"Love is when you can't stop looking at him, even if he'll never look back."

Semmy Carson

"Go to the formal dance with me"

My head couldn't stop repeating that simple sentence as the air got sucked away from me, making me feel breathless over him. I stood there, like a frozen monument in front of him and my heart was racing way too fast. I was gaping and staring at him with wide eyes in utterly confusion.

Did he really ask me that? Did he?!

"T-to the dance?" I asked to be sure.

His gorgeous light eyes watched me as the smiled along with his lips, making them shine bright like stars. Being around him made me weak in the knees. He reminded me of the sun, brightly beautiful from the outside and warm from the inside from the inside. I couldn't get over him.

Holy shit, I think he really did ask me to the formal dance!

"Yes silly! We can go as friends! Since I broke up with Lucy" He explained furthermore, sending me one of his soft smiles.

Oh.. Friends..

"Semmy? You okay? Suddenly you seem a bit sad, did I said something wrong?" He asked, pulling me closer, trying to comfort me like the caring River Allen always did.

Yes you did.

"N-No.. Sorry I'm just tired, of course I will go with you as friends.." I murmured, looking away in disappointment and feeling my heart drop, almost shattering to the ground.

Well that was the hardest friendzone I ever felt.

How could I even have the confidence to think that he actually asked me out for a date? Of course he only asked me as his friend.

Because you are his friend, that's the only thing you ever will be Semmy.

Was it wrong that a heavy feeling swirled around in my stomach? As if a tornado came around to throw everything upside down for me to pick up all the lost pieces. I tried to mask my feelings, but River saw it.

River saw everything.

He knew when my stars fell down or when I got lost. That's how I felt; my path was gone, letting me lose my sight of where I had to go.

Usually I was a positive person, but when it came to River, all I could do was worry about everything and anything that included me. He made me more insecure than I was before.

River Allen was the popular kindhearted boy and I was the nobody who got beaten; we would never fit anyways, I thought as I blinked my tears away.

Of all the people my heart could have chosen, it decided on a boy who didn't have enough room in his own heart to love someone like me.

"Earth to little Sem" River said as he rubbed my back very soothing, letting the goosebumps roll over my shoulders down onto my back.

"So.. You are going with me right?" He asked, almost showing his puppy eyes.

The bastard knew I couldn't resist those.

"Yeah, I go with you" I tried to smile.

I should get over myself, I knew that River wouldn't fall for me.

"Good, I'll pick you up at seven" His gray eyes watched me and he smirked a bit.

Couldn't there be a day where he wasn't so dang beautiful?

He was blessed with dark gray eyes that had white parts in them and when he showed you his smile, his eyes illuminated like no other. The boy had this power of hypnotizing you, just by his eyes.

That smile of his was another story. His smile gave off such a loving atmosphere that you could feel it too, he let you experience what he felt. So whenever that smile fell, you fell to the ground along with it.

And don't let me start about his entire personality.

He was my one and only drug and I was dangerously addicted to it.

"You're still a stupid sports jock" I suddenly giggled.

"Pfff says the one who cries when he loses from me at FIFA!" He smirked back at me, thinking back to the times that he won.

"Hey I did not ever lose with FIFA! You are the one who cheats! Yes.. now you are a stupid cheater sports jock.. What's next? Dimwit?" I laughed out loud.

"Oh you are going down Carson.. I give you three seconds unless you want to die now already" He fake glared at me.

"Or what?" I dared to challenge him.

Have fun in heaven Semmy, you are officially dead now.

Hmm, I wouldn't mind dying if I could see River's abs while he kills me.

Hehe.

"Or.." He took a step closer to me, making me look up at him as I gulped. "I will tickle you again" He whispered soft in my ear.

He was so close by now, I could feel his breath against my cheek, the tingles spread across my body like some sort of crossfire and I loved every part of it.

"Stop with the freaking tickles I hate it!" I whined.

"Let me think about it.." He teased me by acting as if he reconsidered it.

But of course the silly boy didn't.

"Okay let's make a deal!" I yelled before I knew it.

"A deal? Tell me little boy" He grinned.

"I am not little, all of you are just so freaking tall!" I crossed my arms stern and glared.

"Or you are just short. It looks cute when you glare, because you are so small" He laughed loud.

"No I am not!"

"Okay babe, tell me" He smiled at me then.

Babe..

"Huh w-w-what?! What did y-you say?" I asked him.

"Nothing..?" He asked me genuinely confused.

Am I being crazy or did I hear that right?

Shit.. I must be going crazy from liking him so much.

Am I really that desperate?

"Uh okay.. The deal, I will play football with you if you are going to dance with me! So we make up for insulting each other" I laughed, actually loving it when we insult one another.

"You and football?! Holy shit that is a once in a lifetime chance, okay deal!" He looked with those beautiful playful eyes at me.

"Stupid sports jock.." I murmured, making sure that he wouldn't hear me.

Or else I would be dead meat.

"I have class Riv.. I probably won't have time later today so I see you tomorrow?"

"Sure Semmy, I will pick you up! And look stunning okay?" He winked cheeky.

"Y-Yeah.. You too.. B-bye!" I stuttered like a mess.

I still couldn't believe that I actually would be going to the dance with River! Even though it wasn't in the way that I wanted it to be, if being friends with River was all that I could get then I guess I had to deal with it.

I'd rather have River as a friend than having no River at all.

I walked towards my class, thinking of what color my suit should be and how to impress everyone.