I think I just had a panic attack, I haven't had one in a long time but I was out for town for four days for school, I just came home, things are moving and changing too fast.

I live on a acreage on the edge of town, over the past several years they have been building closer and closer, now they are building a apartment complex just down the road from us. Next to us is a horse farm, or was, they just got bought out and when I drove up the road I saw that all the trees that where on the front of that property all got taken down, everything except out one line of trees against our fence.

I used to be able to look through the trees and just see more trees, now I can see the apartments and houses from the yard. I've lived here for almost twenty years now, I've grown up here and now there's a good chance that we will have to sell.

I have so much past shit I mentally haven't felt with and now this, I know some trees don't seem like much but it makes it so much more real and I don't know how to handle this.

Four days, that's all it took.

There used to be rows and rows of trees, now it's just gone, it looks so wrong and empty.