I'm not going to give you the usual I hate valentines cause I'm single, cause honestly that's no true. This day has no meaning to me anymore, it's just another day. Growing up it wasn't about a significant other, my family celebrated it as a day that we show appreciation for those we love, doesn't matter if they were family, friends or a lover. So I used to love Valentine's Day, it was a day I could show the people I loved how much I loved them.

This was several years ago but I was staying with my grandma in her apartment for the weekend. In the same building in extensive care was another lady I considered my grandma since growing up I'd spend every Saturday over at their house. I was supposed to go see her on the 13th, but when I realized that the next day was Valentine's Day I figured I'd surprise her then. I had been meaning to visit her for a few months at this point.

The next day I went and got some flowers, I was upstairs getting them ready when I got a call, and found out she had passed away on Valentine's Day morning. I never got to see her and I constantly beat myself up over it, I've never forgiven myself, it's one of my biggest regrets. I should have just go to see her the day before, like I had planned, but I didn't.

That's why I hate Valentine's Day now, it just brings back bad memories, regret and guilt, I hate it so much.

I thought visiting her on Valentine's Day would be better, that it would have more meaning but in the end it ended up costing me the ability to see her one last time.

Don't put off visiting people, yeah, maybe it's just one more day, but you never know what could happen. That's what I have learnt the hard way, but luckily I was there for my grandma the night before she passed, I didn't know at the time but this was the last picture I ever took with her. If I could only keep one picture from my passed, it would be this one, just cause it means so much to me.

My aunt even had the Live Photo setting on when she took it, I didn't find that out till recently when it started to play a small video.

As for my other grandma who passed on Valentine's Day, as far as I know I don't really have any pictures with her, and that just makes me feel worse.

But I hope everyone had a good Valentine's Day, don't forget to text your loved ones, tell them you love them, even if you haven't texted in a while.

Good night, or day, or whatever it is for ya