NIRUPAMA

(Some Secrets May Better Remain Secrets Forever)

'I cannot bear this', 'I want to pluck my eyes out' only these two sentences were the clues which the late girl Nirupama left in writing one on a wall and one in a book quite unintentionally and involuntarily to know about the reason for her committing suicide. Her father Ranganath, detective Smaran and his niece Menaka along with Nirupama's friend Sukanya pretty well understood that Nirupama did not want the said secret to be known to anyone else. But since her father Ranganath hell bent upon knowing about the said secret, detective Smaran and his niece Menaka ruthlessly investigated the matter only to unearth the said ghastly, shocking and astounding secret which the dead girl terribly wished to keep only with her in her grave forever.

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"Alright. What is wrong with it then?" taking that book into his hand Smaran asked him.

"Just open that book at the folded page Sir." Sudarshan said to Smaran and Smaran just did that.

"Can you find something written with some black pen on the top of the page on the left side?"

"Yes" Smaran said.

"Can you read what that has been written there?"

"Hundred percent. 'It has been written 'I want to pluck my eyes out.'" Puzzling in himself for that Smaran said.

"There is no doubt to me at all. It is the handwriting of Nirupama."

"You are damn sure about this? Is there no possibility at all that someone else might have written this?" Smaran frowned.

"Not at all. It has been written only by Nirupama. I have seen her hand writing many a time. She used to write on the books and I scolded her not to do like that. I do well know her handwriting. There is no doubt at all."

"I want to pluck my eyes out'. Why did she want to pluck her eyes out?" the frown on Smaran's face was even more deepened.

"That is what I too cannot understand. Why anyone on earth want to pluck his or her eyes out?"

"She left another puzzle to us to solve." Smaran said.

"Or is she indicating something to us?" Sudarshan asked.

"She is not indicating anything. She does not want anything to be found out about the reason of her suicide. It is something quite unintentional work by her. She had written this also quite involuntarily as she had written that thing on the wall."

"What she had written?"

Then Smaran explained to him what had been found in Sukanya's bedroom.

"There is no doubt now that she was suffering with something and that compelled her to commit suicide."

"We have come to that conclusion even before finding her handwriting like that on the wall" Smaran said.

"Is it is so." Librarian nodded his head. "Anyhow is this going to solve the riddle now?" indicating the book with his index finger Sudarshan asked him

"I am not sure." Smaran said. "But we have got something more and we need to work with it carefully"

"If you don't mind, may I take this book with me?" showing that book to Sudarshan, Smaran asked him after pausing few seconds.

"It is the library property. It should not be given like that to anyone." Sudarshan said and laughed in the end. "But I know what you are doing and for which you are asking that book. Take it. I can manage."

Smaran left the library with the book in his hand.

***

"Ever your daughter suffered with her eyes?" Smaran asked Ranganath who sat quite opposite to him.

As soon as he went to the office, Smaran called Ranganath to come to his office.

"I just cannot understand what you are talking." Ranganath confusingly said.

"I do ask it in a different way." Smaran said. "Ever your daughter suffered with any eye disease etc."

"No. She never suffered with any eye disease. She need not wear even eye glasses. She has got perfect and beautiful eyes." Ranganath said. He was still in confusion.

"Look at this." Smaran opened that particular page in that book and shown the writing on the top of the left page.

" 'I want to pluck my eyes out.' Rnganath read that out.

"Is it is your daughter's handwriting?" Smaran asked him.

Ranganath observed that for sometime without talking anything. Then he said "Yes, it is my daughter's handwriting."

"Can you say why your daughter has written it like that there?"

Ranganath slowly put that book down on the table in the middle of them. "No I cannot" he said. "Why she left writings like that? Did she want to say something so?" he said again.

"No. she did not want to say anything by writing like that. Whatever had been written on that wall and in this book also were quite unintentional and involuntary." Smaran said

"What made her written like that?"

"In fact she did not want to say anything to anyone. But something inside her, might be the suffering, her helplessness made her wrote like that. Some uncontrollable, involuntary and unintentional expressions." Smaran said

"Anyhow I cannot say why she had written it like that. She is my daughter. But now she is appearing completely alien and a foreigner." Nodding his head helplessly Ranganath said. "I just cannot understand the writing on that wall and this thing also." Smaran told him and has shown him in his cell phone the writing on the wall of Sukanya.

"Don't bother about it much." Leaning back in the chair Smaran said. "Forget all this and relax yourself. I shall soon unearth what made your daughter to commit suicide."

"Are you really thinking that I can relax now? Can I relax at anytime in my future? I am tensed, worried and fully anxious. No relaxation or happiness to me Mr.Smaran. My daughter committed suicide and got her death. I am just waiting for it in a natural way but with speed." His voice was with full of sorrow.

"Mr.Ranganath, please don't talk like that. I say that this misfortune should not have happened in your life at all but it had happened and cannot be undone. We have to make terms with our lives and go on with our living. There is no other way at all."

Ranganath did not say anything but remained looking into the face of Smaran.

"You are thinking that there are no sad incidents in my life Mr.Ranganath. I am also not free of this type of incidents. My wife died in an accident while she was three months pregnant."

Suddenly there was change in the face of Ranganath. "Oh! I am very sorry. You said about this before."

"Its alright. I accepted the truth and I have made terms with my life. We have to do it like that. There is no other way at all."

"Have you married again?" Ranganath asked him.

"No I did not" Smaran said to him.

"Why you did not? You have understood the truth and made terms with your life."

"Of course I am. But I could not marry again. I cannot say why but I could not think to marry again."

"I can say why Mr.Smaran. You have loved your late wife that much. She is in your heart completely. You just cannot give place to anyone else in it."

"May be you are right." Smaran capitulated.

"We never can come terms with our lives with respect to somethings Mr.Smaran. We never can accept the truth about them either. We just have to live our whole lives like this."

Smaran remained silent. He did not know what to say.

"I am going now. I do hope you would unearth the truth out as fast as possible." Then Ranganath moved away from that place.

***

"It is also completely your imagination. Why you are imagining like this time and again?" looking straight at Menaka, Smaran asked her after Menaka explained to him about her experience in Nirupama's room.

"No, it was not my imagination at all. I can see the difference between imagination and reality. I felt her breathing on my neck. I heard her words. I am not a child to imagine." Menaka angrily said.

"So in your opinion Nirupama is really in that room now."

Menaka did not say anything but breathed deeply and hissed out.

"I want to know what you are thinking. Is it your opinion that Nirupama is in that room?"

"May be or may not be. I cannot say it for sure."

"Then how do you say it was not your imagination?"

"Oh, you don't leave anyone easily. Alright it was my imagination. But it was so real to me."

"This not first time that you imagined so and we already discussed. There is no surprise if you feel like that in that room. That girl committed suicide in that very room. I make the same suggestion again. If you don't want to stay in that house you need not stay in it at all. Come out of it. You will be given another room in that house and you can go to your home also."

"No uncle. It is not so." Menaka smiled and said. "I say the same thing what I said then. Even I feel fear, I do stay in that house, in that very room until we know that secret. You quite often say that we have to disregard our negative feelings and emotions."

"That's the spirit!" Smaran smiled and said "Alright then."

"Tell me now. What that new thing you have found out."

"No telling. I do show this to you." He opened the book where Nirupama wrote that and showed it to Menaka.

Menaka took that book into her hands and looked at the writing carefully. " 'I want to pluck my eyes out'. Why the hell she wanted to pluck her eyes out?"

"Another puzzle to us to solve." Smaran laughed.

"My God!" Menaka nodded her head helplessly. "We did not come even half way through our first puzzle and another one came up like this."

"It is part of our assignment." Smaran got up from the chair and said. "I think if we can find the answer to this, we can find the answer to her first writing and to our main assignment also."

"But how can we know why she wanted to pluck her eyes out?" Menaka irritatingly said.

"We shall see. We do try to know about that." Smaran said. "Anyhow we shall come to the square one. What that might be compelled her to commit suicide?"

Menaka laughed. "We have thought about that a hundred times before. We could not know the answer."

"Just try to guess. What that makes some girl keep something not to let her parents, friends to know about. What matter that can be?"

Menaka remembered her discussion with Sukanya on the first day she met her. "A rape or gang-rape. Are not they enough to make a girl deeply depressed and commit suiside?"

"I agree. Those atrocities are something to make a girl deeply depressed and commit suiside. But....." he paused for a moment before saying again. ".........as per all the people reports, Nirupama is not appearing like a girl to commit suicide for that. Of course, she also sure would be depressed to the maximum if such a thing happens on her but would not commit suicide. She tries to get those criminals punishment before doing anything like that."

"Sukanya also expressed similar opinion when I said it like this to her." Menaka laughed.

"What other type of things you don't want your mother to know, you don't want me to know, yout don't want your friends to know. Just make a wild guess and tell me."

"Oh!...." Menaka said and heavily hissed out. "What type of things....indeed difficult to assume or guess when I don't have even one atleast like that.....If am in live with someone..........."

"What is the necessity to conceal it so? In the beginning it may be. But sooner or later you do tell about it to your mother. Because it is your mother who has to perform your marriage. And certainly....." he sighed heavily ".....it is not something to make a girl to commit suiside."

"Of course. You are right." Menaka nodded her head. "If I lose my virginity at will. It is immoral to share the body with anyone else before marriage, is it is not?" Menaka's cheeks blushed while saying that.

"You did it at your will. Even it creates some guilty feeling in you, don't compel you to commit suiside. "

Smaran was about to ask something but then Sukanya came there. Menaka's face was indeed brightened as soon as she saw her there. "How wonderful it is, that you came here in this way?" Menaka went near to her and hugged her.

(..........to be continued)

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