Yoongi

It was recess time and as usual, I would go to the tree previously to smoke. My body can't really live without cigarettes. I took out a cigarette from its box and place it between my lips before I shove the box in my pocket and took out a lighter.

"Stop smoking already, you piece of shit."

I heard a voice coming from behind so I turned my back and saw Yoon with her arms crossing. I scoffed.

"Why do you even care?"

I asked sarcastically as I attempted to light up the cigarette but she snatched it away from me that I look at her in confusion.

"Yah!"

I yelled. She smirked and threw it on the ground before stepping on it. My jaw dropped when she did that like what is she even thinking? I was about to yell at her when she turn around and walk away but she stopped halfway and turn back at me.

"School is having rumours about you getting kick out of this school. Stop doing shit and pull yourself together, bastard."

She said as she left me dumbfounded. I stare at her backview leaving the field in awe. Then I lowered down my head and stare at the cigarette blankly. Her words echoed in my mind. She was really something.

Yoon

"Where did you go?"

Jungkook asked as soon as I entered the rooftop. He was sitting on the ground so I smiled at him before joining him there.

"Toilet. Why? I can't go there anymore?"

He rolled his eyes and shoved me his lunchbox. I smiled cheekily to him and took a sandwich from it before I eat.

"Yoon-ah."

I look at him while munching on the sandwich. He had an unreadable look plastered on his face. Okay, this is getting serious. I've never saw him this serious though.

"Will you date me?"

"I am dating you."

But then he laughed. What the fuck? I smiled at his silliness as he casually lay his head on my exposed thighs as he munch on the sandwich.

"You still remember that scene?"

"Damn, of course. That was the sweetest scene ever."

Yeah, that scene. Last year, we're participating in theater which I was the heroin and he was the hero. The teacher chose us because of the students. Tch. It was a love story though. Good thing there's no kissing scene, or else, my first kiss would be him. Duh.

"Did I made your heart flutter that time?"

I cringed at him and shook my head. He reached out my cheek and pinch it hardly before he laughed. I look up to the sky. My mind were flying away thinking about Yoongi. Well, I just made up that rumour though. He must didn't give any shit about that.

"Yah, what are you thinking?"

I lowered my head to him and smile. Then I look away, placing my palms on the ground behind me and chuckle a little.

"I just remember something funny."

"What is it?"

My smile went wider as I ignored him. But then he sit upright and block the view that I saw staring at with his face.

"Tell me. I wanna laugh too."

He pleaded. I ruffled his hair and smile cheekily. Maybe I shouldn't tell him about Yoongi but we've promised that there's no secrets between us. But, a small secret won't hurt, right? I sighed and look away from him.

"Nothing."

"Yah, are you trying to keep a secret from me?"

I shook my head to him with a slight pout on my lips. He scooted closer to me that our chest slightly touched.

"You better tell me though."

He warned with a serious face. I have the urge to laugh at his face though because it's too cute. His big eyes staring at mine intensely, his small lips a little bit pouting and his big nose. Oh my God, I can't hold it back anymore so I just peck his cheek and laugh. He look like some kind of anime character though.

"I don't want a kiss, idiot."

"Then what do you want?"

"Se..."

"Try to continue that word."

He smiled cheekily at me before he lay down on my lap once again. I chuckled at his perverted mind. At least I had something to laugh at.

"But seriously, Yoon. What are you thinking just now? Is it about Min Yoongi?"

I blankly stare at the clear sky in ease and nod a little. He then stick out his arm and pat my shoulder.

"Stop thinking already. You already have me."

"I'll stop thinking, okay, my dearest Jeon Jungkook?"

He smiled and close his eyes. I played with his hair for awhile until the bell rings.

"5 more minutes. Your thighs is so comfortable."

He shake his head a little as I smile at him. Seeing him being comfortable was just like a baby. I look up to the sky, thinking about Min Yoongi makes my head hurt. I shook my head a little and sighed.

"Yoon-ah."

I look at him. He was just closing his eyes with his lips forming a small smile. His arms were crossed. He looks charming as usual. I smile.

"Yes?"

"I love you."

I chuckled at him and combed his bangs to the side.

"Okay."

I replied. His eyes shot opened in awe to my reply. That makes me giggled at him.

"Yah, you should reply it!"

He exclaimed as he sit upright. Once again, that cute pouty lips. I pinched his cheeks playfully.

"I love you too, lunatic."

He opened his arms widely, expecting a replied hug from me but I just smile and stood up.

"We have class right now. C'mon."

I said as I shoved my hands in my pocket. He look disappointed as he stood up and pat his pants clean before he grabbed his lunch up.

"You should hug me back though."

He mumbles behind me. Aigoo, this bastard never fails to make me feel bad. I turned around and give him a tight hug in his waist which I think it startled him. But then he gladly reply the hug.

"This is what I need right now."

He mutters. I frowned. Why do he sound so sad? Something troubled him? My heart start to feel tingly to know what happened. I look up to him.

"Why?"

"Because I don't know until when are you going to stay with me. Until when will this hug last. Until when will you be my friend. And I'm scared that it'll turn out bad for us. I'm afraid to lose you, Kim."

I sighed. I hate when he's serious. It made me scared and anxious all of sudden. I hate it when he was sad. It made my heart ached. And I hate him sounded sad and depressed because it made me suffocated. I tighten the hug.

"Stop thinking all that. I'll always stay by your side no matter how bad you are, how perverted you are, how bad you're lying to me nor how much you hate me. I won't leave you so please stop saying this kind of shit because I feel like throwing up right now."

I heard him sobbing all of sudden. Eh? Wait, did I said something wrong? I break the hug and look at him. Okay, what happened right now? I think was just too cheesy? Am I?

"Yah, why are you even crying? Are you having some hormonal problem or something?"

He wipes his tears away and chuckle a little before he look at me then lowered down his head back.

"I just feel sorry towards you because I can't be a good friend to you."

"Yeah, you're a bad friend because you keep making me worried about you by letting me watch you cry. You're a bad friend because you didn't leave me while I was involved in an accident. You're bad friend because you told me to date Min Yoongi. You are a bad friend. But despite all that shit, you are always a great friend to me."

I snapped. He gave me a bitter smile as the tears freely flow down on his cheeks as if he was way too sad. Gosh, what even this kid? I sighed heavily.

"Stop crying already. I hate those tears."

I snapped as I scrunch my face to him and walk away. I felt him rushed towards me and hang his arm on my shoulder as usual. I look at him. He was smiling this time as he pull me closer.

"Thanks."

"For what?"

"For making me feel better."

I pinch his stomach playfully that he laughed at me and ruffled my hair. I chuckled.

"You look suck just now."

I said as I continue to walk through the hallway with him. He was leaning to me. I think he's trying to whisper something so I just let him be. The students around there were whisper to each to other when they saw us but I could care less about them. What Jungkook said later was the only thing that made my day.

"I'll be a good friend from now on."

Then he peck my cheek. The students cheer at us as I rolled my eyes before I chuckle at him. We ignored the students and entered the class. My eyes caught the figure of Min Yoongi who was at the same time entering the class from the front door. He saw us being close and stuff but I ignored him. Right now, my focus was the one and only Jungkook. I don't know what happened to him but lately, he's been saying stuff like leaving and friendship break up. My heart always gets anxious whenever he said that.

We sit at our place later then but I could still feel that Yoongi were staring at us when I glance at him. What does he want right now? I don't want to be in any relationship right now. I started to get annoyed by his existence every day since Jungkook told me to date him. But at the same time, I think. He has done nothing wrong. I regret compliment him in front of Jungkook last time.

"Yoon-ah."

I look at Jungkook who was giving me an unreadable look on his face. I hummed in confusion.

"Are you even listening to me?"

He asked. Yeah, my mind was getting distracted by all this kind of shit. I hate it. If only Haera and Yoongi doesn't exist, I think Jungkook won't ever talk about him being a bad friend and stuff that depressing me. I sighed.

"Wanna have some talk?"

He asked. I pursed my lips and nod a little. This is getting complicated. My life is.

"Secret hideout. Let's go."

I nodded as we both stood up. At the same time, the teacher were just entering our class so we quickly made our way out from there. We run to the abandoned class there as fast as we can't. I don't really want to face any disciplinary punishment at this time.

Once we reached there, we catch our breath for a little bit before we decided to settle down on the floor. I leaned on the wall as he sit across me. This is where we always share our deep talks whenever we're in trouble in school. I just love this place.

"Okay, now. Talk. What's bothering you?"

He asked. I sighed heavily before I look at him. I know what I'm going to say would put him in a shock. But he need to know, right? Ugh, what am I even thinking to agree with him to have a deep talks when I was contemplating with myself whether to tell him or not. Great, Kim Yoon! You just made him worried even more.

"Yah, what is it?! What's your problem? What's bothering you?"

He snapped, making me snap out from my thoughts. I sighed as I look at him.

"You."

To Be Continued

I don't know what did I even write. This is what we call, a crap. A bullcrap. Tch.