AND IN THIS STORY YOU ARE NOT THE ONE WHO GETS HAPPINESS // YOU ARE NOT DESERVING YOU ARE THE NEGATIVE SPACE AND THE LACK OF IT // YOU WANT TO BE HERE MORE THAN YOU CAN SAY // YOU WANT TO SHRINK MORE THAN YOU KNOW // YOU WANT TO BECOME ENOUGH // NOT ENOUGH // TO SQUEEZE INTO THE GAPS BETWEEN FINGERS AND YOU WERE NOT THE HERO IN THIS STORY // IN THIS STORY THEY GO HOME TOGETHER // YOU GO HOME ALONE // OPEN YOUR CLOSET AND HIDE IN IT // OPEN YOUR CLOSET AND WHEN CAN YOU // HOW CAN YOU LEAVE // YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE THIS PLACE // LET ME HIDE HERE PLEASE // INSIDE MY RIB CAGE BEHIND BONES AND BARS // I WANT TO SHRINK INTO THIS SKELETON I WANT TO FIT FINALLY // WINGS CARVING OUT OF MY CHEST THIS STORY WAS NEVER MEANT FOR ME // THIS STORY WAS MEANT FOR THE BELOVED FOR THE BOY AND THE GIRL SITTING UNTIL THEY ARE BOYANDGIRL OR GIRLANDBOY // AND THERE IS NO SPACE FOR YOU AT ALL NO SPACE FOR YOU-ME-I-US // NO SPACE FOR PEOPLE LIKE US EVER // JUST LET ME HAVE THIS STORY PLEASE // WHY ISN'T THIS BOOK EVER ABOUT ME // WHY AM I NOT THE PROTAGONIST IN MY OWN HEAD // WHY IS IT ALWAYS YOU YOU YOU YOU // WHY IS THERE ALWAYS THIS TERRIBLE WANTING // THE NEED FOR A WHOLENESS // AN EMPTINESS // A SPACE WHERE SOMETHING SHOULD GO THE OPEN BRACKETS OF MY RIBS // SOMETHING SHATTERING IN BETWEEN // THIS STORY WAS NEVER MINE