It's honestly kinda bullcrap how advice works.

Most of my memorable life, I've been told to not let the bad memories prevent me from making good ones.

Clichè, I know.

Pretty much all my therapists have told me, sane and actually-understand-emotions family members have told me, favorite teachers have told me, friends have told me.

But I just could never properly understand it.

I mean...most of my life, I've had tons and tons of bad memories.

Parents' divorce, subconscious belittling 24/7, natural pessimist = when tf did I have good memories, arguments, terrible people at school, horrible sister.

I know I have good memories.   I know I do.  But if you ask me to bring one up...I have to really think hard.  Like...really really.

Don't let the bad memories prevent the creation of new, good ones.  Don't let the bad memories prevent the creation of new, good ones.  Don't let the bad memories prevent the creation of new, good ones.

Okay...I've practically become numb to this concept because it's just....

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PEOPLE TELLING ME DON'T LET THE BAD MEMORIES PREVENT THE CREATION OF NEW GOOD ONES WITHOUT ACTUALLY TELLING ME HOW THE HELL TO DO IT DOES NOT FECKING HELP

Okay, calmness...this was not what this was supposed to be about...entirely.

Some random-a** Netflix original in the middle of my bored Netflix browsing that I ended up watching is finally the thing that makes me think.

It's so stupid how advice works.  You become numb to the professionals, the knowledgeables, the smart ones who are 100% correct, but some random-a** stranger, quote, movie, show, fricking whatever is what finally makes you think.

Like, wtf.

I can't even.

It's just so...hard to find people who understand.

The issue is that...most people who give the advice they give have never gone through the situation themselves.  Kind of like a mental version of a brain surgeon who's never had brain surgery but knows what they're doing.

I mean, I dunno man.

I can't shame people.

But it's stupid that some random as frick movie seems to cut through.

Am I actually gonna do anything about it?  I don't fricking know.