Victoria POV

Looking at peacefully sleeping and already safe Jin, I could finally breathe easier.

When Kaya run in to my room, shouting to dressed up quickly, because Jin is in the hospital, my heart stopped for a moment. When we arrived to the hospital, Jackson told us everything, I knew it was my fault. I brought him to this state. I did not think that he is doing so bad. I do not understand why he decided to finish himself. I felt tears in eyes. I thought that I already cried away all tears because of him. I wanted to take him by the hand, touch his cheek, brush away the hair from his forehead. But I felt that I did not have the strength to let go of his hand or pull away the hand from his delicate face.

I sat with my head down, with a tangle of thoughts and listened to soothing, rhythmic cardio-monitor beeps.

- Victoria? - I heard a quiet voice of Jin. I looked up at him. - Viki, that's really you?

He held out his hand to me. After a moment of hesitation, I took it. The strength which Jin caught it almost crushed my fingers, but I didn't complain. I knew that he needs it. I wanted to do for him at least that much.

- It's really you. - He repeated already confident and smiled. - Why are you crying?

I did not even felt teardrops. I wiped the tears with free hand.

- Jin, I'm sorry. Why did you do something so horrible?

- I do not understand. What I did? - He looked at me confused, and after a while he began to look around. - Why am I in hospital?

- I understand that it is hard for you, but you should think about your loved ones. You can not behave selfishly.

- Viki, I have no idea what you're talking about.

- Jin, you woke up finally. I commandeer you all medications out of the room. You never will do such things.

Jackson came into the room and threw himself on the Jin's neck who barely sat down.

- Is someone finally explain to me what happened?

- Jin, you do not have to pretend to be tough in front of me. I know how hard it's for you, but finishing with yourself isn't the solution.

- Finishing with yourself? - He repeated and stared into space - But I ...

- Our sleeping beauty woke up. - The doctor said, standing by the Jin's bed.

Jackson and I got up from our seats and stood together on the right side of Jin.

- Good morning, sir.

- Good morning. Did you sleep well?

- Extremely well. I have not slept all night from the long time.

- So you take this damn drugs? - Jackson fired.

The doctor looked at him questioningly.

- Everything is well with him, right? - I asked.

- Yes. He is a little weak and tired, but otherwise is all right. And above all, toxicological studies have shown that your friend didn't ingested excessive amounts of drugs.

- I told you. - Jin said with emphasis.

- How is it? - We said at the same time with Jackson.

- I ... I could not wake you ... tablets were on the table ... - stammered Jackson.

- From what I know, Mr. Kim did not sleep the best for a few days, so fatigue prevailed, and tablets only strengthened the results. You'll be able to go out today. - The doctor said and went out.

We sat with Jackson with relief on our previous site. We had to have strange faces, because Jin asked us:

- Do you feel well? Maybe now you need treatment.

The next moment he began to laugh. I also smiled slightly. I felt that now all would be better.

- Jackson, may you leave us. I would like to talk to the Viki.

- Sure, I'm going. - he winked to Jin and left.

- Viki - Jin settled back on the bed - I'm glad to see you. I missed you so much. Now everything will work out between us, right?

- Jin, I'm glad you're all right. I felt guilty. I thought it was because of me why you decided to commit sui...

- No! - He interrupted me - It was hard, but I didn't even thought of such a thing for a moment. I do not lose hope that we will be together again.

- Jin, we can be friends, you can always count on me, but we will not be together anymore. We won't in relationship. - The last sentence I said very quietly.

- Viki, please do not say that.

Before I could answer, my phone rang. It lay on the table beside the hospital's bed, so Jin could easily see a photo and name of CHARLES on the display. I took a cell from the top quickly. I looked at Jin. His smile disappeared and face hardened. The phone stopped ringing.

- Why can not we be together? Because of him? - He said through clenched teeth.

- Jin, it is not like...

We heard my cell phone ring tone again.

- Do not worry about me and answer. When you will going out call Jackson to me, please.

- Jin ...

- Get out, please.

It hurt me when he turned his back on me. I gathered my things and left. I wanted to reject the call, but I needed someone to talk now and Charles is a good listener.

- Hello. - I said in a pained voice.

- Victoria, are you okay? You do not sound well.

- Nothing is fine...

- Let's meet. I'll be right there, where you are.

Jin POV

It hurts damn so much! I feel like Viki leaving took a piece of my soul with her. Tears fell down by my cheeks. I do not wiped them, there was no point. I curled up in the 'ball' on the small hospital bed. A passing nurse asked whether I feel bad. You couldn't cure this pain.

I heard Jackson with a loud sigh sits on a stool occupied previously by my ex. I hate this statement.

- Jackson ... - I started - take me home now. Please.- I almost begged.

I don't want to be in the hospital, I still do not like them. The memories of the accident and everything else with it related do not help on my depressive state.

- Sure. I'll get discharge papers immediately. – he went out.

He come back after some 10 minutes with a nurse, who detached my drip.

We returned to the apartment by car of Maciek. Everyone was silent. I did not want to talk, and the guys respected it. When we were already at home, I locked myself in my room and plunged in a sad, nostalgic thoughts. After few minutes silence was interrupted by the email notification sound. I reached for telephone, which was lying on the ground next to the bed. I was prepared for some email spam. I can describe my surprise, when I saw a message from the CEO of BigHit Ent. How is it possible that the label director wrote to me himself? With a trembling finger I clicked on the message.

"Good morning, Jin-ssi!

I do not even know where to start. I do not want my message was too official, after all I treat you like my own son. It hurts me a lot, what happened to you. I also have a pangs of conscience that you had to leave the band and the country. I am angry at myself, that I did not fight more of you and let it happened. Forgive me also for that I have not contacted with you all this time. I wanted to give you the time to recover after this accident.

I talked with the boys, when they returned from the tour in Europe. They handed me the good news. You can not imagine how happy I am that you feel all better. However boys did a great job by this year, the team without you is not the same. Someone is still missing.

I think Jin-ah, it's time to end this forced vacation and come back to the team. We need you here. I do not know whether to ask or to beg you to return, or whether to use the authority of the CEO and command you.

Jin-ah, please come back. It will be better for all of us. We're waiting for you.

Sincerely, CEO BigHit Ent."

I read this message three times before I understoodits meaning. I can return to the team? CEO himself wants it? And I thought I couldn'treturn to the BTS. This time I had not any contradictory feelings. I wanted togo back! Nothing (and no one!) can not stop me here. If I could I would like topack already suitcase and boarded a plane. But I had to think rationally. Istarted to arrange everything in my head. First I have to complete and pass ayear at the university, so two years were not in vain. Then book ticket, and atthe end pack. About transport to the airport I think closer to date of fight. Thinking about what I have to do before I leave and what I will be doing that in Korea,I did not notice when I fell asleep. And again, dreamed peaceful dreams.t