You wanted to save me, but no one could save me. I blinded and fooled you, I messed up your life alongside mine. I've done so much evil to you as to nobody else, but you found willingness to show me kindness. To help me. Kiss me therefor I'm the devil and you are a sinner praying for its doings to be drowned in oblivion. You tried to change me when I have fallen too deep to get up, so I gifted you this one last chance to separate your life from suffering and end the misery that others tasted of so much. But you never took the opportunity, with widely open eyes you passed by it without even glancing as if you couldn't see it. You chose the world of light as if I wasn't existing at all.

You once told me that you would do anything for us. For me. You told me that there wasn't a crime you couldn't commit in order to drag us out of the darkness. So why? Why did you turn your back on me when I needed you most? I had hopes for each and every one of you. Not for a second I doubted the helping hand to be reached out to me. But I trusted you most, I had highest hopes for you. I never, not for a second thought you would betray your world given to me to help me at my darkest hour.

I'm not mad at you for not helping me. I'm mad that you made me believe you would.

You're tired of running. You're tired of living. You're tired of paying for all of our sins. I know and you know it too. I could have ended your agony at any given moment, but you chose differently and decided to safe my stained soul at any cost. Why did you do that? You knew it was impossible, but you still made a deal with a devil.

You were the one to cut my dark wings off. To set me free from my sins just like everyone else. Seokjin... you saved me. But you brought endless ache onto yourself. I wish I could thank you for what you did for me without reservation, having high hopes for me to succeed and free myself. How can I ever repay you?

Repay for a wish being granted, for setting me free, for keeping your promises, for doing anything that it takes to save us all. To save us, whom gave you nothing in return and couldn't possibly have given. Yes, I betrayed your trust, by letting your hard work go to waste and even knowing that you're still praying for us all to survive, I have no idea if you noticed that by the time all of them felt the good your sacrifice has done, I was gone already. And I can't even check on you, see if you noticed, see how you're doing, I can't even help you because I am stuck here why the rest are still out there looking after you like you did for us.

More than anyone else you knew what I was going through and what I was tempted to. You're the only one who got to see me commit and ultimate sin that could never be washed away. I'm sorry to you, and still, after all you've done for me, I have one last request.

Tell my sister I'm sorry.