Ngl this is kinda based off of Jinxx's 'Don't Let Me Be Gone' book in the early chapter where Virgil gets taken to the pit where Ignorance and Remus torture him and.. Stuff. Then Deceit comes to save him. I'm pretty sure most Sanders Sides fans that come on Wattpad have at least seen DLMBG around but if you haven't read it wtf are you doing with your life? Oh.. Reading this.. WELL STOP READING MY GARBAGE AND GO READ A MASTERPIECE! IF YOU WANT I CAN SEND IT TO YOU JUST FUCKING READ IT. THE ANGST QUEEN DESERVES BETTER THAN YOU! .... I'm sorry. That book just makes me super emotional especially with chapter 162... Anyway, I'm gonna try to make this more original so that I'm not completely stealing her idea.

Warning: Torture, DLMBG Spoilers, Blood, Fighting, Swearing, Bad!Remus, Sympathetic!Deceit, Anger (grr), Mentions of Rape

Virgil's POV

I've been trapped down here for.. I don't know.. A week now? Maybe two? The sun does not shine here, the water is untouchable and undrinkable and the food they give me is either poisoned or rotten, which could be one in the same.

Darkness crawled from every corner, I never though I'd miss the light, being cooped up in my dark humble room all the time. I found the darkness calming and lonely, the way I liked it. But not here. Here the darkness was like a monster that would tug at you from every corner. On good days it would taunt you. On bad days it would rib you to shreds, limb from limb until you felt like a lifeless corpse on the ground. Cold. Emotionless. Still. Until you fall asleep, find the energy to get up or something interrupts the quiet cold solitude of what seems to feel like or be death inches away. In my case, it was always the last.

My throat was dry from dehydration and sore from screaming for help and crying, mostly crying as I soon give up on pleading and yelling, knowing full well that no one will hear.
My stomach growled every so often and twisted with pain from not eating in so long. Even if they gave me food, I would never eat it for the life of me. I knew I would feel ten times worse if I did.
My eyes were puffy and heavy from crying so much and lack of sleep. It may be dark here and silent and nothing to do, but its worse to sleep. When I get the little sleep I do, they're filled with nightmares. Vivid, gruesome and horrid.

I feel like I'm going insane.. Is this how they feel? Being trapped down here for so long? But they can leave at any moment. Remus proved that when he lead me down here. I guess all of us are somewhat good actors like the Creativitwins.. Just like Deceit.

Oh.. Deceit.. I can't believe I'm saying this (somewhat), but I really fucking miss Deceit. And not just since I've been down here. I miss Deceit in general, ever since I stopped hanging out with him. Ever since I left him for the light sides. I mean, he hung out with the light sides as well, but I ignored him. I acted like I hated him out of nowhere when he did nothing wrong.. I just realised my messed up feelings for him. I didn't want him to know or to ruin anything so I left. He came after me and I pretended like I hated him.

Looking back on it now, it seemed so stupid. At the time, I thought I was doing us both a favor. But I ended up doing the very thing I didn't want to happen which was destroy our years worth of friendship. Now he thinks that I hate him and that's what he'll always think, even after I'm gone, which won't be long now. Eventually I'll starve out or die in my sleep or maybe Anger will just finish me off quickly if I'm lucky.

My body ached and pain shot through me with every slight movement I made. Bruises, of all colours, black, purple, brown, blue, and cuts, some still actively bleeding and some not, some already scarred over, all littered my body, mostly from Anger. He would use me as his ragdoll. Something to play with all his toys, aka weapons, so that he could get his anger out.

There were even some hickeys on my collarbones and chest and some hand shaped bruises on my neck and hips from Jealousy. He never full on raped me, luckily. But he would grind against me and use me to get himself off. I think that was worse than what Anger does by far. But that's my personal opinion of course.

I don't want to be here...

I don't think any of the sides are coming for me. Nobody except for the dark sides know about this place and the only dark side that I was ever close with was Deceit and its obvious that he's not coming to save me anytime soon after what I did to him. Its not like he would even know anyway since I don't talk to him anymore.. God I'm an asshole. And most of the dark sides ended up in the pit or the trait complex after Teen Division anyway.

(Teen Division is something I made up so don't worry if you're confused. Basically when you're a teen you're going through your stuff and you officially decide what kind of adult you're going to be and your sides are your top key components that you use most, the traits would be ones you still somewhat use because they're still parts of you, you just use them less and the ones that end up in the pit are the ones that you want to be forgotten or you don't express EVER. Once you express or acknowledge them they're free from the pit though but will usually and up in the trait complex
Make sense? Probably not but moving on!)

Right now I am hidden safely in a crack I found in the wall of this place. It was small, but large enough for me to fit in, though it made me pretty claustrophobic, it was better than being out there. Anger and Jealousy don't know about the crack, I don't intend to let them know anytime soon.

"Virgil?"

I hear a voice calling me. I know that its either Anger or Jealousy since they're the only ones I've ever seen down here. I shrink further into the crack even though I'm already as far back as I can possibly go.

Please don't find me!

I cried in my mind.

"Virgil? Where are you?" The voice called again.

I could already feel myself hyperventilating. I started crying, thinking about the next horrible thing they were going to do with me. I put my hand over my mouth to muffle my cries which seemed to make them echo more, but I didn't notice.

"Virgil?! Are you in here?" The voice got closer.

I squeezed my eyes shut as I started sobbing louder. Thoughts of what they were going to do with me and already had done with me raced through my mind. All I could think about was how absolutely terrified I was.

"Virgil! Virge, are you okay? Come on, we gotta get out of here!" The voice said, now right in front of my hiding spot.

Wait.. It sounds.. Familiar..

"D-Dee?" I asked, opening my eyes to look at the person. I would have said his full name but I didn't have the energy to.

"Yes, its me, Virge. Come on, we have to get out of here before they find us!" Deceit said, beckoning me, his voice a harsh whisper.

I used all of my remaining energy to crawl out of the crack and collapsed into Dee's arms. My body filled with pain and ached harsher. But all of that was more so overridden with how good it felt to be held again. To feel safe. To feel protected. The darkness was still all around me, trying to claw and grip me, but now there was a light around me. Protecting me from the darkness and its nasty claws.

"Oh my God, Virge.. What did they do to you..?" Dee whispered, mostly to himself.

I didn't answer, half because I didn't have the energy and half because I knew he wasn't really looking for an answer at this exact moment.

He picked me up, gently, though it still hurt. It wasn't very hard since I was so light having not ate in.. However long I was there.

I whimpered slightly as he picked up the pace which disturbed my wounds and bruises more.

"Sorry.. I have to hurry before Anger and Jealousy find us." Dee explained.

I nodded a bit in understanding.

I had my eyes as open as I could make them, watching the same darkness pass us, nothing changing much, everything was just dark down here. But Dee seemed to know the way.
Soon enough, I saw a light. It was a bright yellow portal, one you'd see in movies. To be honest, I didn't care what it was. So long as it would get me out of here.

Of course, as we- well, Dee, was running, something interrupted us.
Suddenly Dee had fallen, me with him. He held me tightly with one arm and from the portal giving us a source of light, I could see his other arm was bleeding and there was a knife stuck in the ground not to far away.

"Where do you think you're going?" I heard Anger ask, trying to keep his cool but rage slipping through his voice.

"Yeah, leaving so soon~?" I heard Jealousy purr from the other side, closer to me.

I whimpered and held on to Dee tightly, not wanting him to go. He could get up and leave me here right now. I wouldn't blame him, it's what I did to him..

"Fuck off and let us leave." Deceit growled, but did not move from our position on the ground. I could tell they were getting closer.

"Aw, just leave us the pretty boy and go~!" Jealousy whined.

"Yeah, if you do, we won't hurt you.. Anymore." Anger agreed.

Part of my mind was begging him not to let me go. Part of my mind didn't want him to get hurt and to just leave and forget about me.

He looked down at me and we made eye contact. His eyes were full of worry and contemplation with a little bit of anger hidden behind that.

Was he seriously contemplating this..? Does he hate me that much..?

Deceit's POV

I looked down at Virgil and we made eye contact. What should I do? Should I make a run for it or try to fight them? There was no way I was leaving Virgil.
When I looked into his eyes, all I could see was fear and absolute brokenness. It figuratively broke my heart.

Anger and Jealousy continued their back and forth rant on why I should leave Virgil while walking cautiously towards me.

I set Virgil on the ground and fear sparked in his eyes. I gave him a reassuring look to silently tell him that I'm not leaving. My poor cru- friend didn't even have enough energy to sit up. He was like a helpless, abused ragdoll.

I reached into my cape slowly, anger flaring in my eyes as I thought about the few cuts and bruises I had seen on his face, the brokenness in his eyes, all that these two caused.

Soon they were right behind me and I made my move. In my cape I held my dagger. I jumped up quickly, swinging at whoever was closer, which ended up being Anger. I slashed his chest deeply and blood sprayed out, then began oozing quickly.

"Agh, what the fuck?!" He steamed, rage blazing in his eyes as he glared at me and held his chest.

"Both of you, leave now, or I'll do much worse." I threatened, keeping my voice calm.

But I think they both knew that I was more angry than Anger himself.

"Okay.. Okay.. We're going.." Anger said, backing away, but there was something in his eyes and tone that said otherwise.

"Dee!" I heard Virgil yell from behind me.

I spun around and quickly grabbed Jealousy by the neck before he could do anything. He struggled above me, fear suddenly replaced whatever devious emotion that had taken place beforehand in his eyes.

"Leave. NOW!" I yelled, losing my temper.

I threw Jealousy onto the ground beside Anger. He spluttered and coughed, holding his throat from how tight I had squeezed.

"This isn't over, Deceit! We'll leave you and your doll alone for now.. But we'll be back. You're not safe yet!" Anger vowed.

I just glared at them before picking Virgil, carefully, again. I walked through the portal, keeping a close eye on Anger and Jealousy.

-Time Skip-

When we had walked through the portal, Logan, Patton and Roman were waiting for us on the other side. Roman would have went, but only dark sides could go to the pit and come out alive and unaffected. Unfortunately with Virgil's transition from a dark side to a light side, he had become somewhat of both, causing him to survive but be extremely affected. At least, that's what Logan speculated.

Logan had quickly got to work, inspecting Virgil and making sure he was okay. Patton doing the same, making Virgil food and tea and checking on him every five minutes. Patton hadn't gotten much sleep since Virgil disappeared, he had freaked out and asked around everywhere, Roman helped looking as well, even went to the imagination. It wasn't long before I heard and was on my feet day and night trying to figure out where he went.

Now we finally have him back and I'm so relieved, worried and angry. Relieved that he's back. Worried about him. And angry at Anger and Jealousy and whatever they did to him.

"Are you sure he's okay, Logie?" Patton asked again.

We were all on edge in the living room.

"Yes, Patton, he'll live. But he wouldn't let me check under his shirt and pants or touch him a lot.. I'll question him about everything that happened in the morning but for now he should rest." Logan explained.

"Maybe I should check on him again, just to make sure.." Patton said, getting up again only for Logan to grab his hand.

"Pat, he's fine, that's the seventh time since he's been home. He just needs rest now. And so do you. Come rest in our room." Logan said softly.

Patton hesitated, but nodded, letting Logan carry him up to his room.

Roman yawned and turned to me, "well, I agree that its time to hit the hay. Its been a tough week and its getting pretty late. You going to sleep here again or go back to the dark side house?"

"I think I won't stay here tonight." I said.

"Okay, bye!" He said, waving and heading to his room.

I rolled my eyes at Roman's obliviousness and headed upstairs as well. The guest bedroom was at the very end if the hall, Virgil's room next to it. But I did not go to the guest room. Instead, I stopped by Virgil's room. I listened inside to see if I could hear anything. I couldn't, so assumed he was asleep. Nonetheless, I slowly opened the door and peeked inside.

His room was dark, the walls were purple and spider webs were littered around. MCR, P!ATD, SIO and other emo band posters were hung lazily on the walls. His dresser, night stand table and desk matched each other with the same dark oak. A purple bean bag was sat in the corner of the room, sunken in from probably years of use, a small bookshelf filled with books sat next to it. And in the middle sat a bed with black sheets and a large purple blanket, a curled up lump was set in the middle, it seemed to be shaking a bit.

I walked in, "Virgil?" I called quietly, just in case he was awake, and closed the door behind me.

"Dece?" I heard a small voice ask.

My heart melted. I haven't heard him call me that in years...

"Yeah, its me.. You doing okay?" I asked, sitting on the edge of his bed, I realised that he might not want to talk to me though, "You just wanna rest? I can leave-" I said, getting up, but he quickly grabbed me and cut me off.

"Wait, don't.. Please don't go.. I don't want to be alone.. Not right now.." He begged, eyes watery and pleading, his hand softly holding my wrist, stopping me from going anywhere, though I could have easily pulled away.

I nodded in understanding, sitting back down, this time beside him, my back against the headboard.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked after a moment of uncomfortable silence.

Virgil winced, sitting up too, "I don't know.." He mumbled, looking to the roof, lost in thought.

"Can I.. Can I see..?" I asked, quietly.

I knew that he didn't let Logan see. But he was never comfortable with his body and from what I knew he and Logan weren't very close. I didn't know whether I even wanted to see what Anger and Jealousy had done to him or not, but I needed to know. I needed to protect him. I wouldn't let him walk away like I did last time. I couldn't.

He hesitantly nodded. He sat up, I could sense that every movement caused him some sort of pain and I felt slightly guilty, but let him continue as he pulled his shirt over his head.

I gasped in shock, his body was littered with cuts, bruises and scars everywhere and I had only seen his back. He faced me, looking down in shame. I knelt in front of him. I noticed the hickeys as well, which made my blood boil somehow even more. I felt tears prick my eyes as I thought of all the things Anger and Jealousy must have done to him. My poor Virgil begging for them to stop and crying for help while nothing came but another hit.

I softly held Virgil's face, wiping his tears away with my thumb and making him look up at me. I wanted to fix the brokenness in his eyes. I never wanted him to cry again, I wanted him to be happy.

"Virge.. What did they do to you..?" I asked, softly, nothing but concern in my eyes.

He looked away again. Was I just now noticing that he didn't have any makeup like usual? I could see his freckles. And his hair was naturally curly. Oh my God he was so cute- what am I thinking? Now is not the time!

"A-Anger would take out his anger on me.. Usually he would just hit me but sometimes he would use.. Weapons..." He started.

Anger flared in me at Anger. And I knew I would not like what I heard next.

"And Jealousy..?" I asked, calmly. I knew that this was probably a touchy subject for him.

He took a deep, shaky breath, "Jealousy w-would touch me and use me to.. To j... To ge.." He couldn't finish his sentence, but he didn't have to. I understood. I didn't want him to finish his sentence either.

"Shh.. Its okay.." I hugged him and let him cry into me. I wrapped my arms tightly, but not too tightly, around his shaking frame.

We sat there together, him in my arms, for I don't know how long, but it was nice. I never wanted it to end.

"I'm sorry..." Virgil whispered into my shoulder, guilt and sadness in his voice.

"For what?" I asked.

"I'm sorry for leaving you.."

There was a pause before I said, "why did you leave?"

Maybe it wasn't the best time, but I needed to know.

He let go of me and pulled away, I reluctantly did the same, missing his warmth. He pulled his shirt over his head with regret and guilt in his eyes. He then turned away from me, hugging himself.

"You would hate me if I told you the truth.."

"I won't. Nothing could make me hate you, Virge. I promise. But I need to know.."

"I-.. I left because I didn't want to ruin our friendship.."

"Virge, how would you ruin our friendship?"

It kinda sucked to just call it friendship.. That's what it was.. But I had always hoped that it would turn into more..

"Because.. Because I love you Dee.." Virgil whispered, but I still heard him.

He glanced at me out of the corner of his eye, obviously all out of tears to cry and trying to read my expression.

Virgil's POV

"Virgil.."

Oh no.. Here it comes.. I'm sorry.. Goodbye forever Dece!

"I love you to." He confessed, smiling softly at me.

"W-what?" I questioned, not believing my own ears. I turned to face him.

"I, Deceit Sanders, share mutual feelings of affection, that some may call 'love', with you, Virgil Sanders, as well." Deceit explained, sounding kinda like Logan.

I smiled and hugged him around his neck, not knowing how much I had wanted to hear those words come from him. I had waited too long to hear them.

We shared a soft chuckle. I pulled back from the hug. We locked eyes and slowly leaned into each other until our lips were mere centimeters apart. Dee closed the gap between us and, cliche enough, it felt like sparks went off around us. It was soft and passionate. Soon enough, it had started becoming heated.

Dee lay me down on the bed, still kissing me. One hand propped him up on top of me as the other trailed down my torso, then on my hip. His cool hand went up my shirt making me shiver. He played with the rim of my pants, accidentally pushing a bit on the harsh hand bruises on my hips from Jealousy, causing me to gasp in pain and slight bad memories.

Dee pulled away with worry and concern in his eyes.

"Are you okay? I'm sorry, I shouldn't have! Did I hurt you?" Dece asked.

"Its okay, its just.. The bruises.." I explained.

Dee knew the only place he had been touching was around my hips, he wasn't an idiot.

"May I see?" He asked.

I hesitantly nodded and showed him the bruised handprints from when Jealousy had held me still so he could grind against me..

Deceit looked enraged.

"I'm going to kill Jealousy." He vowed.

I grabbed his hand that was clenched into a tight, shaking, angry fist, gently.

"Please don't.. Just forget it." I begged.

The anger slowly drained out of him and he stopped shaking and unclenched his fist, though I could tell he was still angry and would still murder Jealousy if he ever saw him again.

"Okay." He agreed, "You look tired, when was the last time you slept?" He asked.

I shrugged, "I slept a little here and there.." I answered, not really remembering the last time I actually slept more than a few minutes. Especially without having a nightmare.

"Come on, lay down." He wrapped his arm around my waste and laid down, bringing me with him.

He didn't need to ask me twice. I didn't fight him as he pulled me close to him. I, being little spoon and him being big spoon. I was looking forward to a peaceful sleep. It was just us tonight.

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God damn that was long but I really enjoyed writing it! Ya'll know you can request as well right?

Word Count: 4,013

Date Published: December 5th, 2019