others looked to me in wonder. Wondering what the fuuuck my brother and his boyfriend were saying.

"Virgil, love, what are they talking about? " Logan asked. His tone hinting that he knew more than he let on. "Woah woah whoa. Hold on a sec. That's Valarie. MY baby sister not Virgil. Who the hell is Virgil. *Marcos turns to me* Valarie who are they talking about? "

"Me mother fucker MY name isn't valarie anymore it is Virgil. So fuck off the both of you. " I glare at him and flip him off.

"VALARIE! What do you think your doing. Virgil is a guys name not a girls. You are a girl you don't need to be saying your a boy." He says hate evident in his voice. "Yeah Val, that's so uncool. You need to be going by Valarie. Like It's bad enough you dress like an emo boy and cut your hair now your going by a guys name? "

(I'm sorry I hate this already I-I don't think I can continue with this. It brings out bad memories to me I just-)

"Well duh I am a fucking boy so fuck off and leave us alone." I look at him one more time before I look away. "Valarie don't say such things. You are a girl and that's that. "

"Uh actually Virgil is the most handsome fucking man ever and if you can't see how amazing he is the you don't deserve to be his brother. " Roman interjects into our conversation. "Yeah your falsehoods are of utmost infinitesimal importance. Virgil is a guy and that's that. " Logan says. "Definitely. We love and care about him. And it's his decision on what gender he is not yours." I smile hugging Patton tightly as he was closest to me.

"How. How could you love her. She's a freak with a mental disease. She's not a boy her brains messing with her. " Mark says angrily. "Yeah. Val is sick. She's not trans she just think she is. She will always be a girl forever and always. " Carlos adds. It leaves my heart in shreds but I won't let it show. Not now. Not here in public.

"Virgil is not sick he is trans but we still him. With all our hearts. We don't care what he identifies himself as. Him being happy is our top priority and as his older brother it should be yours as well." Patton says hugging me. He can see right through my facade. "Yes. Being transgender is not a disease for it in no way infects the mind or body, nor does it become a hindrance. There are many surgeries and medical procedures along with testosterones to help. As well as the price of breast removal surgery is lowered for many transgender FTM people. Ergo if it were a disease why would so many be willing to help the process along. As well as the dysphoria they feel is caused by the fact that their brain and body don't align with the sex of the human" Logan stated mater O' factly. Giving me a small smile. "As a prince it is my duty to protect those in need and it seems as if Virgil is A okay in most aspects. To us and literally most every human his birth gender and genitalia don't matter. If he says he's male he is. " I smile and stand up getting in my brothers face.

"You know what mother fucker being trans isn't a mental disease. My fucking depression, anxiety, anorexia, and bulimia are fucking mental disorders. (The others only know about his anxiety) So shut the fuck up cunt and go away. " He looks down at me in anger. The both of them turn to walk away but then Marc turns quickly and punches me in the eye before walking away. I stumble and fall backwards to the ground.

Roman jumps up and starts to fight with Marcos. Logan trying to pull Roman away and Carlos trying to pull Marcos away. Logan eventually pulled Roman away, Marcos and Carlos running off.

All the while Patton rushing over and pulling my up from the ground picking me up in his arms. He sat me in his lap and examined my eye checking for any broken skin.

After Logan pulled Roman away they rushed over to me and Patton also checking to see if I'm okay. "Virgil you know we are gonna have a lot of stuff to talk about when get home correct. " Logan says as I stand up. "I do, Lo. I do. "

Patton trying to grab me again because just under my eyebrow was bleeding. Along with the slide of my nose and the fact my eye was already bruising over. I gave no mind to him and continued to walk away.

I then walk home and lock myself in my room and curl up on the other side of the door. I start to have a panic attack. The events that just occurred becoming to much.

I hear Logan, Roman, and Patton knocking on my door and trying to get in. I open the door and rush up to Patton burying my face in his chest. He picked me up and sat down sitting me on his lap. Logan than started to coach me through the attack. All the while Roman held tightly but reassuringly onto my hand.

I started to calm down from my panic attack. I remained holding onto Patton. Just laying limply in his lap. The others understood that I was upset and didn't want to talk after the events that just occurred so they didn't force me to as the others new it would lead to nothing good.

(How does Moses make coffee.
Hebrews it.

I'm sorry, back to the story)

Patton picked me up easily considering I am quite a bit lighter than him. He then brought me into living room sitting back down with me in his lap still. The others sat down and we all curled up together and watched a movie.

(Yes I'm aware they didn't eat)

After 3 (5) movies later, it was roughly 9 pm. Patton was in the kitchen making dinner and was just about done. As if on que Patton called out "Dinners ready! Come get some! " The others walked into the dining room but I stayed still on the couch.

After about 10 mins, what I can assume was the others getting their plates, Patton walked into the living room with a small plate of food.

"Hey Virgey, can you please eat something. " I looked at him before shaking my head no. He looked at me sadly at sat next to me. "Please Virgil. For me?" I still sat there reluctant to eat the food. "I won't eat until you do." I looked him in they eye. He wasn't lying. I grabbed the plate from him and started eating. I ate about a fourth of the plate before putting the plate on the coffee table.

Patton smiled sadly at me but still picked up the plate and walked into the kitchen. I heard the others whispering.

They are talking about how much they hate you and how you are a disgrace and gross.

You know what you are probably right. But you wanna know what else fuck you I'm going to go in my room and sleep bitch.

I get up and go in my room and lay down hoping that sleep with come and finally let me rest. I don't know how long I had been laying there for before I finally passed out.

I awoke what must of been 8 or 9 a.m I'm unsure but I do know I heard the others o utside my door talking. Not thinking I walk over to the door and go to open it when I remember I don't have a shirt on. I crack the door instead and look out at the others.

"Oh sorry ,I didn't know that this was a press conference." Patton and Roman laugh even Logan cracks a smile at what I said. They notice the fact that I am not fully out of my room.

"Hey? Emo nightmare why are just sticking your head out of your room come out here with us? " Roman asks softly. "Yes, Virgil we must talk with you about yesterday and some other important stuff. " Logan says. "I uh well I um er I'm sorta not wearing a shirt so like yeah. "

(Btw he is on T /duh/ and he has had both top and bottom surgery)

"Oh virgey have you not had top surgery sorry if that's a bit to personal. " Patton asks immediately worrying if what he said was too invasive. "Oh um yeah I have I just um I'm ya know a bit insecure. "(same Virgil same)I say a bit anxiously. " My chemical romance you got nothing you need to hide and we are deeply sorry if we are the reason you feel insecure but we love you no matter what so if you will please come out we would like to see you. " Roman says sadly  because of the fact that I'm insecure.

"Gah fine I'm coming I'm coming give me like point two seconds or something to fix myself. " I walk back into my room before they could say anything else and reapply my makeup along with making sure that my witches symbol necklace is on properly. I then brush my teeth and ya know get presentable.

As I go to walk out I grab my beanie putting it on a opening the door. The others have now migrated to the living room. I want to go back in my room and curl up and fucking die or something but I can't prolong the inevitable. Forcing myself to the living room entrance I look on seeing the others happily talking. They haven't noticed me yet.

You could go back in your room and-

Maybe, no no no I am not doing that at least not right now when the others are going to be all over me I need to lay low for a week or so before they forget and leave me alone again.

"Im back broskis." They looked at me and I swear to Satan that if this were a cheesy anime or some shit they would have had a nose bleed and fainted. Princeys mouth was wide open. Patton was looking at me happily and idk like I was a cookie or something. Logan well he was checking me out. "Take a picture it will last longer. "

After a second they realize what they were doing and started blushing. I look at princey and blood is dripping from his nose. "Princey? Is your nose seriously bleeding right now?" I ask as more of a rhetorical question.

Roman then jumps up wipes the blood from his nose and picks me up swinging me around. He stops and holds me tightly. The others come and hug me as well. "Ok dudes like I get it I'm handsome as fuck but can you stop cause Roman is kneeing my fuckin dick and it hurts like a mo fo. "  They immediately let go and Roman started laughing like the gay mo fo he was.

"What's so funny pretty boy? " He starts laughing even more. "I- I should be saying that to you h-hot topic! " He calms down and just looks at me love struck. I walk over and hand him a piece of paper. "Call me, princey" I say as a walk away. Just as I closed my door I heard the others burst out laughing.

I can say this might have been the best way to come out.

Ok so this was rough but I um did it. I might write more on this like them talking to him about what's wrong and like his body or something. Later today and or this week I will publishing another part and a teaser for my new story that is coming out next week on Friday.