March 25 2021

My dad won't stop yelling and screaming at my sister and I

It happened for about 6 months and it stopped and I was finally calm for the rest of the year but now it's back

please stop please stop please stop

I can't take it anymore

I fear my dad more than anything despite the fact I'm way closer with him than my mom

He's scary

He's the reason why my mental health is getting worse and my mom is a cause of it too

Everytime I'm around him my anxiety tics go haywire and I have to claw at my arm for me to stop

I was once comfortable in my home somewhat but then I wasn't and the cycle keeps repeating and repeating and repeating.

I haven't been eating much either

Everything is so scary get me out of this hellhole. I'm actually looking forward to going to school to take that damn test.

I want to stay there for the rest of the day. Even if my anxiety will worsen I will have the ability to escape and be free.

I swear if I ever got kidnapped mf gonna develope stockholm syndrome

He makes me want to cut

Cut cut cut cut cut is all I think of

Make these thoughts stop