Fuck my life.

Why does mah heart gotta start feeling things, like stop, feelings only end badly. It always ends badly, and I always get hurt, so why, why after years of not feeling anything does it do this now.

I was perfectly fine, just drifting on my own, lonely but at least I can't get my heart torn out if I don't have feelings for people. But noooooo, now you gotta start feeling things for a short, sweet girl who you work with and who's actually shorter than you, while you're already struggling with other feelings.

Fuuuuuccccccckkkkkk

My mind says stop but my heart is being pulled in multiple directions, whyyyyyy.

I start feeling a little something for one person, and the flood gates burst open and now in falling for more than one person. Why am I like this.

I tell myself to stop but then my mind wanders and goes places and I just, idk, I haven't felt like this in a long time for anyone and now there's two people I would do anything for.

Ugh, guess I shall just suffer in silence till these feelings and thoughts pass.