Saihara's POV

My eyes suddenly shot open when Kokichi started shaking uncontrollably. I sat up and tried to shake him awake to no avail. Kokichi what is happening? I pulled him close to me and rubbed his back. While he was in my arms he leaned into me and started to whimper.

Saihara-chan please don't leave me

I don't want to be alone again

I love you

Please

Please

Please

Don't leave me

I know I don't deserve this

But I will try to give you everything I can

I will try my best to be able to make sure you're ok

Don't worry about me

Please don't leave me

I know that these happen more often than not, but I wish I could do something. I would do anything to help him. What can I do to make his pain go away? I could feel tears starting to fall down my face and dropping onto his head. I only held him closer and started softly whispering reassurances into his ear.

It's going to be ok

Kokichi I love you

I'm here for you

I'm not going anywhere

It's ok now

I'm right here

I love you so much

You are never going to be alone.

I was trying to calm down so I could calm him down. My tears lessened and my voice wasn't cut off by hiccups and sobs. I held his head into my chest as his shaking increased. I could feel my anxiety skyrocket.

What will I do?

Kokichi's POV

They all hate you

You are a waste of anyone's time

They will never care about you

It's not true!

But Shuichi is different!

You think he cares about you

He is NO DIFFERENT THAN THE REST OF THEM

More sobs and screams burst through my throat hoping that the noise would just stop. I didn't want to hear this anymore. I know it's true but it still hurts. I don't want to do this anymore. Shuichi I'm sorry-

It's going to be ok

Saihara-chan? I looked around desperately looking for the source of the voice.

Kokichi I love you

I'm here for you

I'm not going anywhere

I could feel tears of joy fall down my face.

He loves me and he cares about me.

I'm loved.

I'm cared for.

I'm important to someone.

Saihara-chan loves and cares about me.

It's ok now

I'm right here

I love you so much

You are never going to be alone.

I faced the source of the voice that has been tormenting me for so long. I looked into the void and shouted,

"I AM LOVED"

"SAIHARA-CHAN CARES ABOUT ME"

"AND I CARE ABOUT HIM"

"WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN SAYING IS ALL WRONG"

"SO WHY DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE!!"

After I screamed the darkness cracked and a light shone through. I let the light consume me and closed my eyes. I saw the face of the person behind all my torment. myself.

I screamed and sobbed eyes shut tight. I don't want this. Why can't he just leave me alone?!

"Kokichi! I love you so so much." I could feel arms around me but was so on edge I was too afraid to open my eyes.

"Kokichi, it's ok I'm here now." I slowly opened my eyes to see his face. I felt tears coming to my eyes and tackled him into a hug.

"Sai hic hara hic chan!" I tried to say through my sobs.

"You don't have to say anything. I'm just happy you're ok. I love you don't forget that. I would never think of leaving you." When he said this I wondered if I said anything while I was with him. I pushed that thought aside trying to concentrate on calming myself down.

My breathing started to slow down as Saihara was tracing circles on my back and massaging my shoulders and upper back causing me to shudder. I felt my eyes close again partially from exhaustion and partially from the relaxing feeling of Saihara next to me. I opened my eyes again and looked up at Saihara not wanting to move from being too comfortable and being limp against his gentle touch.

"Saihara-chan?" I asked not liking how hoarse my voice sounded from all the screaming and sobbing.

"Yeah, Kokichi?" He responded looking down at me without stopping the calming patterns he was tracing on my back causing me to shudder again.

"Thank you," I said before leaning into his touch and nuzzling into his chest wanting all the affection I could get after something like that.

"You're welcome? but for what Kokichi?" He asked caressing my cheek causing me to hum in response.

"Because..." I paused moving farther up his chest.

"You have to deal with all of the problems that I bring to you... When you already have so much to deal with..." I said putting my head into his chest so he didn't see the tear that rolled down my cheek.

"Kokichi." He said with a small chuckle. Why is he laughing?

"I would never see anything you bring to me as a problem Kokichi." He said with another laugh that I could feel from being so close to him. It caused me to smile from how cute his laugh sounded. I always liked his voice, but being this close to him I get to hear so many more beautiful sounds that he can make. Every laugh. Every word. They all make me smile. I love knowing that he can be with me and still be able to smile and laugh.

"If making me happy is a problem then you are the biggest problem I have ever faced. But Kokichi I would never consider being with you as a problem and something that I would avoid. If anything I would spend more time around you because you make me happy Kokichi." I could tell he was smiling even though I couldn't see his face.

I smiled.

He likes being around me.

"Thank you Saihara-chan," I said pulling him into a quick kiss before I blushed and put my face back into his chest.

"Of course Kokichi." He said looking back over at the screen noticing that the movie had started to replay. We sat there in silence just enjoying the presence of each other. I turned around and put my back toward his torso with a content sigh. His arms moved around my chest and he rested his head in my hair.

I'm glad I decided to watch a movie with you, Saihara-chan.

-Another part is done! I'm going to try to update Nightmares or my one-shots book at least once a day. I will try to update more, but I do have a test on Friday so no promises... Thanks for your patience! Thanks for reading!-

-ShuichiOuma010-