Jungkook

Never in my life to be this excited to go to the class. And I don't fucking know how the fuck did we got so well that I hugged her ever so tightly and even pick her up from the goddamn ground.

Sorry for the excessive swearing. I'm just too excited to see her. Different but I love it. I didn't know she's this beautiful. That brownish medium-length hair, her face that seem to lose the baby fat and all. I don't know but she look more mature than her age.

And here, me, an ugly duckling. But fuck that. I don't care. I just want to be with her. Not in that way but as a friend.

"Will you stop staring?"

She mutter, looking at me on the side. I flashed a smile and went back to the lesson. Occasionally, I would stare at her and back to the lesson. Back and forth.

I guess I'm just so whipped for her.

Yoon

It was lunch break. I didn't have any appetite to eat anything. It became my habit to not eat anything at all sometimes. Maybe this is why I lost weight.

I lean forward to the railing and look over to the students having their time down there. It's so calming. The weather is nice too. Windy but not too cold. Just nice.

The wind blow through my hair, making it messier than it is but I could care less about it. I'm just enjoying my life right now. It's been awhile that I've been out of the house.

"So, you're here?"

I didn't have to look over to know who it is when obviously it's Jungkook's voice. A smile spread across my lips.

"I miss all this."

"Well, I miss you too."

I turn to him, still smiling. I love it when he smile, showing that bunny teeth. It's so beautiful. He is beautiful.

Just then, I look away from him. Weird but I don't feel uncomfortable. We suddenly got along so well. All of sudden.

"Where have you been?"

If it was 2 months ago, I would avoid that question or just snap out suddenly. But now, it didn't seem to bother me anymore.

"Just somewhere. Calm and contented."

Hyung's room made it into my vision. That was the best place ever. I admit that in those 2 months, I spent it in hyung's room. But now, it has become a guest room and there's nothing more I would want other than that. It's better.

"You know, 2 months wasn't a short time. I tried to find you but couldn't."

"So you gave up?"

I turn back to look at him as he scoot closer to me, staring at the clear sky up there.

"I thought that you hate me so I stopped."

"I wouldn't hug you if I hate you."

I said as I look over the same direction as him. I love the way the wind blow through our hair and somehow just make him look good with messy hair.

"But still, we aren't friends."

He finalized. I just smile at the statement and swipe my hair to the back but still got messed up back.

"Yep."

I reply as I left him alone there. Somehow, I just thought that we really are nothing more than just strangers. Even though we got along well. Maybe everything just needs time.

Descending the stairs, I walk down the hallway. Everyone seem to be pleased that I'm back. Some were shock to see me. Some just praised me.

I do feel different about everything. It feels like I've found myself. Except for I still didn't pull any prank by now. I'll make a plan sooner or later.

*

Just right after school, I went to the art gallery. Gosh, I miss going here so much. I miss the arts. I miss the silence in there and just some faint voices talking about the arts. I miss the atmosphere.

I walk over to the next painting. Just a blue background with some white messy painting but how can I see that as aesthetic? How can I feel calm to see such simplicity?

Somehow, I kinda miss hyung's presence by my side and talk about the art. He love arts so much and so do I.

I swipe my hair to the back and smile at how fast I cope up with the hair. I would cut it off before it even reach my neck. Please note that I dyed my hair brown. Not too dark or too light. Just enough to see that it was brown. And I got my hair layered so yeah, I kinda look different if you wanna know, specifically.

My phone vibrated in my blazer so I take it out and saw a text from dad. A smile crept upon my face.

Dad:
I might be late tonight.
I'm sorry.
You still have the pocket money?
If don't, then I'll come home to leave some.

Dad is this kind of person. Value others more than himself and doesn't even care if it meant to burden himself. Sigh, he shouldn't.

Me:
It's fine.
I still have it.
A lot.
Thanks.

I shove my phone back into my pocket and decide to come home after spending an amount of time in the gallery. I brought some ice cream too while in my way back. Literally living my life the most.

While going back, I thought of something. There's a carnival not so far away from my place tonight. Again, I smile. That'll do it.

I pull out my phone from the pocket to inform dad that I'm going to the carnival. His replies just make me smile even more.

Dad:
You sure you still have money?
I'm just worried.
I'll pick you up after that.
I'm afraid that you don't have any cash for a taxi.

Me:
It's a walking distance.
You don't have to worry about me.
I can handle myself.
Just there for awhile and I'll be home.
Promise.
It won't be long.

After awhile of debating, he finally let me. Finally assured that I'm gonna be fine. How couldn't I? I'm big enough to take care of myself.

Thanks to my height. It makes me look like an adult.

*

That night, it was kinda hot though. Well, it's almost summer. I don't know. I lost the track of time.

So, I was just wearing a crop top which I just bought earlier because it's cute. Damn! My appearance really changed from boyish to a sexy girl. But that's not my intention. It's just my nature. I love it this way.

I tied a sweater around my waist since I'm wearing a short so people won't be staring on my ass. Fuck the perverts though. Tch!

Why would I wear shorts when I know people would stare at my ass? First of all, it's my body. Second of all, I just feel like wearing shorts. Third, shut the fuck up and leave.

I was walking through the entrance when I saw a lot of people laughing and enjoying themselves in there. I smile. This is such a fun thing. The last time I went to a carnival was like 5 years ago. I don't know.

The first thing that caught my attention was the Ferris Wheel. I love Ferris Wheel so much because I can see the view from up there. It's fascinating.

I went to queue for my turn after paying. Good thing it's not that expensive. You can say that everything here is beyond cheap. Suitable for people who are broke enough. Hehe.

I was so excited when I got in the cable. I was sitting alone as the next person wants to be alone too. Good thing, huh.

The night was windy as well but with the combination of the heat here, there's nothing more I want.

I was looking around the carnival while waiting for my cable to get up there. Just then, when I turn my head in front, someone just made my night even more interesting.

It's Jungkook on the next cable, sitting as if he was facing me. He smile like he had planned to see me this way. I don't know but something about him just made everything nice. He made everything interesting and fun. He bring back that smile on my lips.

The wheel suddenly spin a little bit fast causing me to smile even wider because the air up here is pleasing. Maybe because there's not much people here so they just fasten the spin.

I put my arms in the air when it goes down, making my hair all over the place and I know I look effing funny right now. But fuck that shit, because I made Jungkook laugh and had the biggest smile on.

Can the night last?

Because seeing him laugh is the best thing tonight.

It was so sudden but somehow, I find him pleasing. To my eyes and everything.

To Be Continued

What the hell did I just write? This is crap. I was so distracted by the music I'm listening to but I don't wanna turn it off?? Like bruh???

But whatever, I hope you find it good in some way. Haha. Promise you next chapter will be good.