Jihye POV's

After 6 months build this relationship, I start to recognize that Luhan is a different person from 4 months ago. Our relationship still going on but like something is missing from this relationship. Other couple will fight each other but our relationship is too perfect. No fights, no arguments, just run smoothly and perfectly. Luhan will always treat me well but he stop to do sweet stuff to me now. I start to realize that he didn't close his eyes when he kiss me. I start to worrying about his feeling now. Every night, when I close my eyes, I start to negative thinking about him. Is he having a new girl? Is he didn't love me again? Is he stopping love me? Those things killing me softly but I don't have enough courage to ask. My heart start to ache everytime I think about this. I have to know his feeling. I have to talk with him tomorrow since it's the last day of this school year. I want to have my summer break without having a negative thought towards him.

Luhan POV's

I sit inside the class while staring at the window blankly. Today is the last day and I will have my summer break. I really tired because of school stuf. I want to have a holiday and I want to avoid Jihye. One day, when I wake up, I feel like my feeling from 100% turns to 0%. This is what I always scared. But since our relationship is the longest than my past relationships, I know she is kinda different. So I want to avoid her for a while and think about it. Am I really lost my feeling or I just feel bored of our perfect relationship. I need time to think, alone. If I missing her again, that means I just bored but if never miss her, maybe my feeling towards her really disappear. I just need to check it. Suddenly the bell ring, cutting my thought. I lift my face to see class. I see Jihye didn't there infront of me. Where is she? Is she late? "Let's start the class" I hear my teacher said that and I keep thinking about where is Jihye.

Until the end of the second class Jihye didn't appear here. Where is she? I start to worrying about her. I stand up from my seat and ask permission to go to the toilet. I walk out from the class and take out my phone. I text her asking where is she while looking at my phone. Suddenly someone bump into me making my phone kiss the floor. I turn my face from my phone to the person. I bulge my eyes when I see Jihye standing there "Jihye?" I see Jihye bulge her eyes too "Luhan? What are you doing here? Shouldn't you attending the class?" She ask me while breath heavily "Where are you from? Why arriving at this time? You skip two classes, almost three classes" I said that to her. She takes a deep breath and massaging her forehead "Something urgent come up, grandma being hospitalized" She said that to me "Waeyo?" I ask her "My grandma falling from the stairs" She said that with a sad face. My thought screams to me to hug her but my body just froze there "I worry about her, I'm afraid" She said that to me "She will be alright" I said that to her while stroking her shoulder. I just can do that, nothing else. She gives me a weak smile and I return it. Suddenly I hear the bell ringing. The last class already end "The class ended, let me take my bag and I will drive you home" I said that to her and leave her alone there.

I enter the class and I see all my classmates already leave from there. They can't wait to having a summer break too, just like me. I walk to my seat and put in all my belonging to my bag. Suddenly I see Jihye sit infront of me "Jihye? I told you to wait there" I said that to her. She just looking at me and sighing "Luhan, you changed a lot these days" She said that to me while playing with her nail "What happened actually?" She continue and I just froze there, I really don't know what to say "I'm not change" I said that to her and continue putting my belonging to bag. She turn her face to me, staring deeply into my eyes. I sigh to myself and taking a seat. Now we facing each other "Luhan, tell me, what happened?" She said that softly "Nothing happened" I said that to her "Lying, you are lying to me right now" She snap at me and I just keep stare at her "I don't know what happened to me" I said that to her and think. What should I said? How should I explain to her? "I just feel like I lost all my feeling" I blurt out to her and I bite my lips. I'm so stupid. How can I said that? I can see her eyes change, become teary but she smile to me, not her sincere smile "Did you have new girl?" She ask me and I shake my head because I really don't have one "Hmmm" She said that and turn her face to other direction "Thank you, you tell me the truth" She said that to me "But why?" She turn her face to me again "Am I making a mistake? Am I not perfect for you? How can you lost your feeling?" She continue "You are not making a mistake, you are perfect for me but I don't know why" I said that to her, raising my voice. I see her sighing and bite her lips "So?" She ask me. What I have to say? I can't control my emotion now. I want to explode because she rush me to give her the final words "Don't playing around with my heart, if you still love me, let's continue this but if you really lost your feeling, just end it, don't play with my heart" She said that. Who is playing with her heart? I never playing with her heart. Is that all inside her mind? Negative thinking over me? I stare deeply at her eyes "Okay! Let's just break up then" I said that and grab my bag harshly. I throw a cold stare to her before leaving her there alone. She didn't cry. She didn't beg me to stay. She didn't ask me to try it once again. My past lovers did that all. Crying like crazy, begging me to stay and asking me to try it once again. Kim Jihye, I give you applause because of your high pride.

Jihye POV's

"Jihye? I told you to wait there" Luhan said that to me when he saw me there. Why he ask me that way? Like he didn't want me. I stare at him and sigh "Luhan, you changed a lot these days" I start to be honest now. I hope he will become honest too. I turn my face to my nail and play with them "What happened actually?" I continue "I'm not change" He said that and I really surprised with his answer. How can he thought that way? I turn my face just to see him busy with his belonging. I stare at him when he end putting his belonging to bag. I see Luhan sigh and sit on his seat. We facing each other and stare deeply. I try to read his eyes bit nothing "Luhan, tell me, what happened?" I said that softly to him "Nothing happened" I know he is lying now. His eyes told everything "Lying, you are lying to me right now" I snap at him because I lost my patient. He just staring at me "I don't know what happened to me" He said that and my heart start to jump uncontrolably because of nervousness "I just feel like I lost all my feeling" DAMN! Feels like having a heart attack and your soul left your body. Shit, this is the real shit. I see Luhan bite his lips. I know I'm holding my tears right now. I won't cry infront of him so I force a smile to him "Did you have new girl?" I ask him and he shakes his head "Hmmm" I said that and I just want to trust him one more time. I turn my face to other direction not wanting to see him. If I see him I will cry. I control my feeling, well my sad feeling "Thank you, you tell me the truth" I said that to him without seeing him "But why?" I turn my face to him "Am I making a mistake? Am I not perfect for you? How can you lost your feeling?" I continue. I really curious why he lost the feeling "You are not making a mistake, you are perfect for me but I don't know why" He said that to me, raising his voice. Why he has to raise his voice? He never do that to me since I became his girlfriend six months ago. I sigh and bite my lips. I know how this conversation end "So?" I ask him "Don't playing around with my heart, if you still love me, let's continue this but if you really lost your feeling, just end it, don't play with my heart" I said that to him because I didn't hear his answer for a while "Okay! Let's just break up then" He said that to me and my heart stop. He grab his bag harshly and stare at me coldly. After that I see him leave me there alone. I stare blankly at his back and laugh at myself pathetically before starting to cry. This is how it feels? Losing him, losing someone you love, losing someone you trust. I know I'm stupid crying over him but it hurts so bad. I never expect today's conversation will lead us to this. I think it will lead us to something better. I love him but why he didn't love me like I love him? I cry just for myself, no scream, no voice. I just cry in silent. I'm too tired to do that. I cry a lot this morning because of my grandma and I cry a lot now because of Luhan. Suddenly I realize something that make me stop crying "Jihye, stop this stupid thing, he doesn't worth your tears, once a jerk, he will become a jerk forever" I said that to myself and wipe my tears. I stand up from the seat and walk out from the class. I'm not the same person from last day. I'm changed, I'm not a good Jihye anymore, I'm bad Jihye now. The light leave my eyes, they are cold now.

I start the engine and drive from the school. It's a relief that our school already ended. I won't see him, I can move on from him easily. I keep busy with my thought while driving my car. I near to crush with another car twice. I need to stay strong but my sight always become blank. Luhan really affect me so much. I can feel my heart empty and my heartbeat so fast. I sigh and closing my eyes for a while but suddenly I feel my body flung to the front. My body bump into the steering wheel. I open my eyes and stare blankly at the front. I see a black luxury car infront of my car. Am I crush that car? I stare blankly and I see a guy come out from that car. I can't see his expression because he using a shade. From his nose, I can told you that he is handsome. Suddenly I'm awake from my thought from hearing a knock on the window. I turn my face and I see that guy knocking on the window. I bulge my eyes and start to panicking now. What should I do? I crush his car. God, please help your child. I open the door and come out from my car. I see around and I thank God because I already at my neighbourhood. No police here. I turn my face to the guy again and this time he already take out his shade. When he take out that shade? I see him staring at me coldly "Did you realize that you are committing a crime?" He said that to me and I just stare blankly. Crime? What crime? It's just an accident! "Crime? It's just an accident, I will pay for your car repairment" I said that to him and I see him smirking "I can pay it alone, I can pay for your car too" He said that while point his finger to my forehead. This guy really arrogant. I roll my eyes in disgust and lock my eyes with his eyes "So what do you want?" I ask him "Apologize to me" He said that to me. Apologize? Should I did that? "Hurry, I'm busy" He said that to me while crossing his arm infront of his chest "Alright, sorry for that" I said that then smiling to him, humiliate smile. I don't know why I did that, I just want to release some stress. I enjoying a good argument "You are not sorry" He snap at me "You said you busy, why you are not leaving now?" I ask him and I see him bulge his eyes "You are really something" He said that to me, didn't believe my bitchy attitude "Jongsuk" Suddenly I hear a girl calling him. Her voice, I think I familiar with that voice "Hurry, we don't have time" She said that from the window. I didn't see her face properly because she used shade. I think she can't see me either because this guy named Jongsuk talling over me. I see Jongsuk stare at me once again and I smile to him while waving. I get in to my car and drive my car away. God really love me. By the way, Jongsuk looks cute.

I lay in my bed trying to sleep but I can't. Luhan start to disturbing my thought. Suddenly all the memories start to playing around my mind. I remember when we sleep together on the car roof. I remember when we sleep together at the side of the lake. I remember we make love in Canada. I start to crying over those memories. I know I said Luhan not worth my tears earlier but those memories just too sweet. I can't believe that we are done. This time I cry uncontrolably. I burry my face on my pillow so it can reduce my voice too. Eventhough I showed Luhan no tears earlier, that didn't mean I'm strong. I'm weak, I'm breaking, I'm dying. I can't believe our relationship turns to zero again. But I think this time even worse. We are just stranger with thousand memories. I really want him but my pride didn't let me call him. My pride always tell me that Luhan is a jerk. Don't run into him again. Don't fall for him again. Don't show him your weak side, be strong, give him a smile, show him that you are alright without him. That time, he will regret it.