Namjoon

I don't know how to face Beom. Every time we have practices, she somehow evades me. She will give it her all in the practice, acknowledge our staff, and then disappear off somewhere. When I try to look for her in the dorms, she is either out or locked in her room. All I want to do is apologize to her for what I said about not wanting her to go to the AMAs.

I was pretty stupid telling her that not only ARMY, but BTS and myself as their leader would feel uneasy if she performed at the AMAs with us. That was just prodding an open wound. I knew that she was already feeling self-conscious about the fact that she is here replacing her older brother. The respect she has for him is so great, that she feels like she can never live up to him. I can practically hear her thoughts, Will ARMY accept me? Will they like me? Are they mad that I'm taking over Jin's spot? I'm sure BTS likes Jin a lot more than me. I should be thankful that they are simply tolerating me right now. I need to work a lot harder to gain not only ARMY's respect and love but also BTS's. After the conversation I had with her (I would call it a fight, but I'm not too sure what it was. Becuase I know that she wouldn't call the argument we had a fight because she was speaking so civilly to me.) Those thoughts have just been amplified ten fold. And that is my fault. I can see how stressed she was. Jungkook even told me that she fainted last week.

Speaking of Jungkook, something is up with him. He seems a lot more protective of Beom, and when I asked him why, he simply just shrugged and told me that he found Beom passed out in the front lobby last week and was rather concerned about her. I am suspicious that Jungkook might know that Beom is a girl, but I'm not too sure. I mean, if any of the members found Beom passed out on the floor, I'm sure that they would be helping Beom with her heavy stuff, bringing her food, taking her out once she was recovered. That's right, Jungkook is just being concerned over Beom. He doesn't want to see any of his precious members sick, and that is why he is paying such close attention to Beom right now.

I'm not going to lie, I was surprised to see how fast the members warmed up to Beom. With Jin leaving us, it felt like we were torn apart. He was always here, taking care of us, making us laugh, feeding us... and then the suddenly was not...The idea of bringing in this total stranger to our family was very strange. Not to mention a girl! I was against it, but she is Jin's sister. And this way we would at least have some connection to him in some sort of way. Everyone is just somehow trying to grasp onto anything that reminds them of Jin, and maybe that's why we accepted Beom so easily... them thinking that Beom is Jin's brother that is. And Beom herself is fun. She is entertaining. The way she made the maknae line's mouths drop, and made everyone freeze with her dancing, probably making them regret (or not, because let's be real, although they wanted to make Beom do that dance to embarrass herself, they wanted to see her dance sexily) choosing that punishment for her was hilarious. 

Jin is great, and I miss him a lot, not only because of what he brings to BTS, but also for personal reasons. But I'm not going to lie, but Beom has talent, and I should be thankful that she agreed to step into Jin's place and support BTS when we need it. I could think of no one better to take over Jin's spot when he is taking his break. The only problem is that I hope she doesn't loose herself in all the midst of this persona flipping

But it has been a week, and I have not had the time to apologize, and I feel like a dick for it. Not to mention that now Jin is mad at me too.

Jimin

Jungkook has been acting rather protective over Beom recently. They have gotten a lot closer. He teases her a lot. And when I mean a lot, I mean more than I tease him. They are always together, dinner, lunch, practices. I also noticed that Jungkook is less handsy with Beom. Normally with us, Jungkook will exercise his strength to show us how much stronger he is than us, pushing us over, keeping us in headlocks, hitting us playfully, but with Beom, it's gentle touches, and teasing words. Not to mention that Jungkook won't let us be alone with Beom in peace. Why is he so respectful to him, and not to his own hyung!? But I guess that this just shows that our Jungkookie is growing up and learning to become a hyung.

I went to Beom's room and knocked on his partially open door.

"Come on in, it's open," he called, and I entered his room, and closed the door behind me. He was sitting in a chair at his desk, working on something. From the glimpses I got on the paper, it looked like he was designing something. 

"Oh, Jiminie-hyung. Please take a seat." he motioned to his bed, and I sat down, "What can I do for you?" He asked adding some finishing touches to the sketch he was doing.

I shifted towards him a little bit, a tad bit uncomfortable, "Well, I was wondering if I could ask you a couple of things about... about your sister."

Immediately he looked up from his desk and rolled his chair over to me to look at me. "Ummmm... ya I mean what do you want to ask about her? I mean she is nothing special..." he laughed nervously.

"Well, I was wondering if you knew if she was seeing anyone."

He let out a huge laugh. Like to the point where he started crying. "Who? Beom? Well thankfully, I can tell you that for as blind as she may seem, she can see perfectly fine. So I'm guessing that she is seeing a person right now." You, in fact, Beom adds in her head, but continues, "No I don't think that there would be any man on earth who would want to date her. I mean did you see her? Do you know how much she eats?" He wipes away his tears, "Why are you asking? Are you concerned that my little twin sister might never find someone to be with her?"

"Well, you know, you shouldn't be so harsh on her, she's really cute and rather pretty you know," I said trying to defend her. His twin sister is cute and pretty, and I think about her trying to teach Beom how to dance like he did. I can't wait to see her perform on a stage like that. I'm sure that she is a great performer and has an enormous stage presence. I can't wait for the annual concert in two weeks where I can see her group Geode perform!

Beom blushed a little bit, biting his lip, not knowing what to say. That was probably awkward for him. I just told him that I thought that his twin sister, who looks exactly like him is attractive.

I smirked, "But, you know, the two of you have the same face, maybe it's you who is pretty and cute." I trailed my hand up under his chin and lifted his face so that he would meet my eyes. He blushed a deeper red, man, its really fun to make fun of him.

He knocked my hand away, breaking out eye contact, and he was about to retort something back, when Jungkook ran into the room, grabbed the back of Beom's swirly chair on wheels, and whirled him away from me.

"Jimin! You can't touch Beom like that!" he yelled.

"What why not?" I asked innocently.

"Because.... Because... You just CAN'T." he emphasized.

I just rolled my eyes at our old maknae.

"Yah, okay Jungkook, whatever you say. But that doesn't change the fact that I was born in Busan first." I got up and started heading for the door.

"When will you stop saying that! I came to Seoul first!" Jungkook shot back, but I ignored him.

"Beom, it was a pleasure talking to you. I'll finish asking you my questions when we aren't disturbed by this copycat." and with that, I exited his room.

"If you are going to call me an animal, at least call me a bunny, not a cat. You are the cat out of all of us." Jungkook yelled.