Irene feels her heart stops right after she stares into her own reflection. She is confused *What is he doing? Is he describing me right now? Is it even real* She can feel that something sweet grows so fast inside her heart. She is happy but she is scared and confused. She can't get why he described her *Okay, Joohyun, make your mind, he just describe you as his ideal type, there is no way he confess to you* Irene thought as she calms herself down.

"I'm lucky, I met my ideal type and she lives with me" Luhan chuckles. Irene turns her face to Luhan and observes. 

"I hope this wouldn't bother you Hyunie, I just describe my ideal type, don't missunderstand it" Luhan drinks his wine. He is scared that Irene will avoid him after this talk. He blurted too much.

"Aah, don't worry" Irene replies as she drinks her wine. She can't deny when Luhan said that, she feels dissapointed.

Silence can be heard after that. Both of them busy with their wine. They can feel the awkwardness. Luhan stares at Irene deeply, he really want to end this awkwardness. When Irene feels the stare, she can't help but to turn her face. Right after their eyes meet, they throw their face away. Irene puts the glass wine on the table and stands up. Luhan's eyes follow her figure.

"Where are you going?" Luhan asks.

"Toilet, I will be back" Irene smiles and leaves Luhan. She thinks that's the best thing to do in this situation.

***

Irene walks through the corridor from the toilet slowly, she tries to kill the time. She curses on herself because she can't control the reds on her cheeks. She cups her face as she walks lazily. Suddenly she bumps into someone. She falls to the floor and starts whining. 

"Joohyun" Irene's eyes widen when she heard a sexy husky voice of her ex. She lifts her face and she welcomed by the sexy smirk of Song Minho. She hurriedly stands up and bows.

"I'm sorry" She says before walk fast passing Minho. She can't calm her heart because she remembers all he done to her life. Just bad things come along with him.

"Joohyun, I thought you die" Minho's words stop Irene from leaving. She turns her body to face him but to her surprises, Minho already behind her. Gasp leaves her lips when Minho pins her on the wall.

"But you are here, health and pretty" Minho leans closer. 

"Song Minho, let me go" Irene pushes him away but Minho didn't move even an inch.

"Why I have to? I'm happy to see you right now" Minho smirks to Irene. He loves it when Irene looks scared of how intimate they are.

"I miss you a lot" Minho whispers to her ear, giving shiver to all over her body.

"What happened to TvB? I know that sly man take it all from you, how can you eat at a place like this when you have nothing?" Minho keeps asking her questions but nothing comes out from her lips.

"Let me go" Irene's voice is shaking, makes Minho chuckles.

"Oh, you are still cute Joohyun, it makes me wonder if you are still sexy on the bed" Minho smirks and kiss Irene's nape. She bulges her eyes and tries to push him away.

"Hel----" She is about to yell but her words cut by Minho's lips. She is scared to the hell.

***

Luhan wonders what takes Irene so long in toilet. He takes the last sip of his wine and stands up. He pays for their dinner before walks to the toilet. His step stops when he sees this girls that he always protect was force into kiss. His anger burns. He clenches his fist and walks fastly. He grabs Minho's neck and pull him away from Irene. 

"Who are you?!" Luhan yells as he pushes Minho to the other side of the wall.

"Who are you?!" Minho asks back. 

"I'm her boyfriend, stay away from her!" Luhan points her finger to Minho. Minho just stares at him blankly.

"I'll kill you if you land your dirty fingers on her!" Luhan growls and pushes him away. Luhan rushes to Irene and cups her face.

"Gwaenchana? Did he hurt you Hyunie?" Panic and worry mix into one single feeling of Luhan. Irene slightly shakes her head and hugs Luhan's waist. She doesn't know why but she feels like she is betraying Luhan.

"Ssst, gwaenchana, I'm here" Luhan hugs her back and pats her back. Minho watches all this scene with a strange feeling. He is jealous.

"Can we leave?" Irene whispers. Luhan just put his arm around Irene's shoulder and pulls her closer. He pulls her even closer when they walk pass Minho. He feels so protective about her.

***

Luhan brings Irene to Han river because he knew that Irene not in a good mood. Maybe fresh air will change her mood. They sit on the side of the river without talking. It's really late in the night, noone here. Irene's body is shaking when the wind blows. Luhan who saw it, takes off his blazer. He puts it on Irene's shoulder. Irene turns her face to Luhan and gives him a slight smile.

"Hyunie" Luhan starts the conversation as he holds Irene's hand.

"Mind if you tell me about what happened in the restaurant?" He continues. He anticipates every possible reaction of Irene but Irene just sigh.

"That man is Song Minho" Irene starts.

"You know him?" Luhan bulges his eyes when Irene nods to him.

"He is my ex" Irene mutters but Luhan still can hear that one.

"You can't imagine how terrible my past is" Irene turns her face to Luhan. Their eyes meet. Luhan can see sadness on Irene's eyes.

"You can tell me everything Hyunie, I won't judge you" Luhan smiles to Irene. Deep inside his heart, he really wants to know her past. Even it will hurt him.

"Can I trust you?" Irene asks. Luhan caress her hand and nods. Irene feels so comfortable with him. She wants him to know her past eventhough she is nothing on his life.

"He is my first boyfriend and I thought he is my first love that time" Irene stares blankly to Han river.

"I always thought that he is my first love and I'm his first love that time because he always mentioned it. But then one day he forced me to have sex. I never wanted that because I'm scared. He forced me and he deflowered me" Irene closes her eyes when that nightmare comes into her mind. She really wants to cry. Luhan in the other hand just stares blankly at Irene. He feels so angry and mad right now *If only I met her before that Song Minho, she will be alright*

"I even carried his baby for 3 months before he forced me to abort the baby, I did sin. I can't even sleep for months after aborted the baby. And that Song Minho got his new girlfriend" Irene cries and buries her face on her knees. She will always remember about the innocent baby. 

"That time I realized, Song Minho just wants my body, not my heart. I feel so mad at him. Not because he has that new girlfriend but because he forced me to kill a little baby. Since that time, I have trust issue. I never date a boy again" Luhan is speechless right now. He can't move his body as well. All this reality slaps him. Irene suffers too much because of that bastard.

"Hyunie" Luhan pulls her into his embrace.

"I feel sorry for that baby too, but I'm sure your baby will understand" Luhan comforts Irene.

"All this time I keep this secret alone, it hurts me so bad, but now I shared it with you, I feel so relief eventhough I can still feel the pain" Irene cries out. Luhan froze on his place when he knew he is the first person who knows about her past.

"I really scared when I met him there. He touched me. He kissed me. The nightmare came to me again" Irene can't control her sentiment. Luhan feels his heart in pain. He wants to kill that Minho. He can feel how scared she is and he guilts because he lets Irene feel scared.

"I'm sorry, that's my fault" Luhan's words stop Irene from crying. She lifts her face and stares at Luhan's face.

"If I was there before, you wouldn't have to face your nightmare alone, mianhae" Luhan whispers softly as his thumb wipes away her tears.

"You did a good job Hyunie, you survive until this day with nightmares, I'm proud of you" Luhan smiles to her. He knows how to deal with this kind of situation. 

"Everyone did sin, don't worry, I did sin too" Luhan is never failed to make Irene comfortable and forget about the sadness.

"You wouldn't leave me because of my past right?" Irene asks him with a weak voice. Luhan shakes his head and smiles.

"I will never leave you, maybe your past was terrible but I'll make sure you have no nightmare in the future" Irene's heart flutters because of the sweetness from Luhan's lips. She gives him a smile. She knows, she can lean on him. He didn't judge her past.

***

Night is getting deeper but they are still there. Irene rests her head on Luhan's shoulder as she listens to his story. It's his turn to tell her about his past. He never let go of Irene's hand. He feels protective towards her after he knew about her past. Irene is not that strong. She is weak and she is too fragile. It makes him want to protect her.

"You know that Gayoon right?" Luhan asks and Irene nods.

"I never date a girl because of her. My mom keeps forcing me to date her but I never want it. I chose to be single forever than to date her" Luhan frowns to Irene cutely. It makes her chuckle.

"I left home right after my company become the biggest one. I thought I will free but that's just my dream. Gayoon keeps chasing me" He frowns again.

"Why don't you try it with her?" Irene asks, full of curiousity.

"She is fake, everything on her fake. I don't like fake people" Irene smiles when she heard his explanation. She feels so relief to hear that.

"What if I was a fake people too?" Irene asks as her eyes make an eyecontact with Luhan's. Luhan looks deep into her eyes and leans closer.

"Someday when someone tell me you are a fake, I will never believe it. I believe you are not fake, you are who you are. You are pure Hyunie" He whispers the last 4 words and smiles. Irene smiles back to him as she feels Luhan pulls her closer. Luhan's arm around her waist while the other one caress her cheek.

"You know what, you are so beautiful" Luhan says that before he kiss Irene's lips softly. He moves his lips slowly on Irene's lips as his hand moves to Irene's nape. This kiss is different. Both of them can feel the difference. They start to close their eyes, try to feel each other sweet lips. The kiss is tender. The kiss is gentle. The kiss become deeper as Luhan pulls her even closer. Irene moves her hands on Luhan's chest before hugs his neck. They feel love and sincere but they deny the feelings, try to protect their own heart from the thought of one sided love.

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