"You are the first and last thing on my mind, each and every day."

Semmy Carson

The classes with River mostly consisted of me trying not to get caught for staring at the godlike boy and not paying attention to whatever the teachers explained to us in class.

I couldn't help it okay! Don't blame me.

It was River's fault for being such an attractive boy. His gray eyes shone with this rare kind of happiness like usually, making me feel good at an instant. River was an overall very positive boy, it was impossible not to be happy whenever you were around him. He always knew how to cheer you up even unconsciously.

His hair almost looked golden even underneath these crappy school lights. And the casual clothes he wore, made him hella attractive like he didn't even need to try to look good.

So how could I not stare at his natural beauty?

We had only two hours of maths so it wasn't such a big deal that I wasn't paying attention. I was an A student when it came to maths. In fact, all my grades in every class were pretty high.

We weren't allowed to talk in our classes anyways. Everyone was for some reason pretty quiet in class today, probably because they were tired and wanted to go home like every kid in this prison called school. So if River or I even dared to talk with each other, you could hear it loud and clear.

I also tried not to be obvious about the sharp pain that was spread across my body that Mitchell gave me as a present. River couldn't find out so I tried to move as less as I could and tried not to winch a lot.

Now River and I were in his car on our way to my house. After the discussion about my bleeding wounds and bruises, he insisted to go to my house so he could take care of them like he was my own personal nurse or something.

Not that I would mind..

Hell, I actually wanted to tell so bad what I felt for this angelic boy. To free myself from all what I kept in.

But I couldn't.

It was wrong; he was my best friend and he had a girlfriend who was a sneaky potato by the way. He wasn't a homophobe, but River wouldn't want me near him anymore if I'd ever confess to him. I couldn't just ruin all these years of friendship with him, it meant way too much to me to let that all crash down on us. And besides all of that: he never felt the same.

This was just your familiar unrequited love and I had to deal with that.

"Semmy? Hey, Semmy we're here" River made me snap out of my thoughts by softly shaking my shoulders.

"Huh? Oh.." I spoke dumbfounded when I indeed saw that we arrived.

"Are you okay? You looked deep in thoughts, what were you thinking about?" He started to ask me concerned and frowned in a way that made me swoon over him even more.

You.

"N-no nothing. Just the stress with school and my home situation came a bit down on me" I told him in a honest way.

It wasn't what I was thinking about, but I actually was stressed about these things. Even though I was good with all my grades, it took me a lot of effort and I had bullies right after me which nobody ever knew about.

And my home situation..

Both of my parents were too caught up in their work to forget their only child which was why River was also a lot around my house or I at his. River knew how much it actually touched me that I didn't have parents to support, ease or even freaking celebrate all the holidays with me including my birthday.

River's parents were more parents to me than my own parents ever were and probably ever will be.

"It's okay Sem, I'm here for you. We can play some video games before going to the party?" He smiled and rubbed my shoulder in a comforting way.

"That would be nice" I smiled back as we both got out of the car and got inside my house.

Well actually River basically dragged me by my arm towards my bathroom that was inside of my bedroom, I tried not to winch since my body still hurts. He gestured for me to sit so I hopped on one of the cabinets that was besides the sink.

He looked in the cabinet on the other side of the sink which made me laugh soft at him. He looked like a real expert while he actually just had been here so many times so he knew where everything was.

An aidbox was placed on the cabinet and he grabbed a small bottle of alcohol along with some cotton out of it.

"This is going to hurt Sem.." He warned me before he put some alcohol on the cotton.

He carefully cupped my cheek with one hand whilst he applies the alcohol onto my wound that was across my cheekbone on the other side of my face.

"S-Shit that stings!" I muttered and winced.

"Sorry.." He murmured and went further with the cotton on the wound that was spread across my forehead.

I tried not to move too much, but that stuff hurts a lot so I couldn't really sit still either.

And then I haven't even told him about the bruises and pain around my body. But he would suspect something if he saw all of it. The wounds and bruises on my body didn't just look like it was just a stupid fall from the stairs, if he'd find out he'd know that I lied.

"Okay done!" He said and looked satisfied as if he was highly proud of himself which made me laugh.

"You're a dork" I smiled.

"But I'm your dork" He winked cheeky.

I accidently let out a giggle and felt my cheeks heating up.

"Aw did I hear that right? A giggle?" He smirked and took a step closer to me.

"N-no shut up!" My eyes widened.

"Maybe I should try to make you giggle some more then.." He smirked and goes with his fingers towards my side.

He trapped me so I couldn't get away plus he was way faster and stronger than I ever was.

"No don't! Pleaaaase" I whined and also tried to give him my puppy eyes.

Ha take that!

I never could resist his puppy eyes now see if mine work.

"Okay fine, but only because you will go to that party with me" He grinned and walked away.

I let out a sigh of relieve after that. I wasn't even aware of holding my breath, but that was so close. He stood so close to me with his face and those eyes..

"Semmy? Hurry up you lazy ass and come play FIFA!" He yelled up from my room.

I whined at that. I honestly sucked at FIFA. I just had all these things here, just because he liked to play all those video games.

Eventually I walked to my room, started the game and both of us were massively pushing on those buttons like our lives were on the line.

Sadly he won with 8-1.

Stupid sports jock.

"Ha I won! Take that Semmy boy!" He yelled loud and laughed his ass off.

"Shut up! You were freaking cheating" I muttered and frowned at the stupid screen.

"I sat beside you the whole time Semmy! You just suck at this game and can't take losing" He smirked playfully.

"Pfff I can take losing! I just want revenge!" I pouted and crossed my arms like a kid.

He laughed and hugged me tight before nodding then. Mostly I would love to hug him, but that did hurt a lot.

"Game on pretty boy" He looked at the screen like he was about to kill a man whilst playing another round.

After a couple of more matches and discussions about who cheated and who didn't, we unfortunately got up and walked outside towards River his black car. We got in and I started buckle up my seatbelt.

"Ready for Lucy's party?" He asked me before driving away from my lovely house.

No.