Warning: self harm mentioned in chapter, there will be a * marker at beginning and end if you would like to skip it.

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It's been about two months since i got dumped into this godforsaken hospital.

Denki, big sis Kyoka, and Toshi-chan had already gone back to school a little over a month ago. They still visit sometimes, but it's only once a week usually.

U.A. put in a dorm system since one of Denki's friends got kidnapped, and they all need special permission slips to leave school grounds. Denki and big sis kyoka said that their class needs an extra slip so that they can leave, since a group of villains usually end up targeting someone in their class.

So usually i get to see Toshi-chan two or three times a week, depending on how busy he is. When he dose visit he facetimes Denki and big sis so i can still talk to them.

I've seen a few of his classmates through the calls though. They mostly just barge into his room and snatch up his phone, trying to talk to me.

The first few times it happened i got really scared that there were a lot of loud noises, so i hid behind the blanket the hospital provided while Toshi-chan made it look like it was just him that Denki was talking to.

I don't exactly know why he didn't want his friends to know about me, but i didn't really mind all that much. They seemed really loud, especially the blond one, and the pink one. I think the pink one is called Mina Ashido, and the blonde one is the one who got kidnapped.

I don't really remember his or the rest of the names though.

There was one time where denki was in what he liked to call 'the meeting of the emos'. He said it was a bunch of people dressed in black, who like rock music.

Toshi-chan had called him during a meeting, and we talked for a while, it happened to be himself, big sis kyoka, and a guy who had a bird head.

I'm pretty sure his name was Toko, although i don't remember.

Anyways, that brings us to today, the nurses had helped me pack up my things an hour ago, and i was just waiting for Mama to come pick me up from this white colored pit of boredom.

She was supposed to bring me to U.A. so i could start living there as per the agreement she made with Nezu.

In all honesty i didn't really want to go.

It was a new place, full of loud people, and even though Denki promised he would be with me as much as possible, it was still not all the time.

Since it would be unfair to other students, it was decided that i would just live with Denki's class in the dorms. I would be attending different classes since i was very behind on all core subjects, and i would have a weekly assessment test to see if something had changed in regards to my quirk. Also free therapy.

Yay! I'm bursting at the seems from excitement! Not.

I sighed to myself dreading the moment i would be driven out of this hell, right into another one.

The door opened slowly, Mama was there smiling at me. I gave her a quick small smile as she helped me change into different clothes, before placing me in the dreaded wheelchair.

From there the moment the door was locked behind me, it all really started to sink in.

I waved goodbye to some of the regular nurses and doctors.

I'd be meeting new people.

I watched as the few kids who were normally louder when playing with each other, ran around playing tag.

There would be different noises i wasn't used to.

Mama kept describing different places we could go together, and all the fun places i could go with people from the school.

New places i didn't know.

As Mama opened the door to the front of the hospital, into the outside world, it all finally clicked.

I was doomed.

⚡Time skip brought to you by Yuki's anxiety ⚡

We had been driving for over an hour, and the music blasting from the car was a nice distraction from everything going on around me at the moment.

I will say that in the 8 years i had aperantly missed not much had changed.

Although some of the buildings had gotten taller, and a few cool places had been built, but other than that, nothing had really changed.

Mama had filled me in on some of her latest stories she would be working on for the next while, it was mostly just hero gossip. It all sounded boring.

Mama was a news reporter, she would usually do smaller stories, but occasionally she would get some big story that would skyrocket her for a while.

That's how it was when i was younger at least. Now she had gotten a big promotion three years ago, and would go out on the field and into live hero battles.

She said she also writes articles sometimes about hero world gossip.

I was brought out of my day dream when the GPS beeped that we had arrived at the school.

I was really nervous. Mama wheeled my chair over to the open car door, before going to the trunk to get the rest of my things i would need. Most of my things had already been brought to the school, which Denki was supposed to set up for me.

The things Mama was getting were stuff from the hospital i wanted to take with me. The rest would be left at the house.

Using my quirk i lifted myself into the wheelchair, and wheeled myself towards  Mama after closing the door.

While Mama locked the car, she rambled about how exited she was for me. We both made our way onto the school grounds, and towards the area with all the dorms.

Once we reached the overly large doors of the dormhouse, I used the key card i was given to enter the dormhouse.

First impressions? Way too fucking big.

Mama liked how big it was...i think.

We both navigated our way to the elevators, and up to the third floor. We got mixed up with Denki's room for a small while, before realizing mine was the room across from his, next to big sis Kyoka's room.

Mama insisted that she helped me organize the few bits that she was carrying of my room, although pretending she doesn't know sign language, just so she could pretend i wasn't telling her i could do it myself, was a low blow. Also very annoying since she rearranged some things that were perfectly fine the way they were.

After 2 hours, she finally left. Not before suffocating her "favorite little flower bud" in hugs that I'm pretty sure opened some of the not fully healed stitches.

Closing the oversized doors behind her i let out a heavy sigh, making my way back to my room.

Mama's still annoying. Great.

My reasons for not liking her are a story for another time.

Right now it's room organization time!

⚡Time skip brought to you by Izuku sensing that a new section of his notebook will be filled⚡

I looked up at the clock, it was now 4:15pm meaning that some of the students should have already come back to the dorms.

Damn, i should have gotten food beforehand, i didn't get to eat at the hospital, and i was too busy with my room when i got here. Stupid idiot.

I could always go downstairs and get some food now, but it would be noisy. People would also ask questions as to why a person in a wheelchair, who looked like Denki was in their dormhouse.

Even if Denki was with them, he would probably not be able to stop them from interogaiting me.

I could always turn invisible, but i forgot all my stamina bars in the car, and i was too drained to use my quirk for as long as it took to make food. Also, don't know if they believe in ghosts or not.

I sighed loudly in defeat.

I was a useless idiot, who was half mute, and still stuck having to use a stupid wheelchair cause i skipped out of physical therapy.

Idiot.

Stupid idiot.

I can't even take care of myself.

I sat up, looking at my arm. There was an old scar there, it was long and thick. I had received it when I was forced to fight my first bird person.

*

I watched as the old scar opened and closed itself, over and over again, dark red liquid pooling at the edges before being enclosed again by the scared skin.

*

I don't know why, but doing this would always calm me down. If i was too stressed, if i was too angry, if i was too sad, doing this would always help. It would make everything around me shut up.

I hadn't done it in a long while, not since i was brought to the hospital.

I was startled out of my thoughts when there was a loud knocking heard on my door. Closing up the scar, i slowly made my way to the door using the crutches i had been given.

I opened my door a crack to see who was there, to my surprise i saw big sis Kyoka standing there.

I opened the door fully, yet as i was about to go to hug big sis, i was thrown to the floor by a heavy pink blob.

My head hit the ground super hard, and was pounding badly. I was definitely making the entire class pay for this.

I tried opening my eyes, but someone had turned on the previously shut off light, blinding me. I should really put a fingerprint lock on that thing, it's honestly a safety hazard.

There were lots of people going into the room and talking loudly, and all the same time. It was getting hard focusing on one voice, there were so many people.

Why are there so many people here?

I just wanted to hug big sis.

How many people are here?

Where am I again?

I want Denki.

Where's Denki?

I can't breathe.

I can't breathe.

Who's shouting?

I want to go to sleep.

There's too many noises.

Can't they all shut up?

Please just be quiet.

Who's shouting at everything?

Why don't i recognize the voice?

I want Denki, i want to hug Denki.

"In 7, hold 4, out 8, repeat."

What?

"Oi, listen to me. Your fucking ok. No one is going to hurt you."

I can breathe.

My head hurts.

There's someone hugging me.

Huh, they feel...nice...

I closed my eyes, opening them slowly, giving them a moment to adjust to the light.

Looking around at first glance there was only me, and someone with blond hair. My mind immediately went to Denki, before realizing that their hair was a lighter blond than his.

I weakly tried pushing them away, but the person still kept their grip on me. Damnit, this was annoying.

I softly tapped their shoulder, probably waking them up, wait what? How did this person even fall asleep?

They slowly let go of me with a disgruntled yawn.

Weirdo.

The person moved slightly to give me some more space, simultaneously allowing me to see what they looked like.

The person seemed to be male, he had a black skull shirt on, with some loose grey sweatpants. He had spiky ash blond hair too, with red eyes. I recognized him from one of the facetime calls, he had been shouting at Denki and a red haired friend of his to give him back his sweater.

Denki was right, he did look like a pomeranian.

The male looked up at me, a scowl was now present on his face, although it looked more tired than it did angry.

"Tsk, what do ya want mini dunceface?" He snarled at me.

"N-name."

He looked at me for a moment almost as if inspecting me, before lifting his hands up, and moving them.

"Do you know sign language?"

My eyes lit up, happy that someone from this class knew it as well.

"Yeah! I can't really use my throat, it got very banged up when i was rescued." I signed smiling softly at the male.

"Sounds shitty."

"It is."

"So what's your name mini dunceface?"

"Yuki Kaminari, I'm Denki's little sister."

"Didn't know he had one."

"He probably wouldn't want to speak about me all that much, I'm not that interesting anyways."

"If that blabbermouth kept you a secret  for this long, you gotta be worth a shit."

I let out a soft giggle, while he blushed slightly, 'tsk'ing again. It seemed to be a habit of his.

"So what's your name Mr. Tsk?"

He let out a snort at this before answering with a smirk.

"Katsuki Bakugo. Don't wear it out mini dunce."

"So I've been upgraded to mini dunce, from mini dunceface now? What an honor."

At this Bakugo snorted again, but before we could continue our exchange, the door burst open and an out of breath Denki stumbled in, with a very red faced Toshi-chan behind him.

"YUKI! Oh thank God your ok! I'm never letting you out of my sight again!" He said as he ran up to me, squeezing me in a hug. I quickly hugged him back burying my face into his neck.

I felt him turn his head towards where Bakugo was sitting on the bed.

"Thanks for not killing her Kacchann! I always knew you loved us deep down in that flaming heart of your's."

"Tsk, shut it dunceface or I'll fucking punch you."

"Aww, love you too Kacchann! Yuki, say thank you to Kacchann for not blowing you up to pieces and being a decent human being for once in his life."

I smiled into Denki's neck, as i mumbled out a soft but broken 'thank you Kacchann' only gaining me another 'tsk' in return.

After another hour of Denki being a mother hen, he finally let me sleep once Toshi-chan commented on how i looked almost worse than he did. With a few giggles from us siblings, and a goodnight from both males, they turned off my light, and shut the door.

I curled up into my blanket, it was made from a very soft material, and was nicer than the one i was given at the hospital.

Sighing softly to myself, i slowly drifted off preparing myself for more of the usual nightmares.

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An: not much to say here honestly, but i did try writing a panic attack. It was shitty ik. Oh well, what's done is done.

Also, kacchann is super soft when he's  dealing with panic attacks, and also doesn't curse that much when signing. It's a head cannon of mine that i stand by no matter what. So come at me, im ready with the spicy chili cannons!

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