Beom

After all the interviews were done, we had to prep for our fan meetups. Okay... this is crazy. Absolutely crazy. When I simply looked out the window, I legit had to do a double take. The line of fans zigzags from one end of the plaza to the other like 78 times before finally disappearing around the building. Are there really this many fans coming to just for fan meet!? How many tickets were there!? Do I really have to meet all these people!?! I've always imagined it to be only a room full of fans not... hundreds of hundreds. Is this what every fan meet is like? I just realize that I need to pretend to be my own twin brother in front of all these people... how will I manage to fool all these fans? Fans literally notice everything... from the fact that you are hiding your natural hair colour with a black spray on dye to your little mannerisms...

Jimin chuckles at my awed expression. "I know right. Isn't it amazing how dedicated ARMY it's amazing? Honestly, every time I see how many of them come out to see us, my breath gets taken away. We are so lucky to have such dedicated and loyal fans."

"It's actually crazy." I look over the crowd again, and my gut clenches. Am I really going to be able to keep up this fake facade of being another person in front of all these fans? Will I really be able to make this fan meet worth their time? I've never really met actual members of ARMY... well that's a lie because everyone at BigHit is ARMY, because we all love the boys, but I've never met an ARMY as Beom of BTS. What if they don't like me? What if I'm not what they expect?

"Hey..." Jimin reaches for my wrist and pulls me away from the window. He stands in front of me. "I know that this is probably very overwhelming. You were content with your life as the unknown brother of two k-pop idols, but now you're here in a position you never thought you'd be in. A member of one of the biggest K-pop groups. We have fans from not only Korea, but Canada, USA, Brazil, the UK, Japan, Europe, really all over the world. One wrong move and you could ruin not only your own reputation but also BTS's and this company. There will be people out in that crowd who are confused with your sudden appearance with Jin-hyung gone. There will be people who don't like you because they think that you are taking your brother's spot. In fact, there will be people out there who will hate you for no reason at all, even though there are probably numerous amount of reasons to hate you. Because you can be really annoying when it comes down to the last dumpling on the table, and don't let me get started about how stubborn you are when it comes to nailing the choreo. We need to drag you out of the practice room on the days you feel like you haven't "got it right". And then you zone out when you are really tired, and nothing we say registers. The cliche saying "in one ear out the other" actually applies. It's like we are talking through a tube and our own voice echoes around a bit, and then gets lost. "

It suddenly becomes harder to breathe. My heart starts to speed up, the loud thundering sound building up within my ears, and the walls start to shift a little bit. I clench all my muscles, willing for everything to stop. Park Jimin, if you think you're helping, you really aren't. Telling a person how much they suck, and listing their flaws when they are clearly in a vulnerable state, might not be the best thing to do... Idiot

"But," he continues, gripping me a little tighter, and practically holding me up from curling in a ball (he is surprisingly strong for such a little man... even though I should not be talking cause I'm pretty little too), "There will be people out there who will love you. There will be people who you might win over, and eventually become their bias. There will be people who will think that you deserve nothing but happiness. And not only with those fans, you will have BTS, BigHit, and your family by your side. I can say that everyone on BTS is extremely thankful for stepping in. Even Namjoon, even though he may pressure you sometimes... It's just that leader-hyung has a hard time accepting that his boyfriend isn't here anymore." Breathing suddenly becomes a little bit easier, and my heart beat slows down enough for my head to clear, and the thundering sound of my racing heart is not pounding in my head. I can't keep it together when I think about my brother and my leader being together. First of all, it's nice to know that all the Namjin compilations I've watched are real, but secondly, Ewww... like my own brother, and a leader have to... you know do the deed, and I'm not up for imagining what happens between them in the closed doors of the dorms.

Jimin notices my clenched fist start to relaxed, "Are you feeling okay."

I let out a shaky laugh, "Ya sure. It's not like I just on the edge had a minor panic attack or anything...No, of course, I'm not feeling fu*king fine Park Jimin. Who do you think you are encouraging my panic like that?" I lightly flick his forehead.

"Well, I thought that it might be better to get all the nerves out, and then reassure you."

I smile shakily, but I slowly gain my confidence back, " First of all, I'm pretty sure that's not how the cure for panic attacks work. But you certainly did get me to panic if that was your intent... then your are fu*king Pabo Park Jimin! How the hell is inducing a panic attack going to help me?! Did you even think before you acted?!"

Jimin laughs, "You sound just like my mom. She always scolds me to think before I act. But it sounds like you're back to your usual self."

I snort, "Glad to know that I normally act like your eomma. Although I'm flattered to be equated the amazing Mrs. Park, I'm not a middle-aged woman who had to deal with all your shenanigans you were up to while growing up. The poor woman, I can't image the trouble she had to go through raising two boys, especially if one of those boys is Park Jimin."

"No I mean you are back to what you usually do: teasing  me like you always do." Jimin smiles while pinching my cheeks. I slap his hands away and rub my sore cheeks.

"Aish, is our little Beom nervous for his first fan meet?" Hoseok pats my head sympathetically. If it were anyone else I would have snapped at them for calling me their little Beom, but Hoseok sounds so genuine that I don't mind. "Here let me cheer you up!"

He breaks out into song and dance doing an extremely exaggerated version of Geode's title track. It's honestly scary how well he does the movement. Like when and how did he learn it? Tae notices Hoseok from across the hall, and immediately jumps in and joins the dance. Yoongi who is slowly rounding the corner that Hoseok was coming from, looks up and sees the dancing, and immediately brightens, his gummy smile spreading onto his face, and he joins in. Now seeing Yoongi do the dance was just so adorable, that truly drives the nerves away.

"Yah, look at those idiots!" Jungkook laughs joining us.

I nudge him, "Hey! those idiots are surprising doing a rather amazing job at the awesome dance. Can you believe how well they are doing!?"

Namjoon comes around the corner, takes one look at his members dancing a girl group's dance in the hall, and turns right back around. 

I can't help but laugh at looking at Namjoon's disappointment. "Are you guys ready for the fan meet?"

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A/n

Hello you lovely human beans~!

Okay, so I took these photos a long time ago, but I just forgot to put them in here... so a background to why these photos exist... at my school, we have this large window space where a guiding question is put up (like every two weeks) asking about how students about how they deal with their own mental wellness (ex. How do you relax... and questions like that). And almost always, there is a BTS related answer on the window... so here are a few of them... 

I also wanted to mention that I know this is like a "behind BTS" kind of fanFICTION that talks about the life of Bangtan which the fans don't know about. And this fanfic, is not going to be 100% accurate, because we don't know what goes on in the boy's life all the time, and that is okay. I know that Burn the Stage has hit many people hard, and I want to thank the boys for being so open and vulnerable with the fans. Although this fanfic is meant to be fun and light, I don't want to take away from any of the hardships that the members are facing. It must take a lot of courage (and for them to be comfortable with themselves and each other) to put out Burn the Stage for the public to see, and I don't want to make light of what they are going through...So I guess what I want to say is: Just keep in mind that what this fanfic is... is just fiction. Like no way in real life will BTS get an 8th member who is female, dress her up as a male, and pass her off as the twin brother of another trainee. I also wanted to say that I am so proud of the boys and just our entire fandom for being so supportive of each other!

Peace Out